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[muppet]

This is one of those post I'm not sure I should post. I'm feeling a bit out of the loup because it seems like so many on here have a trainer, or go to a gym, have the latest equipment, or are in some special program.
I'm sincerely not trying to put down any of these things. I think whatever you need to do, you should do. I'm not trying to judge. But I made a promise to myself to do this on my own. I truly believe that for me to do this permanently, it has to be 100% me. The only think I do rely on are the lean cuisine meals, and others like that. I talked myself out of wanting a treadmill. I've crossed any kind of diet using meal replacements ( ie - slimfast) or what I think are silly restrictions ( drop 2 sizes eating 2 bowls of cereal a day, or any kind of low or no-carb diet) off the list of possiblilties to try, or try again.
I don't know if these are bad all around, but I know they are bad for me. I'm just trying to do this by eating as much real food as possible. I'm trying to do exercise that I love and will want to continue forever.
I don't know what I'm trying to say -- I guess I'm having a hard time relating lately. I am so impressed by the discipline and dedication so many of you have, but I'm starting to feel bad about myself, because I'm just not at that level. And, I really don't want to be. I'm not sure it would be worth exercising 2 or 3 hours a day. I want to get healthy, but I'm not in training for anything. I just don't have that kind of time to give, and when I do have 2 or 3 hours to do with as I please, I'm sorry-- but I'm probably going to curl up with a good book, or watch a movie for at least part of that time. I have no problem devoting an hour, or hour and a half to fitness. I have no problem watching my portions, and making smarter choices. But I can't and won't let this consume me. I post quite a bit -- but I don't think I help anyone. And lately, I really don't know what to say.
Well, anyway I just wanted to get that off my chest. That's what this sight is about right? I hpe all you highly motivated losers out there literally exercise your butts off! Meanwhile, I'll just stay the course. Keep on doing what I'm doing. Watch those numbers on the scale, go up and down -- then down a little bit more.. oops-- up a bit.. now down... down... and hopefully I'll get to where I want to be before I'm 80!
Lots of love and respect to you all,
Carol

[susieokla]

Carol-I do understand what you're saying. There for a few months I was gung ho about losing weight, dieting and exercising wasn't necessarily my main priority but it was pretty high up there. But, the past month I've slowed it down alot and I don't know, I guess life got in the way you could say. Not that it's a bad thing. I started seeing somebody new and we spend alot of time together and I would just rather enjoy his company right now and it's different then when I was alone and had more time to myself. Trust me, I'm not complaining.

I don't know if that makes any sense but I'm still doing ok, I'm still watching what I'm eating and moving around as much as possible. And stilll losing also. I do know that I felt better when I exercised more often but I know that I'll get back into it and hopefully can get him on the bandwagon with me too so we can do it together.

Hang in there Carol, you're doing what fits you best and that's what is most important.

[amandads]

I understand were you are coming from. I too am staying away from strict diet plans and learning to control protions and impulses. I do go to the gym when possible, not everyday and have been known to miss a whole week. We joined the gym because we had reached a standing still point with our weight loss. I do feel better when I exercise and am trying to learn to not be so hard on myself when I do not go to the gym. Summer time is a real hard time to focus on exercising when you have so much going on. And just so that you know you offer a lot of support and motivation for all of us here. We are all here to lose weight and improve our lifestyles no matter what program we use or don't use.

[Patty_Ann]

I have to agree with amandads...you have given lots of support and motivation to us all. We are all here to lose the weight and improve our lifestyles no matter what program we use or don't use...couldn't have said it any better than this. I also told myself that I was going to do this 100% ME - and that is what I have been doing. I have had so much inspiration and motivation from this forum - I don't know that I could have stuck it out this long without you and the others. I'm sorry to hear that you are having a hard time relating to our lives...it's okay - we are all different and that is what makes us unique and enjoyable. Keep doing what you are doing - if you are happy with it then keep it up.

Take a deep breath and enjoy yourself.

[francine6413]

Hi Muppet,
I understand what you are saying . It can be hard somedays. But I don't have a trainer but I could go to a gym but why spend the extra money. I have free hand weights and tapes and dvd's, directv to help with my exercise routine either in the mornings or the evenings. So I do understand how frustrating it can be sometimes. Muppet don't give up. We all are here for you.

[Widdlecuddles]

Hi Carol,

I know exactly what you are saying. I don't go to a gym and don't have a personal trainer. I know what you mean about wanting this to be 100% you. The weight loss roller coaster is a hard ride to take. I am tired of the ups and downs but I know what I'm doing will eventually get me to my goal and I can do it for a lifetime.
I am watching my portions and trying to not eat junk, I am walking every day and working with free weights... and doing this will eventually get me to my goal.
Oh and by the way... you help A LOT of people on this board. I know that I am often encouraged by things you have said.
Keep your chin up and keep moving forward on your journey!

[Trying4Thin]

I am chomping at the bit to get my 2 cents in on this one. But I am zonked and it will have to wait until tomorrow.

Have a good night!

~Carrie

[muppet]

Thanks guys. I'm so glad that you understand what I'm feeling. I don't ever intend to give up. That's not an option. Heck, if I did that, it's not like I would just stay the way I am ( size 14 or 16). I would just keep growing I suppose till my weight killed me.
I'm in this battle for life. Thanks so much for the kind words and support.
You all are a great bunch of 'losers'.

[Missy]

Hey..I just wanted to say that we all need different things to suit our lifestyle and our needs. Yes, I can afford a gym membership and a personal trainer...but I needed that. I have been trying to lose weight since I was 19 years old and have never achieved anything on my own. I have found that by having the trainer, I am more educated on foods and can make my own healthy decisions now. By having my trainer, I now know what it takes to push myself and to get results. I need the discipline from him right now so I can do what it takes on my own to get to my goal. I only have 18 sessions left with my trainer (as far as I know) and I want to make the most of that time and learn all I can before I have to do it on my own.

I will agree that it's not for everyone and I know that everyone doesn't have 3 hours to spend working out. I understand the hectic lifestyles that people have...but I am young, I'm not married, I don't have kids, I only work part-time...so I choose to spend my time working out, for me.

[Jules]

Muppet,
I think you fit in great, I'm sorry you haven't always felt that way. I love your posts. You always have kind comments for people and interesting things to say about your life as well. I love your avatar too, so relaxed. And I'm jealous that you seem to have the willpower on your own to exercise and eat right. I don't have a gym/trainer/etc but I wish I did. I'm one of those people who tends to buy stuff, like if I buy 1 more DVD, book, or a gym membership or whatever that will make me lose the weight. But it's all just a big drain on the wallet unless you want it from deep inside of you. Having resources is second to actually having that willpower. I think you're an inspiration around here. Everyone who gets off the couch and wants to better their lives fits in here.

(Ps. Just to be clear I'm not dissing anyone who has/uses resources, just the disease of buying things instead of actually working to lose weight.)