Aaaaauuugggghhhhh!!!

[Schel]

Ok,
I got on the scale finally before starting my journey into weight loss. I am in denial and shock....
This is the most I have ever weighed in my life.
I should have weighed every day starting mid October till after January 1st.
Then maybe I wouldn't have eaten all the Christmas Junk I did.
I gained 20lbs. over the holiday season. 20lbs.!!!!
I am so ashamed of myself. And then last night, I sit there, my weakest time of the day, before bed and want sweets. I wish I hated sweets and craved vegetables.
I am on day 2 of my start to a healthier life, but the little evil voice in my head keeps saying just 1 wont hurt! But it is never 1; 1 turns into 10, 20, 30
depending upon what it is.

Ok now that I have vented, I hope that is ok.

I am going to do at least 20 minutes on my Gazelle today. It about kills me at the 10 minute mark, but I need to do it.

Thanks for support everyone.

Schel

[Sandi]

Isn't Christmas time fun?

We all fall off the wagon, get back on, forgive yourself and forge forward. You can do this

[Missy]

Try not to worry over past mistakes, it's a new year! Glad to have you with us.

[Jules]

WElcome Schel -totally agree with Sandi. You are not alone in falling off the wagon, and you're not alone now. Hope you did the Gazelle thing long enough for ome good cardio and have forgiven yourself and moved on. So glad to have you. And yes, exercise makes that little voice ask for healthy foods instead of sweets. You'll be suprised at how much your body changes with some exercise. Get moving hon!

~Cheers, Jules

[mifsit]

perhaps you could keep some low fat youghurt in the fridge for the sweet tooth times, or some suger free jelly (jello in the USA)

[Schel]

Thanks everyone for your support. The SF jello hit the spot!
I am doing much better off sugar. I was a real BEAR for the 1st 2 days!
Schel

[Jules]

LOL -glad the jello worked for you! You have to have something -just make it a better dessert. It is like withdrawls getting off sugar isn't it? Takes a few days to get your body to adjust. But you'll be much happier afterwards. I get 'no sugar added' frozen chocolate pops as a treat - only 40 cals each but I don't like jello much.

Cheers! You're doing GREAT! Hang in there.
~Jules

[Schel]

Yeah, I went shopping yesterday and bought all the right stuff for myself to suceed. I then bought the "naughty" stuff for my hubby and son so they do not eat my expensive treats.
It's expensive to be healthy and eat the right foods.
I did make it known that "do not eat my food!"
I then said for them to hide theirs from me so if I am weak, I do not blow it.
I have had good willpower though, because for the first time in my eating right life, (notice I didn't say dieting) I realize I am only cheating myself.
So... if it ever comes down to "I just got to have it or I'll die," I will have a small serving of it and move on. this is what I have told myself.
So...
Thanks again!
Schel