Joysieangel's Journal

[Joysieangel]

This weekend was awful on a personal level, and a working level. I was able to exercise everyday but came in WAY under in cals Sat, I had 571 cals. I work in a little hamburger stand that is a summer job, (my boss is the same at the bar and at the stand) I got off of work at the stand on Sat at 4pm, walked home, sat down, phone rings, the bar isnt open go and open it. I changed clothes and walked to the bar. I wasnt scheduled to be there till 8 pm. There is a lady that has been there for about 3 months,(Ive been there a year and a half.) That has been hassling me for some reason. Hubby and I went on a little honeymoon in the beginning of July, when we came back, I was informed that I quit, that I was stealing from the till, I didnt show up for work, and when I was 300 miles away I was at the bar taking my name off the schedule. LOL I must be magic. I finally got that straightened up, was able to get the customers that usually only come in there when Im there back. Now she doesnt show up for her shift. She must have found out when she didnt get her way and get me fired, she may as well quit. Made a difficult day for me ( ended up with a 14 hour day) but Im sure worth it in the long run. Yesterday Step monster made a bad day. I never have enough food in the house to keep her full. 15 minutes after she eats she is hungry again. She is GREAT on temper tantrums. Hubby doesnt disipline her because he wants to stay the good guy, ex bad mouths him in front of the kids, so she thinks she can do anything and not get yelled at.

Tomorrow is my first weigh in, Im kinda excited Ive been doing great with water, only been over on cals 1 day. Ive been staying off the scale so I dont have a clue what it is going to be in the morning. LOL wish me luck

[Trying4Thin]

Wow...Your ex co-worker sounds like a female godzilla. But what makes me scratch my head is why your boss didnt fire her for lying and trying to cause trouble. Well I am sure she is now off to wreak havok on somebody else's life. Good luck to them.

Under 600 cals? You gotta eat more or your metabolism will suffer big time. That will come back to bite you in the butt. You have to eat to lose (weird I know). The same with water...you have to drink to lose bloat.

You refer to her as the Step Monster? Methinks there is more here than her eating issues and temper tantrums. Have you sat her down (or her father) and had a chat to see what's up? I am thinking food isnt the problem but is instead a manifestation of a bigger problem. Just my 2 cents.

I am sure you will do great with your weigh in. Are you weighing in once a week or more? Let us know how you do!

~Carrie

[Joysieangel]

Your right about the step daughter there is more going on then just the eating but she wont talk about it. The times that I have been able to talk to her she is unhappy with the way her mom and brother treats her, but she doesnt want to talk to her mom because she is afraid of making her mad. I dont mean that she is bad all the time that she is here but lately she has been trying to cause as much trouble as possible. I just laid carpet in our living room and she was alone for 15 minutes while I went to the store and she burned holes. The carpet. Wasnt even 3 days old at the time. Im kind of at my wits end tring to keep her satisfied. My hubby and his ex dont get along and arent able to hold a decent conversation so it isnt something that can be dealt with by talking. Just thought I would clarify a little bit

[Trying4Thin]

Burned holes in the carpet? What did your hubby say to that? I understand her "loyalty" to her parents, but this has got to stop. She is going to hurt herself or somebody else. A few months ago; my bus route was halted because a young child was playing with matches and torched his apartment unit. Not only was there major damage done; but his young sister died that day because rescuers couldnt get to her through the smoke. It sounds like she is acting out with you because she cant do it at home for fear of repercussion. Your hubby is being childish in passing all the disciplinary action onto you. Your stepdaughter needs all of her parents (including you). Maybe she could keep a journal to jot down her feelings instead of causing trouble. She also may be trying to get attention since she is shuffled around so much. Acting out is a form of getting attention; either positive or negative. Have you two ever spent "quality girls time" together? Somebody has to find out what is going on here before it gets worse. Maybe she just wants somebody to be "on her side" for a change since mom and dad are too busy fighting each other. Assure her that you are her friend and that you do love her. Divorce is hard on everyone.

[muppet]

I think it might possibly the hardest thing in the world to be a step parent. I have friends who have gone, and are going through this. The tough part is, you are part of this child's life, but you really have no say. She affects your life, but there's not much you can do to affect hers, aside from talking to her father. I also think you are far enough away from the situation to see it how it really is. Sometimes those right in the middle of it, can't see the whole picture. It's easier for you to take a step back, and take a good look at the situation. But, even if you think you might have discovered what the problem is, or what's making it worse, you aren't exactly in the position to point it out to anyone, except maybe your own husband. And, then again, some people wouldn't take kindly to someone else giving their 2 cents, in something they think they are handling themselves.
Blah -- I'm not even sure if I understand what I'm trying to say! You are in a tough spot. I don't really have any advice, since I don't know anyone involved, but I do empathize with your situation. Best of luck to you!
Carol
And,--- Carrie is right -- you have to eat more than that. You don't want to mess up your metabolism by having your body go into starvation mode. So please eat! You have to keep fuel in the furnace, for it to keep burning! If you let is get empty, it will stop.

[Joysieangel]

Today, I found a weak spot in myself. Too much time on my hands and nothing to do. No work today because of the heat. It was 101 here today. I ate a little too much ( 1724.2 cals) But I exercised more then normal. 661 cals.Hopefully it evens itself out a bit. Thank goodness I have my equipment in my house, being outside today would have been torture. Im only going to be weighing myself once a week, I now understand what everyone means by the scale being evil. LOL . I found an AWESOME recipe today. It is for honey mustard chicken breasts over rice. Made it for hubby tonight and he liked it. The website I got it from is www.lightandtasty.com. You can do a search for any kind of recipe your looking for. (cals, fat, sodium, how long etc) There is a couple more Id like to try. It was worth checking out

[Trying4Thin]

Ha! I just bought their magazine for the first time ever the other day. Lots of neat ideas and great pictures too. Oh does the lasagne look good.

Happy cooking!

[mifsit]

Thanks for the link Joy. Maybe your healthy cooking can help your hubby shift a few lbs.