A fresh start

[muppet]

Thank goodness for Leslie Sansone! I've been pretty down, since I can't get out for a nice walk or anything, and I don't think I'll be able to for awhile yet, since this leg thing appears to take a while to heal. But I was able to do her 'walkstrong' workout this morning. It felt really good too! It's surprising how your body does get used to physical activity, and when you can't for awhile, or just don't, you really start to miss it. I think as you get used to it, your body needs it, for it to function properly. Nothing feels quite right if you stop. Your muscles want to move -- they want to be used, and everything benefits from doing so.
I have taken to eating these multigrain rice cakes - either chcolate, peanutbutter choc. chip, or caramel, with a bit of fat free ice cream on top. I think it's really yummy. The rice cakes are 60 cal. each, and I don't use much ice cream at all-- just a thin layer over the top. It's sweet, crunchy, and tastes like a real treat to me. This has been helping me with my sweet tooth.
Breakfast -- apple cinnamon oatmeal -- green tea
Lunch --- Healthy choice salisbury steak and mashed potatoes
Snack -- 2 rice cakes, and fat free ice cream.
Water --- 24 oz so far.
I think I'll grill up some chicken for supper, and have a nice salad with it.
I'm sure I'll need another snack this afternoon --- planning on some lite yogurt.
I've had 1 diet pepsi already. I know I shouldn't have any more. I also have diet sierra mist, sunkist, and rootbeer, but I don't think any kind is better than another. Water is still top choice. But I'm sure I'll give in and have another diet soda somewhere along the way today.
I'm planning on cleaning and moving furniture in my daughter's room. She has sooooo much STUFF!!! This will be the best way to really go through it, and re-organize. There are a lot of things that we need to find another place for. Her grandparents are completely wonderful people, but they don't seem to understand that her space is limited. She has some wonderful things that her grandpa has made, that we absolutely can't get rid of, but she doesn't play with them anymore, and they are HUGE!!! A big doll house -- adorable, but ginormous. Little wooden table and chairs -- totally cute, but she's too big now-- doll cradles-- again, very sweet, but she doesn't use them anymore.
I'll feel really bad, if and when they come to visit, and so many things have been put away. My mother in law also gives her a porcelin doll every year. We have so many, and I can't possibly put them all out. I was supposed to keep all the boxes too, but I just don't have room for all that stuff. I really do appreciate their thoughtfullness, and many of these things I know she will treasure when't she's grown and her grandparent's are gone, but for right now, I just need a safe place to keep them, that's out of the way.
Well, anyway, that's going to be my day! I'm in the right frame of mind-- ready to pitch whatever necessary.
Hope you all have a great day!

[Missy]

heh I hear what you're saying on the storage issues. I have tons of junk and tons of clothes, but I just don't have enough space to put them. We live in a 2 bedroom apartment so finding space for things is a task every time.

I'm actually thinking about going through my closets soon and getting rid of all the clothes that don't fit me anymore. I also want to get rid of the clothes I wore when I was at my highest weight...I won't need them anymore!!

I will probably take my clothes to the goodwill or something..

[muppet]

Well, today was a pretty good day. I actually got in a workout, and I ate within reason. I still havent' done a calorie total, but I think it should be ok. I feel kind of hungry, which is a good thing just before bed. And I stayed pretty busy all day, so I didn't have too much time to even think about it.
My daughter and I got her furniture moved, and some of the stuff put back. We haven't tackled her closet yet though. She's 10, 11 in September, and ready to get rid of the Barbies, and some other toys that have been clogging her closet. My husband and I discussed it, and it really is time to re organize, and throw stuff out.
I have a ton of clothes myself, like Missy. It drives me crazy how my closet, which is decent sized, is stuffed to the gills, and yet I still have nothing I want to wear. I'm scared to get rid of my really 'fat' clothes though. I have a pair of black pants that I hope I never fit into again, but I keep them, just in case. I've been up and down on this ride too many times, I guess. I do feel like I have a better handle on it now though. I don't think I will ever let my self get as heavy as I was. I don't really even know what my top weight ever was, but I'm sure it could have been as much as 210, or maybe even more. So, I haven't really made any great strides yet. My 'fat' clothes aren't so big, that I can't imagine ever fitting into them again. I don't want to, and don't plan to, but it's easy to gain 10 or 15 pounds-- then I'd be right back where I started.
I just really feel like this time is different. Even though I'm not doing much as far as weight loss, I think I'm learning a lot. About me, and about why I over ate. I've done a lot of soul searching -- and realize that I don't have a lot of confidence in myself. I think I'm getting better. I think I'm accepting who I am, instead of wishing I was different. I think that by becoming more comfortable with who I am, and working hard on a sensible diet and exercise plan for my life, that my weight will adjust accordingly. I don't want to beat my body to a certain size. I want to be healthy, and active. Looking hot is fine too, but that's just the icing on the cake. Ugh!!! Cake??? Who said that???? Wow -- I really am hungry. Cake sounds wonderful -- but we have none, and I really don't like to eat before bed, unless it's a bowl of cereal or something, so I think I'm safe from a munchie attack.
I'm getting a few groceries tomorrow. I hope I'm not this hungry when I go, or I'm likely to buy out the store!
I'm going to have to set the alarm for morning, to get my daughter to her gymnastics by 9. I'm already used to sleeping in! Too bad I won't be able to next week. We have VBS all week, from 9 - 12.
Well, I just came on mostly to keep myself out of the kitchen. I'm really sleepy, but the oldest is out and about and supposed to be home in 40 minutes or so, and I need to stay up till he gets home. He has really been doing well lately. Or else he's gotten sneakier, and we just haven't caught him doing anything wrong lately. We've been letting him do a lot more. He loves being able to do more, and enjoys that little bit of trust we've put in him. I hope he realizes that it's much better to just behave and stay out of trouble. You can have a lot more fun, when you aren't grounded 90% of the time! He says that he gets it, and that he is going to behave, because he wants a good senior year. This past year really sucked for us all. I hope it's over. I pray it's over, and I pray I don't have to go through it to that degree with my other children.
I spent a good deal of time tonight talking with my daughter. About school, friends, up coming piano lessons, and other things. She's excited about starting piano. I wanted to start her earlier, but she's so busy with other things. I told her that she might have to give up something. I'd love for her to ease up on the gymnastics. She's really pretty good, but not overly competitive. That's good, for the most part, but she also doesn't like to work on the finer details, such as pointed toes, straight legs, arms, and fingers. But I've told her if she wants to stay on the team, she has to work on ALL of the elements, not just the ones she thinks are fun.
She already knows some piano, and can play several songs, even with 2 hands. But I think she's gotten as far as she can on her own, and she really doesn't like to listen to me, so we're starting her with our organist from church. She's very sweet, and is looking forward to having her. She said my daughter is at a really good age to start.
Lol -- I'm really tired . Looks like this long rambling post has done it's job. I'm ready to hit the hay, and could care less about eating anything. I've bored myself to sleep! I just need to stay awake a little while longer, till my son comes home.
Nighty night all!

[muppet]

I've been busy digging through our mountains of crap. I don't think I'll get an official workout in today. My leg is super stiff and tight in the morning, but it's really feeling pretty good this afternoon. I hope that's a good sign that it's healing. Other days, it's been ok, but after I sit for awhile, and have it up, it really stiffen's up again. Today, once I got over that initial tightness this morning, it's felt basically good all day.
I ate absolute CRAP for lunch today. Mcdonald's . I ate 2 regular hamburgers, and some chicken nuggets. Only thing good it did, was not eat any fries. I'm going to have to tally those calories. It wasn't even that good. I need to see 'Supersize Me' again, so I can get re-grossed out by these fast food places.
I am still stuffed though, and it's been almost 4 hours since I ate. If I don't snack, and have a really light supper, I'll probably be ok, calorie wise.
Oatmeal, and a glass of milk for breakfast
2 mcd's hamburgers, and 6 chicken nuggets for lunch.
I think I'll just have leftover grilled chicken and a salad for supper.
Take it easy everyone.
Carol

[muppet]

Yikes! I logged in my food so far today. Right now, I'm at 1400 calories. Hmm -- that's about where I try to stop! And it's only 4 in the afternoon! My poor choices at lunch today cost me about 1000 calories! Well, that ought to teach me!!!!! I am continually amazed at how easy it is to over eat. That's why it's so important to always think about what you're putting in your mouth. Is the convenience worth the price your body will pay? And, let's face it, the taste really just isn't that good. I ate those hamburgers today, and I could taste the pickles, and other condiments and the doughy white bread bun, but I really don't think I actually tasted meat. I've got to get over my dislike of cooking, and stop looking for convenience. I like simple things. So it shouldn't be too tough. I don't know what I'll feed the family, but I think tonight I'll just snack on a bowl of cereal or something. That should only be a couple hundred calories more, and I find cereal very satisfying. I'm certainly glad I didn't snack today. Then I would have been way over my limit. I'm glad too, because I really don't feel hungry yet. That's a sure sign of overeating-- when you don't feel hungry 4 or 5 hours after you last ate. I'm not glad that I overate. But I'm glad that I won't feel like I'm starving all evening. I hope though, when it's time for bed, that I have that 'empty stomach' feeling. I always sleep so much better. I don't think there's any need for me to be up super late, rambling on and on to myself, to try and stay awake, and not eat. I could use a good night's sleep!
Later gators!
Carol

[Missy]

Wow, that's a lot of calories for one meal! I can certainly see why I ended up at my weight..I used to eat McDonald's at least 3-4 times a week from last summer up until Christmas time 2005....I'd always get the Quarter Pounder meal, which was a cheeseburger, fries and coke...and then I'd get a large oreo caramel mcflurry on top of that!

[Jules]

I admire you going through and cleaning out your house. I'm the biggest packrat ever. I know what you mean about things you used to crave not tasting all that good anymore too. Sorry you had a McDonalds day, but I'm really impressed you actually looked up the calories instead of just pretending that today didn't happen and not realizing what you ate.

I hope your legs feels better soon and you can get back to the exercises you like best. Cheers and enjoy the cereal tonight.

[muppet]

Lol -- yeah, I decided to face the music, instead of telling myself, 'oh, it's not that bad'. Yeah -- it was that bad! But I think I controlled the damage, by not eating too much this evening.
I'm bound and determined to have a good day tomorrow. Make that great day. I should sleep well. And I hope to get up early enough to get a bunch of stuff done before kids wake up. The oldest one is camping with friends tonight, and won't be home till tomorrow afternoon. He has an FFA officer training thing tomorrow. Saturday he takes the ACT for the first time. He's a very smart kid, but is a little too cool to take school too seriously, so his grades are just OK. But he usually does really well on these standardized tests. I hope he does --the better you do, the better your chances are at scholarship money.
I plan to do a real workout tomorrow. The leg really seems to be coming around. Or else I'm just getting used to it. I almost think I could go for a walk. I don't know-- we'll see tomorrow.
I will eat light-- I will use my muscles, and I will get this house put back together. I don't have any appointments or commitments, so it should be smooth sailing with little interruptions.
Better get to bed -- I've got a big order to fill tomorrow!
Carol

[mifsit]

Originally Posted by muppet

I've got to get over my dislike of cooking, and stop looking for convenience. I like simple things. So it shouldn't be too tough.

Hi Carol. I find that food I've made myself is far more satisfying that eating junk like McD's. It doesn't have to be time consuming either. I bought a big george forman grill and stuff like Chicken (or turkey) kebabs take 10 mins to prepare and about 15-20 mins to cook. How long does it take to drive to the nearest McD's, get your order etc etc?

[muppet]

You're so right about preparing your own food. And I also like the frozen meals. I know there are some who say they are bad too, but it's such an easy way to control calories, and some of them really are good.
I've behaved today. I haven't gotten any type of workout in, other than schlepping boxes down to the basement. But I can see a lot of progress being made. My daughter is thrilled to be able to see the floor in her closet. I have said Bye bye to lots of clothes. I am continually buying new clothes, so I don't know why it's so hard for me to part with them. I also need to stop buying, but I can't help but check out the sales and clearance racks when I'm in a store. If I think it's a good deal, I want it, whether I need it or not -- so it really is NOT a deal, if it's something I don't need. Most of the time though, I tend to look for basics, and staples. I will not pass up a white t shirt or shell on a clearance
rack. They get dingy so quickly, and I really do use them.
I got rid of shirt my mother in law decorated for me. She got a new sewing machine that does embroidery, and she got this big denim type shirt, except it was tan. It was kind of stiff and heavy, and completely shapeless, and she put these flowers on it -- well, needless to say I hated it. I did wear it once, but I see no reason to keep it anymore. Maybe if she had put something cute-- something kids would like, since I teach preschool, but the flowers just weren't my cup of tea. I felt kinda bad getting rid of it, but maybe there is someone out there who will like it, and get some use out of it. My mother in law lives 200 miles away, so I doubt she will ever find out . Am I a heal for getting rid of it? It's not like she embroidered it herself -- she just programmed a machine to do it.
Well, anyway -- I'm getting hungry. Spaghetti for supper. I'll eat mine with meatless sauce. I like it just fine that way, and I have high cholesteral, so as little red meat as possible is best for me.
I'm going to tally my calories. It should be well within my limits. And, I feel like I've gotten quite a workout today. I don't know how many times I've been up and down all our stairs today. That's something anyway!
I think I'm going to try a walk tomorrow. I'll probably only go a few miles, to see how my leg takes it. I'm relieved -- I can really tell it's getting better. For the longest time, it didn't seem to change. But now it's improving.
Talk to you later. Everyone have a great weekend!
Carol