Lady Jami's Rambles

[Big_Girl_Bigger_Heart]

Muppet~

Feel free to hijack my thread anytime. I love reading your posts. I feel the same way as you about who I am....because my body cannot portray those things. My actions do. Really, I am okay with the fact I've got a big ass. I had that long before it became popular, and I'll have it long after the "flat butt" look is cool again. I love myself for who I am, and the only reason I am losing weight is because I want to be healthy, not because I have any desire to fit an image I am "supposed" to fit.
As for my name, yes...it's Lady Jami...but not like Queen Latifah. Lady is my first name, and Jami is my middle name. My dad named me after a woman he admired. I'm called Pipa though by everyone. Oddly enough, I prefer Pipa over being called Lady.

Lady Jami

[Big_Girl_Bigger_Heart]

Today just seemed to be endless, and my patience level is some where in the negatives. I'm just cranky and running low on motivation. All I wanted to do was snuggle up and watch television, and on every damn channel there were stupid food commercials which didn't help my cause very much. I've been craving chili cheese fries something terrible today.
To make matters worse, my period is extremely late. I cannot figure out if it’s from weight loss, or well, the next obvious reason. Not that having a baby wouldn’t be a wonderful thing…because it would be. After all, the manimal and I have has spoken often of having children. Just right now isn’t a good time is all. I mean, I am just now getting where I feel really confident, and sure of myself, and my weight loss. I realize that just sounds selfish…but I’m not going to sit here and pretend I’m pleased at the moment. It’s been a struggle to learn about healthy eating, and portion sizes. I don’t want all my progress to be in vain.
I have opted not to say anything to my manimal for the time being. If I am with child, I’d like to be able to tell him in a calm and rational way, and right now I can see me flying off the deep end, and having an emotional break down. Blah. I really should be happy. I’ve wanted a baby for a long time now. I just gave up trying, and accepted that it wouldn’t happen. I swear, I feel like I am god’s personal joke sometimes.

Lady Jami

[Missy]

Sorry to hear you are down. But, if it is a baby...that doesn't have to stop you from working out. Yeah you might need to take in more food, but you can still do exercises. That way once the baby is born, you won't have too much to lose. You can still tone while pregnant..just check with a doctor as to what safe exercises are.

[Missy]

Oh and you don't need to eat unhealthy just because you are pregnant. When you get a craving..think about it? Would you really want all that fat and grease going into a teeny tiny babies system?

[Trying4Thin]

Wow, I dont know if I should say congratulations or hang in there everything will turn out ok. Have you taken a test yet to find out? How late are you? I may be wrong here, but your weight could have something to do with it. Your body may be adjusting to your dramatic weight loss, and your cycle will kick in a few days late. Dont panic yet. If you are pregnant, you are going to probably have to drop NutriSystem for the time being. Lets not get ahead of ourselves though...Take 2 home tests (to rule out error) and if they test positive see a doctor. You are a strong woman and you can handle whatever this life throws at you. I also used to have the same thoughts about being God's practical joke. Sometimes I thought he had nothing better to do than make me miserable. Funny thing though, he wasnt making me miserable. I was letting myself be miserable. You are doing great. Dont let those destructive thoughts do you in. Keep us posted!

~Carrie

[Patty_Ann]

I wish you the best - keep your head up high.

[Big_Girl_Bigger_Heart]

I wish I could say my mood has improved, but, it hasn't. In fact, I feel somewhat more depressed today then I did yesterday. I feel so sluggish that even typing seems to be a work out.
My manimal says I look too pale, and he's worried that my sugar levels are too low again. (I'm hypoglycemic, and for those of you who don’t know what that means...we refer to our selves as backward diabetics. Instead of high sugar levels, we have low sugar levels.) I made no mention of my fears, simply because I’m not in the mood for a lecture. I just agreed to take it easy, and stop pushing myself so hard.
I know going from upwards to 4,500 calories a day down to 1,200 calories max has done a number on my body. I’ve tried to take supplements, but, I often forget. By the time it’s three days after the fact, so it would make little sense to take one and repeat the same process all over again. I need to pin a note on my shirt to remind myself that I need to take my vitamins, and eat iron enriched foods. I actually do eat a lot of iron rich foods though mostly because I love all green leafy veggies. I was a parents dream in that regard. I love Brussel sprouts, spinach, and of course collard greens. Yummy! I really don’t think there is a vegetable I don’t like, less wax beans. I really think those should be against the law for human consumption.
While I am on the topic of food, I actually have something for y'all to try. Kind of a low calorie twist to an old favorite.

Cucumber and Onion Ranch Salad

1/2 cucumber cut into very thin slices
2-3tbs Fat Free Ranch dressing
1/4 of a large onion of your choice. Sliced very thin (I happen to prefer the purple or red ones for this recipe)

Put the cucumbers and onions in a bowl, and sprinkle 1/2 tablespoon garlic salt, and 1 teaspoon pepper. Mix together really well, and let it set for about 5-10 minutes. Mix together again, and then add 2-3 tablespoons ranch dressing. Mix well, and put in the fridge for about an hour.

Hope y'all enjoy it as much as I do.

Lady Jami

[Trying4Thin]

That sounds like something even I can make without ruining!! Great idea.
Sorry to hear you still arent feeling good. Try taking a hot bath and see if you feel better. If I am in a bad mood, I now either work out or have a hot bubble bath. Or if you need a laugh, try watching the DVD "Just Friends." I laughed my ass off and cried too. I think it is virtually impossible to maintain a depressed mood while watching Ryan Reynolds. He is the next Jim Carrey.

Hang in there!
We are thinking of you.

~Carrie

[Missy]

"When life’s problems seem overwhelming, look around and see what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself fortunate."
– Ann Landers

I'm sorry to hear that you are still feeling down. We are all thinking about you and hope for the best.

[Big_Girl_Bigger_Heart]

Carrie,
I am happy to hear you liked the idea of cucumber salad. It's wonderful in the summer time as well if you're looking for a refreshing treat. If you want to add some extra flavor, mince a clove of garlic, and mix that in really well before you add the dressing. I happen to love garlic, but, I know for some people it's a bit too strong.

I cannot wait to feel human again. I didn't even get a half gallon of water into me today. I think total I managed to eat once, and that didn't exceed 300 calories. No sooner did I finish eating, I wanted to hug the toilet. Drinking water just seemed to make it worse. I even went as far as trying to sip warm tea, and needless to say, I ended up becoming close with my toilet again. Thank god it was clean.
My manimal was a source of comfort. I told him I wasn't in the mood for conversation, and he sat with me quietly, and allowed me to watch my scary movies in peace. I know he keeps my best interest in mind, but, when I feel this horrible, I have no desire to be sociable. I fell asleep snuggled in his lap, and woke up running a fever. I'd still be lying down, but my ass is numb from lying around. I'm not used to being this idle.
Part of me felt bad that I skipped working out today; however, just walking from my bedroom to my computer room seemed to take endless amounts of energy. Tomorrow I really need to get some water into me though. Running fevers dehydrates a person quickly, and my body is accustomed to large amounts of water daily. I can already feel the strain.
I'll probably post something again tomorrow. Night Y'all

Lady Jami