lisa's journal

[desperatlydepressed]

im new here. i stumbled acrooss it when i was trying to find out why bob left the show down here in australia now im going to stay.

i am a member of a lot of forums. and im trying my heart out to loose weight and i have been for years, but i never quite get there. this time i hope is different.the other forums im on support me yes, but not with loosing weight. my family does, but they dont. my friends tell me i dont need to, when i really do.

i need support to help me get through the tough times, the dreaded plateu. the emotional downs, and the energetic ups.

i wish more then anything now that i went on the show. i was so dam scared, that i didnt , and now here i am sitting at home watching.

i couldnt believe there one week weight loss, i have been going to the gym for 3 months and all ive lost is 10kg.

ok. yes its a lot, and its a big achievement. but when you see people loosing that amount in one week, you wish you could do what they do.

my biggest problem is emotional eating. im bored so i eat, im having a bad day, which i do every now and again. and i eat.

and its not the little things its the big things and before i know it ive blown up like a balloon again.

ok. so im going to start over again.

this is now my first week.

wish me luck
lisa

[desperatlydepressed]

oh yeah. heres this im keeping a record on here.

starting weight,
96kg.

(ill add some measurements later))

first ? i dont know metrics... how much is 96kg? i feel your pain though, spent quite a long time eating out of boredom... still do once in a while, thats one of my downfalls............ but like every one on here says, water, water, water........ it helps get past some cravings...... best of luck to you...... your here, your gonna do great!!!!!!!

[desperatlydepressed]

96kg, is a hell of a lot. i dont know how many pounds, i dont think i want to. but if u go to onlineconversion.com you can find out.

[susieokla]

Hi Lisa. Welcom to the board!

Good luck on your weight loss journey, we are all in this together and we can do it!!

[ehyatt]

Originally Posted by missingme

first ? i dont know metrics... how much is 96kg? i feel your pain though, spent quite a long time eating out of boredom... still do once in a while, thats one of my downfalls............ but like every one on here says, water, water, water........ it helps get past some cravings...... best of luck to you...... your here, your gonna do great!!!!!!!

It is about 211 lbs.

[ehyatt]

Hi Lisa and welcome to the forum! We are here for you through the highs and the lows.

[Widdlecuddles]

Hi Lisa, and welcome!! We will support you in any way we can. You can do this!

[muppet]

Hello Lisa! Glad you're here. I know it gets tough when you want to lose so badly, yet you don't seem to be able to do it. I'm glad you keep trying. I don't think anyone should just give up and say -- 'I'm fat--- this is just the way I am-- I have to live with it."
I know we are what we are, and we shouldn't become obsessed with trying to look a certain way or be a certain size. But our health is important. It's not ok to be as overweight, or obese as so many of us are. It's not good for us. Our bodies aren't designed to carry so much extra weight.
It helps me to think of it in terms of health, rather than appearance. We all just need to do what's best for our bodies.
Best of luck to you. This is it Lisa! You're going to do it this time!

[desperatlydepressed]

well 2 days in and ive stayed strong. well ok, yesterday i had two lolliepops, and today i had only one, so im already working it down. but besides those two slips, thats it. ive been eating healthier, truthfully i havnt done a lot of exercise except play netball, but im working on it. the gym tomorrow for a couple of hours.

i work in a petrol station so i stand there for hours watching people buy chips, chocolate, ice creams, it drives me crazy. 2 shifts later and i havnt brought anything. so u know how rare that is for me.

i watched the show last night, i watch it everynight.

i still wish i was there. the emotional support that they get is amazing, thats what i need. i have my ups and downs, some days where all i want to do is cry and i have to fight back the tears all the time. those days all i want is to be there, having bob and jillian there to push me, and support me.

ok. starting to cry now.

i didnt take the chance and apply for the show, im only 21, and i was scared, plus with issues such as work and study i didnt know what would happen. but im still doing it, im loosing weight, not as fast as the contestents, but im doing it. 5 more days till my weigh in. lets hope i can continue the work , and hopefully i can have more good days then bad. thats when i get into trouble..

report back soon
lisa