muppet's journal II

[muppet]

Hello all! It's good to be back home. Even though we were only gone for a few days, I still love that feeling, when you get back home. I am really quite a homebody, I guess.
To those who were asking, I live in a recreational area, close to a large lake. There are lots of campgrounds and a wonderful bike trail, as well as more challenging nature trails through the woods. I have access to the bike trail from my house, so I don't have to drive anywhere.
I know, I am very lucky, It's hard not to enjoy walking and bike riding when you have such a nice place to do it.
I used to live in a town that was flat as a pancake. I walked there too, but I have noticed how much better it seems to be for me here, where there are hill to go up and down. That really makes a huge difference, whether I'm on foot or bike.
I survived the visit with my mom. We ate out a lot. Nothing healthy. Burger King ( yuck) , pizza, prime rib with friends. Yeah, I know-- what a disaster. But I was very conservative. I ate small portions. At the restaurant where we had the prime rib, I only ate about 1/3 of it ( it was grossly huge), and used very little butter on my potato. I ate all my veggies, and I didn't feel stuffed and miserable.
To many of you, this might sound like I totally failed. But I know myself, and this was a small victory for me. While I didn't have all the healthiest choices, I never over-ate. I never ate something, just because it was there, and thought, 'why not?'. I was able to enjoy the people I went there to see, and didn't obsess about food. The last thing I want is to draw attention to what I'm eating or not eating. I don't talk a lot about my diet, and wanting to lose weight. I know many of you have very supportive families. Mine might be too, but part of me just wants to keep this private. I don't want them talking about me, or what I'm doing. I don't want them 'checking me out', seeing if I've lost any weight.
I'm sure there are a few of you out there who are like this. The only one who I can talk to about these types of things is my sister. My mom would just over-analyze anything. If I tried to talk to her about my health concerns, or weight issues, she would end up talking more about her own concerns, or other people's stories. I really do love her, but it is next to impossible to talk to her about anything like this.
I did get a nice walk in. Not too far, but it was a good thing for me. My dad passed away about a year ago. He is buried in a cemetary, about 3/4 mile from my mom's house. So my oldest son and I walked up there. We had a nice talk, a nice walk. It was sad, because we were remembering my dad. But it's getting better all the time. Easier to talk about him, without feeling that heartache. I think I will always feel that pang, because I miss him, but it is hurting less and less as time goes on.
Anyway--- I think I'm done now! I'm just glad to be back, and glad to have more control over what I eat. ( and really glad to sleep in my own bed!)

[ehyatt]

I think you did great! It is so hard to go out of town, especially when you are visiting relatives and they are in charge of the food choices or restaraunts. I think you did a fabulous job, and you are right, there is no place like home!

[Trying4Thin]

On the contrary, I dont think you failed at all. You kept modest portions, even when there was temptation all around you, and you were able to have a great walk and talk with your son. It can be really difficult when you dont feel like you have the support you should from your family and friends. Often people who try to lose weight are subject to diet nitpicking from others, sabotage, and generally feel like outcasts for trying to turn their lives around. I think this is just a scare tactic from others because they are jealous you found the strength to change and they cant. Why should you get to do it and get all the attention?? Just keep doing what you are doing and eventually you will get there and surprise them all. I hate to say it, but when it comes to weight loss, you find out who your real friends are. I am glad there is somebody you can confide in. But if that person is unavailable, there is always your journal or one of us here. We completely understand, because we are living it too. This is your time to shine now and it should be all about you...not somebody else's experiences or troubles. Keep up the great work! You are doing great!

~Carrie

[muppet]

Ok, I''m going to sit here an type till this feeling goes away. I just ate-- I ate a nice healthy lean cuisine. But I am still hungry! I really not actually hungry, I just want to eat more. So, I'm going to do anything I have to, to keep myself out of the kitchen till this feeling passes. My head wants to eat, but my stomach doesn't need it.
Man, I am feeling dizzy today. I have been taking some decongestant for my head full of .....you know what.... I haven't taken any since last night, but I'm sure having some lingering effects. This is why I hate to take medicine. There are always side effects, sometimes worse than the original symptoms. It seems like it takes forever to get these things out of my system.
I think this is why I think I'm hungry. I think if I eat more, I'll start feeling more like myself. But, it won't work. I'll just feel woozy, and stuffed! And bad, because I ate more than I needed.
No NO NO-- I don't need any ice cream!!! I don't need a bowl of Lucky Charms!!! I'm going to go and drink a nice glass of water, then go read my book.
Anyone besides me going to be watching 'Dancing with the Stars' tonight?
Who are you rooting for? I missed it Thursday. But I really don't care who wins. I just enjoy watching them dance. I hope they keep this show around for awhile!

[ehyatt]

Try brushing your teeth, I never feel like eating once my teeth are squeaky clean. Let me know if it works for you.

[muppet]

Originally Posted by ehyatt

Try brushing your teeth, I never feel like eating once my teeth are squeaky clean. Let me know if it works for you.

That is exactly what I did! I drank some water, and brushed my teeth. Worked great! It also helped to just come here, and type out what I was feeling. Just putting it into words, and seeing it in black and white made me even more determined to not give into cravings.
I had a good day, as far as eating goes. I only snacked a little bit on some dry cereal. Supper was only a tuna sandwich, and veggie soup.
It's a beautiful day here. Highs in the 50's. So I'll be enjoying that with a nice walk later.
Happy Monday, everybody!!!

[susieokla]

Originally Posted by muppet

That is exactly what I did! I drank some water, and brushed my teeth. Worked great! It also helped to just come here, and type out what I was feeling. Just putting it into words, and seeing it in black and white made me even more determined to not give into cravings.
I had a good day, as far as eating goes. I only snacked a little bit on some dry cereal. Supper was only a tuna sandwich, and veggie soup.
It's a beautiful day here. Highs in the 50's. So I'll be enjoying that with a nice walk later.
Happy Monday, everybody!!!

I've tried this trick also with brushing my teeth to avoid eating. It does work!! Sounds like you're doing great. Glad you're getting good weather too. It's suppose to be sunny and in the 70's here today! I'm so excited!!

Have a good day!!

[weaverdelooh]

I'm the same way! I haven't told anyone but my daughter that I'm trying to get healthier, and the only reason for that is because she's so encouraging. I remember being younger and wanting my mother to lose weight, but the words I said seemed to be discouraging rather than encouraging. Maybe it's because she was a single mother? I don't know, but I never want my daughter to feel as if she's not encouraging me to be healthier.

Originally Posted by muppet

I don't talk a lot about my diet, and wanting to lose weight. I know many of you have very supportive families. Mine might be too, but part of me just wants to keep this private. I don't want them talking about me, or what I'm doing. I don't want them 'checking me out', seeing if I've lost any weight.
I'm sure there are a few of you out there who are like this. The only one who I can talk to about these types of things is my sister.

[weaverdelooh]

Oh, a bowl of Lucky Charms????? Sure sounds good! That's one thing I've been trying keep from buying.... things that I like such as L.C.. Generally I'll buy something I know the kids will enjoy but not something I like. It's been working ok in that manner, i.e. the cookies my son picked out were double fudge. Yeah, I don't like them, so they aren't even a temptation.

Originally Posted by muppet

I don't need a bowl of Lucky Charms!!! I'm going to go and drink a nice glass of water, then go read my book.
Anyone besides me going to be watching 'Dancing with the Stars' tonight?
Who are you rooting for? I missed it Thursday. But I really don't care who wins. I just enjoy watching them dance. I hope they keep this show around for awhile!

[muppet]

Whew-- it's been awhile. I tried to visit on Wednesday, but the site was down. I'm so glad it's back! I was a little worried.
My journey toward a healthier lifestyle seems to have stalled out. I simply cannot shake this cold! I thought I was getting so much better, and I went for a nice long walk on Wednesday. Everything was good, but later I was relaxing, reading a book, and my sinuses closed up on me again. Blehhh..... I'm so tired of struggling to breathe, headaches, and havind a hoarse voice. Excuse my whining-- I just don't have any place else to do it. Now, my kids have started with a stomach bug. I had one home earlier this week, and son # 2 is home today, after barfing all night. Tis the season I guess. I know we'll all survive, but it sure seems like at least one person in this house has been sick, for the past month. I know, everyone goes through it. It's just so darn depressing! I know it will make me appreciate those times when we are all healthy.
Well, anyway, I see no reason to let these minor illnessess sidetrack me. I'm determined to eat healthy today. So far, I've had tea, toast, and an orange. I imagine some frozen diet meal for lunch, yogurt, and maybe another orange for a snack ( load up on that vitamin C!) Supper is up in the air yet. I'm all for keeping it simple.
I didn't even weigh myself this week -- I know it won't be good news. Hopefully, I can undo any damage by next week, and start to see those numbers go down.
I'm going to walk today, and clean my house. I also hope to watch The Amazing Race, which I recorded Tuesday, and haven't had time to watch. I love AI too, but haven't been keeping up. I have really liked Katherine, since she auditioned. I hope she's still around!