Lady Jami's Journal

[Big_Girl_Bigger_Heart]

Thank you very much for your kind words Fiona.

Lady Jami

[muppet]

I don't know if anyone who has struggled with weight, would ever feel superior to those who haven't been able to do it. I think we all know how hard it is, which is why we are able to be so supportive of each other's successes, and set-backs. We've all been there.
It's kind of scary to think about all the diets, gimmicks and treatments we have tried to lose weight. It takes a lot of trial and error to find what works for you.
I don't think you have to worry about putting yourself first too much. I might be way off base here, but I think a lot of us here are guiltly of NOT putting ourselves first enough. Partially why we're overweight? I don't know-- maybe.
I loved your goals. You've got your priorities straight. I hope I can do as well as you!

[Big_Girl_Bigger_Heart]

You're 100% correct about the gimmicks. I was a sucker for a few of them myself. Primarly, the "diet pills". You name them, I've tired them. One of them actually made me so sick I thought I was going to die. Then I did Atkins, and lost forty pounds, but gained it all back, plus thirty extra pounds.
I learned then, I am going to have to work three times harder to lose every pound I gained. It's not going to be as simple as swallowing a pill, and I wake up tomorrow with a "perfect butt, firm boobies, and a flat stomach" like the models they show. I am always going to have strech marks. I'm always going to have to be careful of the food I eat. And of course, I am always going to have to be aware of the changes in my body as I age.
My biggest fear is that by losing all this weight, I'd become mean to people. I already see myself doing things out of character, and if it was for the positive, I wouldn't complain. Sadly, I think I hurt a few peoples feelings. I just cannot handle being mean to people.
That is kind of why I set new goals for myself. I need to keep on track, and stay true not only to those goals...but myself as well. I need to love myself the way I am....because as I have said so many times before, my actions as a person defines who I am...not the size of my waist.

Lady Jami

P.S. Thank you for your compliments and being so understanding Muppet. It means a lot. *Hugs for you!"

[Jules]

Lady Jami,
Those sound like great goals no matter if you're dieting or not! For many of us our weight is as much emotional in nature as physical -and you're doing a great job focusing on both sources. Just remember with your priorities that you have to help yourself or you'll not capable of being there for other people when/how they might need you. You sound very similar to one of the BL stories -I think it was Susie, who spent so much time helping others and worrying aobut others first that she had to learn a proper balance for her own health. Good luck keeping to those goals; I know you'll help a lot of people with an attitude like that.

[Jules]

I just have to mention from the list of "4 things about me" on that other thread -I love your taste in movies! Zombies movies are great! And all 4 movies you chose are really interesting commentaries on society.

I don't know how hard it must be to be a cake decorator and not just eat icing all the time. I guess you get sick of it after a while, but man -what temptations you have to put up with! I can so see how it must be hard to make things look like people see in their heads. It's almost like you'd have to be a graphic artist first constantly redesigning and then make it into icing to try and please everyone. Do you have some picture book or something people look through and tell you they want it similar to things you've already done? (Sorry, it's just fascinating. I love watching cake decorating contests on food network.)

[pathoulihanuk]

your spot lady jami we always upset something one way or another and someone always is not happy but thats life i guess and main priority is looking after number 1 for once.
Patrick