December journal

[nahum1_7]

Disregard the weight at the bottom, I am too lazy to bother changing my signature. I decided a couple of months ago that I wasnt going near a scale for awhile. I was on a pretty high dose of steroids for almost the whole summer/fall and last I weighed was 186, not sure if I am any lower, but at least my clothes are fitting better. I dont want to get back to where I am more focused on a number than seeing how God has blessed me each day regardless of what that scale says.

My knee is so much better, I still cant run, well shouldnt run...I ran last week and it felt great until I got up the next morning. My asthma is great one week and horrible the next, praying that I can stay far away from the steroids this winter if at all possible.

Personally I feel stronger than before. Yes I still believe that God will restore our marriage and He is working wonders. I could tell you of how many times God has answered prayers, and if I did I would be writing all night long. I cant explain the peace I felt once I decided to hold on to the promises I made on our wedding day and let God handle the rest. The kids miss their dad so much, but God not only brought him here thanksgiving, he brought him the next day. The kids had prayed that morning that God bring him home again, and he got a call that afternoon just a few minutes from our house....which is WAY out of his call area.

Here is a picture of him decorating the tree with the kids on Thanksgiving,

and later on that day-



My car has major issues...transmission, but I am thankful that we got my mom's car running. Its pretty old but it rolls forward and backward on command so I am very thankful!

A month ago I joined planet fitness for the same price I was paying at the community center... $15 bucks with unlimited tanning. I have been pushing hard on my workouts, but trying to balance it out and not do too much.

This week I have done so far-

Sun- nothing
Monday 30 mins- arc trainer, weight training, abs
Tuesday- 45 mins on the elliptical, abs

I take my Bible with me when I do cardio now. When I feel like I cant go any further I look in front of me and see that-
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me Philippians 4:13
Isaiah 40:29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
31- But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

I was looking through the Psalms today, I ended my first workout at Psalm 124, it was so true!

[nahum1_7]

Sun- rest
Monday 30 mins- arc trainer, weight training 60 minutes + abs
Tuesday- 45 mins on the elliptical, abs
Wednesday - 35 mins treadmill, 90 mins weight training + abs

[nahum1_7]

One of my verses for today

Psalm 27:14
Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.

[Rocky]

I think it's good that you are staying away from the scale for a while. It really is only a number, you can change your body in so many ways, for the better, before that number changes. Keep at it!!!

[nahum1_7]

Sun- rest
Monday 30 mins- arc trainer, weight training 60 minutes + abs
Tuesday- 45 mins on the elliptical, abs
Wednesday - 35 mins treadmill, 90 mins weight training + abs
Thursday- 51 mins arc trainer, abs

Psalm 18:32
It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect.

[nahum1_7]

Rocky Thank YOU!

Looking at nearly 70 pounds gone, God has blessed me way beyond a number on the scale. In 2 years I am so much better off physically, emotionally, and spiritually...without the latter I would be toast in the first two areas.

Smile through each day of trying to get fit. Dont put any thing off, nothing should ever hinge on what number pops up on the scale.

Yesterday marks 2 years since we buried my father, I did a tribute to him, if i can figure out how to post it I will.

Today is house cleaning day so I'll count that as my workout. We have alot planned, with a surprise for the kids tonight.

Faith, hope and love - these few verses are just a drop in the bucket

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Hebrews 11:6
But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

Romans 8:25
But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.

1 Corinthians 13:7-8
(Charity=Love) Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Charity never faileth.

[Missy]

Congrats on losing the 70 pounds, you have come such a long way and should be very proud. This battle isn't easy and I know how tough it is...that's why it's so inspiring when I read about other people's successes and accomplishments with weight. I swear I cry every single time I watch the Biggest Loser because I can truly feel their pain...because I've been there.

Good job!!

[nahum1_7]

Yesterday we decorated the outside of the house, got a pretty good workout going up and down the ladder. Today the kids had their Christmas program, I am going to bed as early as I can, big week planned. My goal this week is to have at least 2 days with morning/evening cardio workouts.

[Rocky]

I love decorating the house! We put are lights up a couple weeks ago and I just love coming home every morning and seeing them... and everyone else's houses all lite up. How could that NOT put a smile on your face?

That's a very resonable goal you set for the week!

[nahum1_7]

Thanks Missy, I was so tired I didnt see your post, you inspire us all and we are proud of you!

Rocky, I love to decorate too. I cant spend alot but making almost everything myself saves me money.

I had a nasty asthma attack today, I almost feel like I am getting a chest cold. I havent decided about working out. My eating has been on track for awhile so I am not going to stress about it.

I've been reading Joshua and 1 Samuel. In the first chapter 3 times it says be strong and of good courage, do not dismay or be afraid. I've had such a peace these past couple of days especially. I am at peace about Michael, the kids and I still cover him in prayer but there isnt any doubt that God will move on our behalf. I'm at peace with my weight too. God changed more than the scale in 2 years, I am happy with myself now and look forward to the changes to come. I dont doubt I will reach my goal. I just have to keep my priorities straight. Money is tight, but unlike every other Christmas I am not going to let that get to me. I have been praying about a specific gift for Michael, that gift came through today and I paid less than a 10th of what its worth. I hadnt gotten anything for the kids....I found a gift card I lost 2 years ago when my dad died. The gift card bought each of the kids a present. God is so good!