It's Time For A New Life

[Rocky]

Originally Posted by Trying4Thin

I cant stand people like that....why cant they be happy for you? Obviously just eating whatever we want isnt working for us. Heck yes I would love to chow pizza all day and never gain an ounce but it isnt in my genes. Newsflash for your friend....her poor eating habits will catch up with her at some point. As we age, it is harder to maintain the body weight and the looks of our youth. Look at the plastic surgery industry?! Maybe your friend is insecure about meeting the new bombshell version of you; and she is scared you will steal some of her thunder. (From where I am sitting, she has plenty of reason to be.) I am not going to lie; weight loss affects not only the loser, but the people around them as well. Throw a stone into the river and what happens? You have the initial action followed by a reaction (the ripples from the water). For every action, there is an equal or larger reaction. The larger the action, the bigger and more widespread the reaction. I dont know about you guys, but I am going for the big splash! If your "friends" cant handle the fact that you want to better yourself...find new friends.

If you have never been fat before how can you possibly know what it is like to diet and exercise? That was a really callous remark. This is one thing you cant just "understand." Those who tell me, 'I know how you feel' really dont. Especially when they are a size 2. You have to LIVE it before you can truly GET it. People who have been there and are comitted to reinventing themselves end up being more compassionate in life.

I never really thought of it that way, in terms of her not wanting me to look better than her for whatever reason... Hmmmm. Very possible. She is a great person and I love her to death but it's exactly like you say... she has never been fat in her life so she couldn't possibly understand what I am going through. For her life will go on as usual either way. For me everyday is a challenge.

Good luck on the weigh in tomorrow!!!

Speaking of lasagna I am having a Lean Cuisine one tonight! I just newly discovered it, and man is it good.

[Trying4Thin]

I so miss my microwave stuff! Unfortunatly my kitchen is now a diet friendly zone. I am not going to risk adding the Lean Cuisine stuff in until I am in the 120's. My weight is too unstable right now. Want real lasagna? Try the full fat and calorie Stouffer's version. Ok, well just smell it then...

Another dreaded weigh in today. These used to be fun for me, but now they are just another chance for me to pull out my hair strand by strand. I feel like everyone is losing weight but me. I swear I must be sleep walking to drive-thru's during the night. I would have thought my body would have been throwing my excess weight overboard faster than the crew did during the Boston Tea Party incident. But unfortunatly, it doesnt work that way. It is puzzling because your body can work so much more efficiently without the excess so why would it try and cling to it? I wont die of starvation I promise!

Nothing new to report here. Still have loads to do and I still dont want to do it. Only had two clients today (what a waste). But I have the rest of the day to goof off. Going to head to the gym tonight (hoping it wont be nuts with the students back).

Have a good one!

[Trying4Thin]

Right now I just want to crawl into bed with a large pizza and eat until I puke. I am back at 148 pounds (still up 3 pounds from 145.2), and the LA staff cant understand why I am upset. Yes I am down over a pound; but it was weight that I never should have gained. I am sick of hearing how large my muscles are, or that I am building muscle (for all the good it is doing me), I didnt binge in the sense that the word binge means. And I didnt eat on any 4 pounds. I forced myself to drink all my water, and I ate all my food. I am seriously beginning to think that I could have done this myself without them (and saved bo-ku bucks). This counselor said that I probably wasnt getting enough protein (from 1 whopper jr), and that it has too much salt. 1 sandwich isnt going to ruin 1 day unless it is slathered in mayo and has bacon on it. Mine didnt even have mayo on it. It is in the book so I know I can eat it. And I dont use salad dressing anymore. So I am going to try their meal replacement shakes. If I am not at 145 by Weds; they are going to have a problem on their hands. Each counselor tells me something different and I have no idea who to listen to. One says veggie burgers are ok, another says to tone them down. Come on guys....If I were the manager I wouldnt want to hire somebody as inconsistent as I am. As hard as I am working; my body is working that much harder against me. Right now I just want one thing in my life to work; just one thing. Instead of everything just going straight to hell in a handbasket. If I am going to be bouncing around the 140's for what seems like forever; can I at least have Eric back?? I am just so ready to punch a wall right now.

[Missy]

I understand what you are going through right now. I hate when you have a million different people who all have different answers. It's very frustrating when all you want to know is the answer that is going to give you weight loss. I had this problem about a month ago when we spoke with the nutritionist. It made me feel like everything I was doing up to that point was wrong...and it's even worse when I feel like the whole time I was doing it the right way! BUT...we talked to my trainer about it after and he told us the nutritionist is crazy and just tries to get people's money...and guess what??? The nutritionist...he got fired about 3 weeks ago! I am so glad we didn't listen to him and fork out more money for a new diet. I hope everything goes well for you this week and you get back to where you were. I don't blame you for being angry with LA Weight Loss.

[muppet]

You're inconsistent? Sounds like they're inconsistent. As is pretty much every weight loss program, book, trainer, and nutririonist out there.
Maybe LA weigh loss isn't the answer for you. I'm not saying to give up on them, but don't put all your eggs in one basket -- know what I mean?
You're a smart girl, and probably know more about nutrition and exercise that a lot of these counselors. Don't doubt yourself, and what you know. Take what makes sense to you, from them -- take what works, and don't stress over the rest.
Good grief -- how much weight did you lose all on your own? Don't give LA weight loss any more credit than they deserve.

[Patty_Ann]

I totally agree with muppet here...you have lost so much weight on your own you do not need LA Weight Loss. My sister was dealing with Slim4Life - it was crazy b/c they would tell her what to eat on what days and what not to eat...she did as they said and didn't lose much weight. She finally quit going b/c the counselors were doing the same thing as they do with you - inconsistent with what they are telling you is fine and what isn't. She got fed up with them and quit - she has gained weight and then some. I know that you know what you are doing when it comes to nutrition and exercise...if you didn't know then you would not have lost 60+ pounds on your own. You keep your head up and give yourself a pat on the back - you have done a WONDERFUL job!

[Trying4Thin]

The longer I sit here; the more ticked off I get. Tonight's workout should be interesting. Now I am going to agonize over everything that contains sodium. I swear the people that are in their ads that lose a ton of weight in only a few weeks are freaks of nature. I really thought I was going to be one of them with the amount that I was working out etc. The amount that I have lost is unacceptable to me. My parents are thrilled and I just want to scream. I still feel like a giant heffer and I am wondering why I am not getting anywhere. I dont even feel like I have lost any inches. The only thing that has gotten smaller is my wallet. I know these things take time but what the hell is everyone else doing that I am not? I just want to quit my stupid job and work out all day. At least I would get something out of that and I wouldnt have time to think about Eric anymore and how incredibly much I miss him. I know it's wrong; but right now I feel like the world's biggest fattest failure. I know I failed my body for many years, and now it is failing me.

[Trying4Thin]

Overate on protein and starches today because I was starving. Too angry and depressed to work out tonight. No email from Eric today. I didnt think there would be. Work called and tried to get me to work over tomorrow. Uh NO! I am done with that. I "help the clients too much" so find somebody else and leave me alone.

When did everything become such a nightmare? I never thought Eric would stop doing things with me. Maybe this is just another "break" and he will come back to me again. Unless the good news he wouldnt tell me about about a week ago was that he was seeing somebody. I tend to doubt it though. But with my luck, that is how it's going to go. I just cant get one good thing to happen to me no matter how hard I try. Why did I have to be fat when I met Eric? If I had been at goal I would have been confident enough to have been the real me; and we most likely would have hit it off and gotten engaged. I get it; I have to be myself and like myself. How much more in my life am I going to lose before I can be happy? I just want Eric back. I dont care if I am 214 again. I just want him back.

[mifsit]

I care if you get back to 214. Youv'e done so well it would be sad to see you give up on yourself. All you hard work, pain and sweat would have been for nothing. You may not beleive it but you are not the person you were at 214 and you do not want to be her again. If you give in I'm on a plane to come kick your arse for you.

[Trying4Thin]

Thanks Phil;
For right now I am just tired and fed up of just going in circles. I really figured that teaming up with LA would have been my ticket to the 120's. I feel like I have gotten nowhere in the past few months for all my dedication. I have done all the right things, sweat like I have never sweat before and I am still looking like a fat girl and not a "Phat" girl. Eric leaving (even if it is only for a couple of months til he realizes he's made a mistake; although I am tending to doubt he will return, but I've got to believe in G-d), was the icing on the cake...A person can only take so much before they feel completely defeated. With my track record you would think I was bingeing on fast food and full sugar soda. Yes I will climb out of this eventually; but I am really hurting right now.