It's Time For A New Life

[Missy]

I'm sorry to hear that things are not working out in your favour. It's too bad he still doesn't realize the great girl he's missing out on.

I'm glad to see you are still determined and finding a way to get yourself to the gym. I know how it feels to be depressed and not feel like doing anything. I still find you a huge inspiration to me and I am wishing you luck right now for your weigh in tomorrow.

[Trying4Thin]

Gotta drag myself to the gym again tonight even though I dont want to. I need to get back to my days of 60% fat burning. But I cant do that running because my heart rate runs high enough to ruin my efforts. But it feels completely freeing to run again after all these years (and to not be huffing and puffing). Still debating whether or not to weigh in tomorrow. I did finally get on the scale today and I am not pleased at all. I dont want to see another gain in public; especially right now. I will cry. I just realized that I have under 20 pounds to lose before I hit the 120's. I never really did the math before and it makes me feel good to have that. Work pants look awful because they are so big now. Went to wash my hands after work and noticed that my butt looked to be the size of Texas in the full length mirror. But it was just an illusion because the fabric was just sitting there with nothing but air underneath it. I remember when I couldnt even reach around my backside because I was so huge. Baby had way too much back(side).
Heard from Eric today. He said that he is happy for all the good things that are happening to me. He only wants the best for me. If he wants to call me he has my number or he will email me. I think once I hit the 120's curiosity will definitely get the better of him and then "it's ON!"
I am excited because tomorrow ITunes will be releasing the next episode of the boxing show, "The Contender." I could stand to learn a lot from these guys. A few are jerks on camera; but when it comes down to it, they are fighting for their families, their lives, and their honor. When they get beaten up, they get back up and keep trying. I love their drive and determination. Dying to have their theme song but it isnt available. I dont know what they are thinking...that tune brings the show together. Right now my favorite song to sweat to is, The Damn Yankee's "High Enough." Or the Cherry Poppin' Daddies "Zoot Suit Riot." The higher the energy, the faster I move.
Wonder who is going to win the latest special edition BL contest? My money is on the red team and if they drag it out another week I am going to scream. But the next season is right around the corner and I am happy to say that I wont be watching it with a large taco pizza as my viewing buddy. I had a bout of heart burn the other day from this weekend and I didnt even go off plan for my foods, just overate. VERY unpleasant. Will not go there again. Knowing that in only a few over 20 pounds I will be at my goal weight is a big motivator. It would be easier for me to just crank those off than to eat 60+ pounds of self pity back on. So I am going to go for it. Besides I am really starting to like life without the double chin. People at work are going to flip when they see how small I am going to get. I cant wait to tell management I am persuing a career in weight loss and now they are second to me. I want a career where I am not chided for "being too helpful." Still peeved over that one. I have also noticed that where I have misplaced (permanently) pounds; that others seemed to have found them. I wish management were allowed to force these people to lose weight. I know it is discrimminating, poor ethics etc. BUT!!! Some of these people are so dear to me that it would kill me to see them have a heart attack etc. I know my work is extremely physical (route depending) and I know how it was a struggle for me to do certain things at 214...so I cant even fathom doing it at 300+ pounds. We had one woman (who left) that was over 300 (at a guess); but the men are the ones I worry about. Many times I need to squeeze into small places to tie down a wheelchair, or move around a crowded vehicle...no way could I do that before without major difficulty. Even driving with a large stomach was difficult. Last eval I was forced to sit in the driver seat and show the trainer I could buckle my seatbelt. No worries for me...but there were drivers that couldnt. That hurts me. Because I know what it is like to struggle with a belt. But for the insurance company to have to step in would have been humiliating. I hate watching these people suffer in silence; but I also see what they eat for lunch. It is a vicious cycle. So I will suffer in silence too by not offering help to them because it isnt my business to speak up. I can only hope that fate will step in (like it did for me) and they will be able to shed the extra. I read today that for every ten pounds we are overweight it is like carrying around an extra bowling ball. I was carrying over 9 at my worst. No wonder my ass wanted to spend as much time on a bench as possible.

[Trying4Thin]

I just needed a visual to keep me going. I am a little higher than 145.8 now, but I am intent on hitting the 130's before the end of the month. Holy smokes; the 130's....Am I really doing this??

[Joysieangel]

Congrats on everything Carrie, I was glad to see you still here when I got back on

[Trying4Thin]

Well I just got back from another sweatfest. This time I spent 1 and 1/2 hours on the Elliptical Stepper. One hour going forwards I covered 4.64 miles (new record I think) and the last half hour I went 2.10 miles backwards on level 9. Total calories burned 553 and 55% fat. MUCH BETTER for weight loss. But I wanted to run.... . Tomorrow I will run again if my calves are up to it. Today I needed to get a jump on the fat loss. I need to gain major ground before the end of the month if I am going to get this extra poundage off to hit the 130's. This past weekend really put a crimp in things. But I will get it back and then some.

[Rocky]

Originally Posted by Trying4Thin

I just needed a visual to keep me going. I am a little higher than 145.8 now, but I am intent on hitting the 130's before the end of the month. Holy smokes; the 130's....Am I really doing this??

WOW look how far you have come!!! GREAT JOB! Keep it up and you will be at goal in no time!

[Trying4Thin]

Thanks Rocky....if I dont "kill" myself first! Before food was going to do me in; now it's the gym!

Let me guess...Calgary Flames fan?
I saw them once in Nashville against the Predators (front row). I was a HUGE Dave Roche fan. Martin St. Louis also played in Cleveland too so it was nice to see him play as well. I gotta marry a Canadian, they sleep with hockey sticks!

[Rocky]

HECK NO! Oilers all the way!!! Haha. You could get injured saying something like that here. We have a great rivalry us Oilers and Flames fans.

The hockey stick thing is true...

[Trying4Thin]

Never was an Edmonton fan. But anything is possible. I used to hate the Maple Leafs. Now it is just the Montreal Canadians I dont like. Or maybe it was just Patrick Roy because he was just so damn good vs Boston.

[mifsit]

Hi Carrie. I just wanted to say well done on your results. the 130's will come and go very quickly.