It's Time For A New Life

[Trying4Thin]

Hi everyone,

Well I am at the college library because the city free library has many restrictions on what you can and cant do on theirs. I dont want to feel like a child who has some librarian eagle eyeing my every move. But the college is no better. The pc's are packed in so tightly that anyone can look over your shoulder to read what you are typing. I hate that; but it is air conditioned in here and the computers are free. I just miss the convienance of leaving my bedroom in my pajamas and checking my mail or whatever. I cant go to the library in my pajamas; or at 3am. No smilies either. This morning the dispatcher showed me how to make a cd copy (data) copy of all my ITunes stuff. Assuming that I am able to get back into the system before I have to wipe the hard drive. It would appear that just about everything is on my IPod that I purchased from ITunes and all the other stuff I put on my pc as well. I just have to make sure it stays there. Here's hoping that nothing else goes wrong between now and Tuesday. My computer is under warrenty so I dont think I will have to cover the cost of parts (should I need any). But I am pretty sure it is a software problem and not a hardware one. (Amen). What also stinks is that in the event of a hard drive wipe; I will also lose all my avatars, favorite places, pictures, and any other "cookies." When I find out what happened here; somebody is going to get it....if Windows caused this. THEY will foot any bills I encounter.

I FINALLY got my E-check waiver yesterday. For a second there; I didnt think they were going to give me one. I went to a different e-check station than last time and they were extremely nice to me. Everyone from the checkers to the station manager were all women. They didnt charge me the $20.00 retest fee, and they made sure I had the required stuff done. I have a feeling that if I had been taken advantage of by the mechanics where I went to have the car serviced; that they would have called the manager and screamed him into next week. If they didnt; I would have. Then onto the DMV. I got my special plates (State Park Plates) on order and I will have them in my hot little hands in three weeks. Why state parks? They take a portion of your license fee and donate it to the state parks. I have had so much fun walking the 6 mile trail that I wanted to give something back. Ok so my $15.00 is about enough to buy a blade of grass; but it is something. I have seen other people with these plates so they must be getting something. Each little bit makes a difference. And if my contribution keeps a blade of grass healthy for a year, then I am happy. So one thing went right in the past 24 hours.

As of 10:22am I am ON VACATION!! Ok so I was hoping to start it on a happier note; but the fact that I now have 8 full days to myself is huge. The weather is supposed to hit the 90's and that is going to put a huge crimp in my plans. Just walking from the parking lot to the library I felt sick and dizzy because of the humidity. It just seems to hang in the air like pea soup that we have to swim through. Starting tomorrow I am going to hit the gym with a vengeance. I now have no excuses. 8 free days to not have to listen to drivers asking for directions on the radio or getting lost, messed up manifests, cranky pca's, buses with no a/c, involuntary sweating, lifting anything I dont want to...my time is my own. I have been waiting a long time for this and now it is here. Since my pc is down, I will have less time to sit on my butt typing and more time to be at the gym sweating. I have a goal for the time I go back to work on the following Monday. I am going to be below 150 pounds (3.8 pounds). My monthly pain in the butt arrived this morning and I am kinda relieved. I also like the idea of Missy's Supa Dupa Speed Cleaning (Go speed racer missy!) I bet that does burn hella calories. I am also going to get moving with getting rid of the extra stuff I am sick of looking at and no longer need. I plan on keeping myself busy so I am not waiting for a phone call that most likely wont come. Then again; if I am pms'g I dont want him to see me anyway. But still...if he were to ask, it would make me feel really good. Well I am going to get moving. I have some other stuff to check out before I call it a day. I will try and check in tomorrow. But it is supposed to be hotter than heck tomorrow so I will most likely limit my sweating to the gym.

When all this is over I will add my soapbox comments to the new thread that Phil started.

Be well,
~Carrie

[Trying4Thin]

Oh Phil I love you,

Actually during my chat with one of the tech guys yesterday they told me to look for the XP install disk. I made sure I kept EVERYTHING I got with my pc. I went through it again and again. No disk. I was wondering how I could have lost it. Then I found a piece of paper saying that my pc is one of the newer ones that they dont include a disk with. WTF?? Like newer pcs dont have trouble too?? So they are going to overnight mail me one and I should have it Tuesday. I hope to be able to get in so I can rescue my stuff. The tech guy said it was a 50/50 shot that I could do this and not have to wipe the disk. So I will get the disk Tuesday, try and get in and then call tech support so they can walk me through this. Although hearing that you have had work related problems due to XP makes me feel better. I was really hoping this wasnt spyware or a virus. Those payloads can be murderous. The only thing I really care about is my ITunes; but having to reinstall everything else is going to be a royal pain. I hope my Roadrunner wont be affected. I dont think it would be. Thanks for the help. I feel a little better.

I did think about going to get my files backed up but it would cost an arm and a leg that I dont have right now.
~Carrie

[helena]

I hope you have a nice holiday!!! what are you going to do with yourself??

[mifsit]

Have a great holiday Carrie. Hope the pc is sorted soon.

[Trying4Thin]

Hi everyone,

I am still without a pc; but I am hoping that the disk comes tomorrow and I am able to get back control tomorrow. This sucks. I miss my 20 inch flat screen monitor like you would not believe. And I miss having privacy when I type, and I miss my smilies......

Ok so I havent been to the gym since Tuesday. NOT COOL. Thurs and Fri I was in pain because of the wheelchair, Saturday I was lazy, Sunday I had horrible pms and I pulled a muscle somehow in my left upper arm. How I havent a clue. So either tonight or definitely tomorrow; I am going to start pounding on myself again. I miss it. I tried on an old pair of shorts today. I remember when I bought them and I could barely get them on. Today they would have qualified as low rise shorts. They were hanging off my hips. Despite being still bloated my stomach area looked awesome this morning. I am soooooo happy! This is the week guys; I promise. I have no excuses since I am on break. I weighed in today and I am down 0.6 pounds. So I have 3.2 to go before I hit 149.9 pounds. So little; yet so far away. I will get there fear not. It is supposed to hit 93 degrees here today and the heat index will be 100 yuck! So no trail for me today. Plus the parking lot is still closed. Was supposed to open again on the 15th.

From the few journals I scanned through this morning; you guys are doing awesome! Missy it takes a brave soul to show before pics. I cant even bring myself to post my before head shot; let alone an entire body. But maybe I will get over it once I hit my goal weight. I think it is because I am embarrassed that I ever let myself get that way out of whack. Well the phrase, "Never again," comes to mind. I have hit rock bottom; been dragged along rock bottom, and now I am finally rising to the top.

I am crossing my fingers that my disk will arrive tomorrow. If I get through this the first thing I am going to do is back up all my ITunes files, then I am going to answer everyone's journals!! Keep up the great work guys and I will check in sometime soon with an update!

~Carrie

[Missy]

hey Carrie, I definately was embarassed to put up those pics, but I just thought that if someone else saw them it might give someone the motivation to keep going and know that they can achieve their goals too. I think that really sucks that you still don't have your computer, we've been missing you around here. I also just wanted to check in with you to see how your holidays were going so far, giving yourself a good butt-kicking?

Anyways, just wanted to stop in and wish you luck on ridding some poundage on your holidays!

[Trying4Thin]

Hola everyone!

Ok good news and bad news....So I am going to rant and rave here til the cows come home. Spent almost 4 hours (over 2 days) with Dell Gold Technical Support. Had to wipe the hard drive. BUT...I was able to get rid of some of the factory installed junk that was on here that I didnt need. More space for ITunes! Reloaded some programs like MacAfee, Office 2003 etc. The fonts arent working right, so all my typing is like ant-sized. No biggie. Got my smilies back, AOL remembered all my "favorite places" (yeah for computer cookies!), and I redownloaded ITunes and the latest Pod software. Now the bad news..Called Apple last night and they said that I get one free tech call after buying my Ipod. Well mine just missed the time cut. It was a present geez; I didnt know! After that; they charge for tech support. THEY WANTED $49.00 TO HELP ME!!! But I weeazled around it because it wasnt a problem with my pod...it was general. So I got out of it. However...my old stuff is NOT compatible with the new so I cant move it off my pod to make a data disk. (I am not giving up. I will find a way! With or without Apple's help!) Will definitely back up the new stuff. I can burn that no problem. I am grateful I didnt lose it all. Sooooo, I am back! G-d help the next hacker or Windows XP that decides to mess with my hard drive. This was BS! Dell Support was awesome; but why the company would opt to have a high tech computer (or any pc) and not provide the necessary disks to be included along with it is beyond me. This could have been done in one day. It took three. My cell minutes this month are going to be through the roof. Computer is under warranty and under gold tech support until Dec '07; so I feel much better. It feels great to be back.

What have I been doing these past few days? Well I did some cleaning. (Have lots to do still since I am in a "perfectionist stage" coming back from "I dont give a rat's behind" phase.) I have been watching some movies "Chronicles of Narnia" and "Memoirs of a Geisha" (Both awesome!), panicking over my pc, going to LA Weight Loss (lost 0.6 pounds), pulled another two muscles doing lord knows what, battling pms, and avoiding the gym. Yeah my eating hasnt been nearly as strict either. But that all changes tomorrow. I didnt go off plan; but I have favored certain food groups over others.

I am glad to see that some of you are checking in and keeping up with your plans. I am worried about some of you and I am not too shy to say it. I wont mention names; but there is more than one on my list. As always; my mailbox is always open. It felt funny these past few days waking up at 4am and having to remind myself that I didnt have a forum to check up on. But I am back and ready to tackle any issue that you guys may have. Just ask. There is no such thing as a stupid question; only the one that goes unasked. Chances are, other people have the same question or could benefit from the feedback. I know I am always interested in learning something new.

I missed you guys so much. Yeah I checked in, but not as much as I wanted to. Knock on wood it wont happen again!

~Carrie

[mifsit]

Dell charge and extra £5.00 sterling for the disks to be supplied which I think sucks, they cost less than 50p to produce I'd guess. I make my own copies anyway for each licensed pc we have.

Glad you're back Carrie.

[Trying4Thin]

Considering how much they charge for a pc; I dont know why they do that. Then again; look at the price of cds? Pennies to make and dollars to buy. No wonder people are flocking to ITunes. Most of the time you can pick and choose what you want. But the other times you are saddled with buying the whole cd's worth of songs.

I am determined to get my butt to the gym today. (Not like I have anything else to do.) This week of butt kicking so far has been a complete failure. If my pc hadnt been down; I would have been so far ahead of the game. But spending hours on the phone isnt helping. My font is still tiny. Good thing my vision is still good. If I try and blow it up; AOL says the font is too big. But for now; as long as my pc is back, I dont care. I am slowly getting everything back. My registered screensaver etc. What a pain.

Spoke with "my guy" yesterday after he sent a brief email saying he was hoping everything was ok with my pc. I called him back and we had a decent conversation. I still feel like I am getting ignored but I didnt come out and say it. I told him I had changed a lot on the outside since he had last seen me. He said he probably didnt think it was that drastic since stuff like that doesnt happen overnight. Nice...well it has been almost two months and that isnt overnight. I said it goes back to the self fulfilling prophecy he used to throw at me..If he expects me to not have done well, then I wont. But if he thinks positively about it, then he would be able to see more. Surprisingly, he agreed with me. Yes he has been really busy the past month and is now getting into a routine. He said there were a few times he thought about spending the day doing stuff with me (well it never happened). He says that he doesnt want to rush around just to squeeze me in. I dont know if that means that I am not important enough to spend time with; or that he wants to enjoy our time together and not have it rushed. He says that if he HAD to; we could spend time together but he doesnt want to be forced. He wants to do it when he wants to and isnt rushed. Not because he doesnt want to see me. So why do I still feel like dirt? He said when it works out between our schedules. If he thinks of something; he will call or if I think of something, I should call. Well when I call he is busy. I told him last week I would have a week off. Then again; never tell a guy anything when his attentions are directed elsewhere...(the World Cup was supposed to be on). He said he put off a few things so far this week and they had to be done today. I wish it would pour like crazy so he couldnt get them done. At least I would feel better. If we ever hook up as more than friends; he will not pull this on me. You can be sure of that. I am really hurt right now. I wanted to show him how much progress I had made because he is one of the few people out there whose opinion of me I actually value besides my own. But as I said before (and I told him) each day we dont see each other is another chance for me to further change. Just because my running still sucks (compared to his) doesnt mean that I havent physically changed. He said that he is one of those people who can always find something to do; and that if there were 100 hours in the day he could fill them. If he were just sitting around doing nothing he would probably call me. Well when are some of those hours going to include me? I am not always going to have this much time either. I am really getting ready to throw in the towel. He always thinks about doing stuff with me. Well it takes zero time to think about something; compared to actually doing it. And so I left it like this; if he wanted to do something today then to call or email me last night because I like to somewhat plan ahead too. Guess what? The call/email never came. I dont know why I thought there was a chance that it would. Man this sucks. I really thought that we were getting better with each other. But at least now I know it isnt because he just doesnt want to see me. (I dont think). I have changed for the better and we both know it. Some vacation eh?

[Trying4Thin]

I am so pissed off right now I cant see straight. I have been calling everywhere to try and rescue my library off my IPod and nothing is working. It will only export my new library. I am not going to drag my pc to Best Buy so they can either tell me they cant do it; or charge me an arm and a leg. This copyright stuff is junk. I bought the music and now I cant do anything with it. It's not like I downloaded it illegally. This is turning out to be the worst vacation ever. I am spending it alone (as usual), my computer crashes and I am wasting valuable time trying to get it up and running again, my old ITunes files are stuck on my IPod forever and I cant back them up, and I have yet to get anything accomplished because I am so pissed off. I just dont understand why nothing ever goes right for me. I am trying so hard to be happy and nothing is working. What is the point of having a vacation when I am not having any fun? At least at work I am getting paid.