It's Time For A New Life

[Patty_Ann]

Carrie...I have told you once before that you should wait and see how it goes. That God's timing is different than ours...WELL, I HAVE CHANGED MY WAY OF THINKING. I'm so sorry to hear that things are not working out for the two of you...I really was hoping for the best. As many have told you - you are a great person...you do not need to take the put downs & the "if you do this" sh**. You are too good of a person to be somebody's doormat. You have lost a tremendous amount of weight and you are working on yourself...YOU ARE DOING IT! Keep in mind that you need to take care of yourself for YOURSELF not anyone else. When you were asking why God had you two cross paths - maybe this is an opportunity for you to grow strong and believe in YOURSELF! This is YOUR time sweetie - take it one day at a time!

Enjoy your time @ your parents! Keep smiling!

[Missy]

Lose the weight...get the confidence you want...then, when he comes begging for forgiveness, tell him to get the hell away from you. Tell him he had the chance a long time ago, but he wouldn't accept it...and now that he wants you...tell him you are too good for him.

Make him regret it.

[Trying4Thin]

Hi everyone...

I am just letting you know that I am not going to be posting on this site anymore. I just cant do it. I have gone completely numb inside. I spend more time being upset than anything else. Right now I am crushed and I really dont like myself very much. Even my own mother is telling me that "my guy" is never going to love me. And what am I going to do when he finds somebody else. Gee thanks mom. I thought you were supposed to support me in what I want and what I do in life. Thanks for not having any faith in me. So fine, I am the only one clinging to the ridiculous dream of being together with "my guy." Right now I just want to dig a hole and crawl in it. I called him to see if he would want to go walking with me today. It is beautiful outside. Before I could even get my sentence out, he said he didnt want to talk, and hung up on me. I dont know what the heck I did to deserve meeting the only guy I ever wanted to spend the rest of my life with, and he rejects me. I am sooo friggen glad I came out of my shell for this. You guys are doing great and I know you will all get to your goal weights. So I am stripping myself of my Moderator status. You guys deserve much better than I can give you. Susie is very sweet and knowledgeable and she will be there for you when and if you need her. I wish you all the best...

~Carrie

[susieokla]

Carrie-I already sent you PM's so you know how I feel.

I just want to say again what I'm sure everybody on here would agree with. We don't want to see you go but if you feel like that is what you need to do then we will understand. Maybe you just need a break for a while and if you decide to come back we will welcome you with open arms.

You have been a very positive influence on this board. Thank you for sharing your wit and humor on your journal. It is by far the most popular one, that has to tell you that people here like you.

Please take care of yourself. You are a special person, don't ever let anybody make you feel differently.

[Missy]

I'm sorry if anything I have said has hurt your feelings. I just want what's best for you and for you to stop beating yourself up over some dumb jerk. I wish you all the best in your life.

Much love,
Missy

[Patty_Ann]

Carrie...I'm very sad to see you go. I apologize if I had said anything that has upset you. Please feel free to email me anytime! I'm here for you - I'm here to support you in any of your decisions...even if it is a decision that may hurt you. I'm here! You have always made me smile - you have really acknowledged what I do for a living as a stay at home mom....you have called me "Spark Plug Mama"..."Dancin' Spark Plug Mama"....you have always made me feel great inside and worth something.

I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts...take care. If you want to come back we are here for you. You have always been extremely honest with your postings and your encouragement and support has gotten me through a couple of rough days.

Take care of yourself! Love Ya - ME

[muppet]

Dear Carrie,
I sincerely wish you'd reconsider. You'll be missed! But you need to do what's best for you. I have to agree the people who think it sounds like your guy isn't treating you very well. But, I don't know him, so I hesitate to pass judgement.
All I can say is unconditional love is the greatest thing there is. This is the only kind of love you should want, with someone you want to spend the rest of your life with. I hope you find this person Carrie. You are worthy of this kind of love, no matter what you have done in the past.. no matter what you weigh.... no matter what your job is.
You've helped a lot of people here. And if you have to leave us, I'm sorry. I appreciate all the time and effort you have put into this board. Thank you.
I'll will include you in my prayers. I'll pray that you find peace, happiness, and fullfillment, where ever life takes you.
God bless.
Carol

[Trying4Thin]

Hi everyone,

Well I am heading back to Ohio tomorrow from Massachusetts. I guess you could say that I had a change of heart about a few things. I got my behind whooped by a personal trainer for two sessions and I also got back on the Elliptical again. I hadnt been on one since November around Thanksgiving. I also ran again on the treadmill at 4.5 mph for 20 minutes. It wasnt what I used to run, but 20 minutes is twenty minutes. The gym owner has become a very good family friend. He made time in his busy schedule to meet with me for a consult. That ended up being almost 3 hours long. But what came out of it, was pretty exciting for me. He did two body fat tests. The first one was with a machine that I also used a while back when I weighed about 178. At the time, it said I was at 38% body fat. (People my age are supposed to be at 22-23%) Well when I had it done last night with the same machine, it came through as 36.5 I think). All that hard work and I just wanted to throw in the towel. Then, they did a body fat test where they use metal clips (I forget the name) to measure. The results of that test were drastically different. I would have gone through the roof if it was over 36. My body fat percentage now is 28%. I about passed out. I am assuming that the other test I had done at my gym was wrong too. Needless to say, I have lost a ton of body fat. It was a personal victory for me to have this guy crawling around on the floor trying to find fat on my calf....There isnt any! Why? Because I busted my butt getting rid of it. He also said I had some pretty good muscles. But people thought I was just fat because they couldnt see what was underneath. Well it is my body and I couldnt see what was underneath. So I have to keep trucking and getting rid of the fat and continuing to develop my muscles. It's all part of the process. It is going to take time, energy, and effort to make more of my muscles pop to the surface, and to get rid of the fat. I am not giving up. I am now also on a metabolism booster. This is supposed to increase my fat burn over 8 weeks. I am going to start it when I get home. As for my feet, I got a pair of new shoes, socks, and orthodics. (My parents made me run through a busy mall to make sure they were ok.) I am keeping my fingers crossed. So far, so good. I guess I am looking forward to getting home and starting over again. I have a lot to focus on right now. As for, "my guy." I havent heard from him since he hung up on me. Right now, he isnt a priority. I plan on changing a lot by the time he sees me again. Then we will see who gets all googly around who. If he wants to spend my birthday with me, great. If he doesnt, then I will spend the day pampering myself and hitting the trail. I dont need him to determine whether or not I have a good time. I havent heard from the second job, and I am guessing that I am not going to. No big deal. The hours would have killed me. I am not giving up. I am going to show everyone that I can turn my life around and be successful out where I am. I am not going to let some flea bag organization drag me down, or tell me that I am not smart enough or not worthy enough. I think highly enough of myself to just GET OUT. They had their chance; and now it is my turn to lower the boom. I am just waiting for the right door to open so I can charge through it. Well I am getting tired and I have to be up early tomorrow to pack and get to the airport. I will write more about my trip when I get home. Keep up all the great work guys. Take each day one at a time and eventually you will get there. Dont let anyone ever tell you that you cant reach your goals. When people say I cant do something, I try harder. Have a great holiday!

Love,
~Carrie

[helena]

nice to hear from you again Carrie!! i am so pleased for you!!
well done on the fat loss!! you must feel fantastic!!

[muppet]

Hello Carrie. Sounds like you are doing great. You really should be proud of yourself. Maybe your trip back home ( to visit your parents, correct?) was just what you needed. A little break -- a step back-- to clear your head and figure out where to go from here. Sounds like you are back on track, and I am so glad to hear it!
Take care !