It's Time For A New Life

[Trying4Thin]

Hi everyone!


Well I went shopping yesterday (spent too much as usual) and found some cool things.

First Item: My "Lost" Soundtrack Downloading it right now to ITunes. I like what I hear so far.

Second Item: A book in the shape of a refrigerator. "Eat This! 365 Reasons To Stop Dieting." (Mary McHugh) Cute book.

Third Item: "Bedside Blessings" (Charles R. Swindoll) An inspirational book for all religions I think.

Fourth Item: **My favorite** Fuze Healthy Infuzions made a new drink called Banana Colada. (NUMMY!) Ingrediants include; Calcium, Vitamins A, C, E, B3, B5, B6, and B12. NO artificial colors, flavors or preservatives. Just be wary of the sugars and carbs. Dont drink this every day. 90 cals per serving. 180 per bottle. Tastes just like a professional restaurant style colada. There were some other flavors, but this was the only one I bought. Site is drinkfuze.com for more info.

Oh I have turned into such a slacker this week. And I started off so well!! I guess I cant figure out what is going on with me. I am pretty sure I have put on muscle though. My outter legs look completely different, inner legs need mucho work. I know this sounds weird, but I think I have even put muscle on in my rear end from all that walking. I thought muscle was only built with resistance activities like lifting. Maybe not.

Got to watch one of my favorite cartoons ever on my computer this morning..."Pinky and the Brain." (Sorry Spongebob) Guess the vermin are back to try and take over the world! "Pinky, are you pondering what I am pondering? (Narf!!)"

Depending on the weather tomorrow, I am going to clean, and attempt Jillian's DVD. Should be interesting. I have got to get out of this rut. And I dont want to tell "my guy" I worked out just once this week. (Even if it was a hell of a workout.) The key to weight loss is consistency. I am consistent at finding excuses...not good.

So I had some time between client pick ups this morning and I went to scout out the building where I might be applying if I get passed over again. Looks like a nice place. Too bad it was before 6am and there was nobody there to talk to. April 13th seems like light years away. I dont think it is fair we are being strung out like this. Why cant they just tell us so we can all get on with our lives?? Oh yeah, because they are clueless. I have to keep remembering that those with the titles arent always the smartest of the bunch.

Ok so it is what, the 3rd or 4th day of Spring and it is snowing still??? Give me a break!! No fair. Enough is enough already. I want to see flowers again. And the poor little Crocuses that are beginning to come up and bloom are going to freeze in their holes! Oh well, Mother Nature will bring Spring soon, I hope.

So that's it folks. Have a great weekend!

~Carrie

[Missy]

We had some snow overnight as well, woke up this morning and the ground was covered!! How disappointing.

[muppet]

When I applied for my job, over 2 years ago, I had to wait almost over a month before they announced who got the job. I really felt like I hadn't, and had given up. Even though they did tell us it would be that long, I thought it was ridiculous to keep us waiting for so long. I hate these things that take forever --- *!#* or get off the pot! Know what I mean?? ( excuse my pseudo-profanity)
Those fuze things sound good. I wonder if you could blend them with ice? Or maybe a real banana? Sound like something I would LOVE in the summer. I love slushy drinks.
Thank you so much for helping me get a grip, on my thread. You are such a kind and compassionate person, to spend the time you do replying to so many people on this board. ]
Let us know how you like Jillian's workout.

[Trying4Thin]

So I was at Wal-Mart last night and I happened to see that there is a new flavor of Dr Pepper. (Available in regular and diet). It is Berries and Cream. Save your cash guys, it's nasty. The Cherry Vanilla is great, but pass the buck on this flavor. I see them discontinuing it real soon for low sales.
I am soooo depressed, it is really starting to snow now. Well now I have an excuse to stay in tomorrow and do more laundry and cleaning. I dont want to windburn my face again. I am still recovering from Weds. I would even kill for 65 degrees! Then I wouldnt have an excuse not to go outside and play. Maybe I should go and buy a pair of X-Country skis like I had thought about before. Just watched, "Derailed." A little predictible, but good all around. Jennifer Aniston can play characters other than, "Rachel." And Clive Owen is just plain hot. Anyhoo, back to my lazy day. The butt kicking begins tomorrow!! My muscles have recovered and they are once again ready for punishment.

~Carrie

[Trying4Thin]

Hi everyone!

Well it is Sunday and I am determined to do something today. Not just with the cleaning, but the weight loss as well. I think I am going to tackle my bedroom today. I havent been in there much these past couple of months because it is freezing compared to the rest of the apartment. Anyone else notice that one room is always colder than the rest? I am going to try sleeping in there tonight and maybe I wont wake up so much during the night. I am just sick of feeling stressed about everything. I have less than 3 months to get my act together before going home (unless that promotion comes through), or I get the new job that I "spied" on Saturday morning. I dont want to get a new job and then be calling off already. That doesnt look good. I am just feeling trapped because they think it is ok for everyone to put their lives on hold like we have nothing better to do but sit around and wait for them to make their decision. (Everyone knows it is fixed anyway). If I get turned down and the new job is already filled by then, I am stuck big time. I cant tell my current employer I am angry because they currently merged with my old employer and I would stand to lose 10 years of work history, so I am forced to keep my mouth shut....for now. But there will come a time when I get to say my piece. I forgot to say the last cool thing I found when I was shopping the other day...Juice! I always thought that when I was dieting that I couldnt have real juice. Not the mixes. OceanSpray has a new drink called Diet Orange Citrus Spray. Not too shabby. You can have a whole mini bottle for 10 calories!!! 75 mg of sodium, 3g carbs, 3g of sugars (these are normally 30 plus g). Downside being that it is 5% juice, which leads me to believe that the rest is concentrate. (Yep, second item on the ingredients list. First item is Filtered water. No artificial flavors or preservatives either. Tastes like orange and Tangerine juices. For those of you that want to keep yourself UTI free, there is also a Cranberry flavor. Havent tried that one yet, but I will let you know when I do. This also comes in big bottles for families as well. I like the single servings so I can grab it on the run and not worry about measuring wrong. I also bought some soup too, for days I am on the run. I dont know about you, but if I go too long without eating, in addition to ruining my metabolism, I get very very grouchy, and that is sometimes accompanied by headaches. If I get the road supe job, (or the new one), I am going to have to pack lunches so I wont go too long without eating. You would be surprised how hungry driving makes me. Then again, how many of you used to "chow down" in your cars? Speaking of cars, I think I am going to wash and vaccum mine before the weather hits. The outside is still 95% clean from the last vaccuming, but the outside is another story. The paint on my car is fading, so no matter if it is just washed, as soon as it dries, my car looks dirty all over again. In answer to your comments Muppet, I spend a lot of time on here to both get and give inspiration. Why bother? Because I see a little piece of me in all of you. I can relate to a lot of what people say on here. We have all been there at the jumping off point, and at the middle, and one day soon we will be at the end. Right now I am feeling like a loose cannon with my progress because of the stress. I do great one day, and revert back to slug mode the next. I need to find that place inside of me when I was gung ho for months straight at a time. I know I wasnt ment to be fat forever; that all of this was just a detour that I took. It wasnt all bad though, because I have become more patient and compassionate, (there are those exceptions though). I am here and giving of my time because I want to be. I like to think of my comments (and occasional tangents) as useful, not just words. I want what comes out of them to be useful to people and not just senseless ramblings to rack up posts. What I say is 100% sincere. I would rather post with quality and not quantity.
Any Nick Cage and John Travolta fans out there? I watched, "Face/Off" last night....wow! Great movie! I havent seen such action with boats since I saw the remake of, "The Italian Job." (What the Italian Job did with Mini Coopers was nothing short of amazing!) And what good is a movie without the comic talents of Seth Green and Mos Def? I am going to try and get "my guy" to go and see the new Denzel movie. Looks really good. Ok time to tie this post up into a neat little knot since I am now morphing into Trying2BMovieCriticGirl. Have a good weekend!

~Carrie

[Missy]

Hi, I just wanted to say that I really hope things work out for you with the job. I know how stressful it can be to always be worrying about your financial situation. I am trying to get myself out of a rut right now too. I never worked all last year due to severe anxiety problems. I spent that year seeing councellors and going to anxiety groups and being on paxil. I have a lot of things I need to pay off to get myself back on my feet. I still have school and car loans...as well as my Visa to pay off. My roommates are moving out which means our rent is going up. I am happy about them moving, but a little stressed about the money end of things.

Those new juices you mentioned sound really good. I'll have to keep an eye out for them the next time I'm in the grocery store. I miss drinking juice, I used to drink it all the time and then stopped because it was high in sugar. The juice you mentioned though doesn't seem to be too bad.

[Trying4Thin]

Thanks Missy,

I think all this junk is happening as an incentive to get me to change my life's direction. I need to learn how to stand up for myself, and that I deserve a heck of a lot better than what I am getting. I know I am damn good at what I do, and I am sick of management playing favorites. Well I refuse to kiss their royal behinds anymore. The old me would have been content to be used as a doormat. Losing weight has changed all that. So go ahead guys and tell me that I am getting passed over again because you are going in a different direction...I am not going to cry over it. It's your loss. I am going to walk out of the office with my head held high, in search of a better future. I refuse to stay here in this dead end situation. I want to have a life, not be a slave to my sorry excuse for a paycheck.
I have never been on Paxil, but I was on several different antidepressants over the years. I finally decided a while back, that I could do without the meds. I have some bad days, but I dont spend hours crying like I used to. There were times I thought I needed them again, but I know I can get through whatever life throws at me without them. I didnt want to feel like a robot because the pills wouldnt let me cry when I needed to. I commend you for turning your life around. It is tough out there with the cost of living going up, and paychecks get smaller with the government feeling the need to take more and more. Credit cards are a tough hole to dig yourself out of. Unless you pay off your entire balance every month, you are going to get charged and that makes it harder to climb out of debt. Are you going to advertise for more roommates? Probably not since now you have your privacy back. Are your parents willing to help out til you get back on your feet financially? I know that if you keep working hard that your efforts will be rewarded and soon you will be out of debt. You are definitely headed in the right direction. If you can conquer weight loss, you can do darn near anything!

~Carrie

[Trying4Thin]

Well it is 4:35am and I just wanted to go on record as saying that I do not want to go to work today! I want to stay home, listen to my IPod and clean. On the flip side, the weather is supposed to really warm up today. Could it be that Spring is actually coming sometime this century? I hope so. I want to be able to walk outside without getting my face windburned or freezing half to death. Anyway, time to hop in the shower and go earn that paycheck. Have a great day everyone!

[bradybunch]

Hope you have a great day, Carrie and that work isn't too bad! I also had that Monday-morning feeling today, really didn't want to get up out of bed!

Spring seems to have sprung here though so that is a nice feeling - it was lovely to see some sunshine on Saturday morning when I came out of my WeightWatchers class

[Trying4Thin]

Hi Fiona! I hope you have a great day too. Actually I have nothing to complain about. The sun is shining and I got a good vehicle this morning. It is really good to see the sun again, and feel it too.

Saw this in Reader's Digest and wanted to pass it on....

"Dont waste a minute not being happy. If one window closes, run to the next window-or break down a door." (Brooke Shields as quoted in: In Style Magazine)

Well I broke down the door today; I applied for that other job. If they are interested, I will hear from them in a week for an interview. (Fingers crossed)

Thought this was cute....

Recently, I strapped on a step counter and went for a walk with my mother. "What's that?" she asked. "An exercise tool that keeps track of your steps," I said. "I'm hoping it will help me lose weight." Clearly unconvinced, she asked, "Wouldnt it be better if it counted your bites?" (Angela Giacci as seen in Reader's Digest)

Well I am a nervous wreck. I have been so utterly awful this week and I dont have an excuse to lean on. I think I am supposed to see, "my guy" tomorrow for Idol but I dont have the gutts to face him since I have been such a slug. And my good eating habits have been anything but. I need to put a stop to this right now. I dont want him to see right through me and see how awful I have been. I dont know why I do this to myself, especially when things went awesome last Tuesday night with him and then Weds I walked farther than I ever have in my entire life. I need to get a grip and quit making excuses for myself or this birthday will be spent like all the previous ones...fat and miserable. If I dont get myself back, and soon, I will blow my chances with everything. Not just with the guy. I just have a lot on my mind right now. And I need to make what should be a priority, a priority, and anything else should be moved elsewhere. Dont even want to know what I weigh now. I will get myself back, I make this promise to myself, to my family, to my friends, to "my guy", and to all of you. I will not accept defeat!

~Carrie