It's Time For A New Life

[Trying4Thin]

Ok where to begin? Well I know I weighed in early today, but I had to see the damage that I did by yesterday's "feeding frenzy." I looked thinner than yesterday though, but I gained a pound. I am not mad because I saw it coming and I deserved it. That said, today is a new day, I cant change the events of yesterday, so it's time to move on.
I dressed up and went to see "my guy." I thought I looked good (better than last week), but I needed makeup and my hair wasnt so great. Show results: Chris rocked, Kelly was ok (still want her gone), Kevin was fair, Ace was awful, Lisa was awful, Mandissa was awesome, Elliot was really good, Bucky was awful, Taylor was great, Kathryn was great, Paris was hot....Either Lisa or Bucky are going home tonight. Kevin still needs to go, but these two performed a lot worse than he did last night. After the show, we had a good conversation. I was getting ready to leave and we were still talking. Part of me must have thought I had something to prove because I asked him to grab my calf (to show him how it was solid). He seemed really hesitant to. (I think I know why). I could tell he was surprised at my muscles. Not to be outdone, I asked him to try my upper quad. I practically had to force him to. But he did and I know he was more impressed than he led on. I wasnt even flexing either time. Then the conversation got really weird...I thanked him for saying that I looked like a tennis player last week. It must have been the hat. He said something like, "I dont know what you did last week, but you looked really good." He had this goofy smile on his face. He said I looked better last week than this week. I thought that aside from the hat, I looked awful last week!! Then he said I had a lot of potential, and that it was really scary because he had never thought of me that way before. And his actions made me think he was getting really uncomfortable. (He was still smiling like a Cheshire cat, but just acting really goofy. I cant describe it.) He said it looked like I had just worked out. (No I didnt stink!!) I guess he thought my sore feet and that I could barely walk last time was attractive, and that today I hadnt worked out before coming. (BULL) His actions said that I was hot and he cant get out of that. He said I could get away with looking good now because I could hide it (my stomach). I agree, as long as I dont sit down, I look really good and no longer obese. He has a hard time believing that we are about 10 pounds apart, but he is a foot taller than I am. He was impressed with the cardio list I sent him Monday detailing what I did for the week. Guess we have plans until AI ends on my birthday. Here's hoping that we will be dating by the finale. By the way he was acting last night both verbally and his body language being really really different than anything I have seen in a long time, anything is possible. He was also quick to get me to leave, because he didnt want to disappoint my mother and because it was the right thing to do. (So he says). His parents (live almost right across the street) also wouldnt approve of me staying but he said if he wanted to do it (me staying), he would. Well he never came out and said he didnt want me to stay. I think his getting me to leave was so he wouldnt ask me to stay. I HATE doing the right thing. But in the end, doing the right thing will pay off. I know I scored some major brownie points last night. And some point he will ask me to stay.

~Carrie

[Missy]

I just want to comment and say that your spirits seem way better than they have for the last couple weeks. I'm glad you are feeling better about things and I'm glad things seem to be working out in the right direction for you with the guy!

I bet you do look fantastic, and I wish I could see the progress pictures of you. Keep up the good work

[Trying4Thin]

Thanks Missy

I think I have finally made peace with myself. No way on this earth am I anywhere near posting pics. I cringe just looking at my license picture, and any other pic of me when I was so blown up that I didnt even look human. Believe me, the second I hit goal, I will have my mug on this site! Well it's time to brave the cold for another hike. Hopefully I wont return a snowwoman.


~Carrie

[muppet]

Hello Carrie! You do seem to be in better spirits. I'm glad things are progressing with your guy! I had to skip parts of your previous posts. I recorded AI, and havent' watched it yet! I guess it didn't matter -- it's not like you knew who was leaving, or not!
I'm thinking of a hike too, but it snowed yesterday, and is melting fast -- I don't know if they bothered to plow the trails, or not. I might just stick to my indoor workout -- it takes less time, anyway!

[TStreich]

Carrie seems like things are going good. I am sure he is acting uncomfortable because he is starting to feel things that he hasn't before. The best thing you can do is just keep being confident in yourself always look your best when you are going to see him and let him do the chasing!!! It is hard but it works. I got my hubby back doing that. We are better than ever now!

Keep up the good spirts.

[Missy]

Originally Posted by Trying4Thin

Thanks Missy

I think I have finally made peace with myself. No way on this earth am I anywhere near posting pics. I cringe just looking at my license picture, and any other pic of me when I was so blown up that I didnt even look human. Believe me, the second I hit goal, I will have my mug on this site! Well it's time to brave the cold for another hike. Hopefully I wont return a snowwoman.


~Carrie

I look forward to the day I get to see the pics! I bet it would be such an inspiration to us and many other people

[muppet]

Hey Carrie-- I watched AI.
My favorite were ( and have always been) Katharine, Mandisa, Chris and Taylor.
Never really liked Kevin -- but I did last night. I loved Kelly last night, and don't ususally like her that much either.
Ace -- well he sure is PURTY!! But I'm really not much of a fan. He did that Michael Jackson song a few weeks ago, and I can't get that out of my head! That's just not my type of music, I guess!

[Trying4Thin]

Ever have one of those days when your brain just says, "pepperoni pizza with extra cheese?" And for the rest of the day all you can think about is Pizza!! Well that is the type of day I had; only pizza wasnt the word that was in my head...I started the day by answering some posts, and then hitting the couch for a little while. I was planning on exercising later in the day. Then all of a sudden I heard a voice in my head....it said, "12 miles." I swear this happened! After that, I couldnt stop thinking about it. Then I began to obsess over it. Until I finally got into my workout clothes and bundled up. I couldnt find my mittens so I had to use socks!! You laugh, but they worked! I went to the Bike & Hike Trail and banged out 12 miles. During the first leg of my hike, the voice came back....this time it said, "20 miles." And I thought, why not? I was all ready to finish the 12, go home and rest, then go back to the gym for another 8, but during my last 2 miles, my left shoe began rubbing against my ankle bone, and my muscles did make themselves known. I wasnt physically tired and I was able to run some. I am proud of what I accomplished today, not for "my guy," but for me. Nobody walked those 12 miles for me, I did. I guess having voices in my head is a good thing! I dare my scale to say I gained weight tomorrow. 9 days til part one of my challenge is done. I almost wish I had gotten measurements before starting. I feel like I have lost crazy inches these past few days. It is really amazing what sheer determination can do for somebody. I will never say that I cant do something ever again. Unless it is eating fast food....
Getting psyched waiting for Idol tonight. It was great to see the faces of Idol Contestants past in the audience last night. Constantine looked hot with glasses on. I am crossing my fingers and toes that either Lisa, Kelly, or Kevin go tonight. I think Lisa just had an off night. Kelly's being naive act is driving me insane. Kevin can do Josh Groban songs and nothing else. I still have nightmares of him performing, "I Heard It Through The Grapevine." He is getting a really big head from everyone calling him a sex symbol...yeah as if! But in his defense, Kelly and Lisa were worse last night. Ace looks hot, but his singing is going down the tubes. What medicine was Simon on last night? 95% of what came out of his mouth last night was a compliment! After AI, I am going to watch the new NBC drama, "Heist." Hottie Dougray Scott is in it. (We all know him as the prince in "Everafter," and the villain in, "Mission Impossible 2")
I hear ya Missy, and believe me....I am trying to get there as fast as I can. Right now I feel like everyone else is losing weight on here, but me. No big deal because my shape is changing. As long as something is happening, I am ok with it. I have a sneaking suspision that my scale is wrong anyway. But I am not going to get bent out of shape about it. Boy this has been a great day off. (Somebody did take my shift). Too bad I cant have the rest of the week off. Then I wouldnt have to think about management and what choice they are going to make. Ooooh I think my bathtub is calling me. I will be on later to attempt to answer journals...if I dont pass out first!

~Carrie

[Missy]

WOW! Awesome job on the 12 miles..good for you! That is excellent work!

I wouldn't always trust the scale either...they fluctuate all the time...using a measuring tape will show you how much you've lost in inches

[TStreich]

Carrie that is awesome 12 miles!!! Way to go! I need voices like that. I have the pizza one lol. Don't worry if the scale isnt saying you lost weight as you are building crazy muscle and that weighs more but once it starts coming off it will fast. But just remember the inches is what other people see not what the scale says. Plus also they see the toneness your gaining. Keep it up.