It's Time For A New Life

[TStreich]

You are very inspiring! I can't believe you can ride bike through a whole movie!!!! I don't know how you do it.

[Trying4Thin]

Oh man am I sleepy! I dont know if it was yesterdays energy drink that messed me up or what? I got on my bike around an hour after I drank it. (I think). So I biked another 94 minutes thru "Clue" and the clock said it was 9:05pm. I watched "Grey's Anatomy." And then passed out. Wide awake around 2am and stayed awake to watch "Extreme Makeover Home Edition." Passed out around 4am, and my alarm went off at 4:30am. I wanted 15 more minutes to snooze so I reset the alarm. I didnt have to report until 5:30am. I wake up in a panic and it is 5:36am and I am wondering why the heck my alarm didnt go off....Turns out I set it for 5:45am...Well any chances I may have had for the Road Supe position are now shot to heck in a handbasket. The dispatcher didnt even realize I was a half hour late until I walked in the door. At least I showed up. I was tempted to call off. (Management would not have been pleased.) But my cell is still busted. I have got to be more careful. Usually I am obsessive compulsive about my alarm setting. Grrr...
Well last night I did complete another 94 mins, but for the life of me I have no idea how. The first 2 mins were awful because my rear end muscles hadnt recovered from Sat nights 94 min bike-a-thon. Then, they settled down. I didnt think I was going to make the last 10 mins because my muscles began to whine again, and the underside of my arches began to hurt too. One minute I was paying attention to the movie, the next, I was focused on work, and my recent interview. I am pretty sure I am going to get passed over again. At one point I was so angry thinking about work that I didnt even realize my cycling had sped up. I ended up doing 43.1 miles and burned 616 cals. That is 4.2 miles farther than Saturday night. I think I am going to have to drag myself to the gym tonight and use the treadmill in lieu of the bike. No way can I do another 94 mins tonight. What kept me going through all that? A lot of things....1) I knew deep down I could do it 2) I refuse to let myself go home unless I am at least 130 lbs 3) I have a lot to prove to myself and others 4) The fat and calories wont come off without a fight anymore 5) I get another IPod card at the end of the week for sticking to my plan 6) I want to shock the heck out of everyone, not just "my guy." 7) Bikini....'Nuff said!
Anyway, I need a nap before I crash on top of my keyboard. I should be back later to answer journals. Have a great day everyone!

~Carrie

[Big_Girl_Bigger_Heart]

Hey gurly, I just wanted to personally thank you for all the wonderful and endless support you've shown me. I really cannot express how much it's meant to me.
I'll miss you lots and lots.

Lady Jami

[Trying4Thin]

I really really dont want to go to the gym tonight. I just want to lay on the couch with "my guy", watch tv, and eat pizza. However, that is what I want to do, what I NEED to do is another story. This afternoon I took a bubblebath with chocolate scented bubbles. Yes you read that right. I bought a Chocolate set at Wal-Mart several months ago and wanted to save it for a special occasion. Includes; Chocolate Ice Cream Body Lotion, Chocolate Ice Cream Bubble Bath, and Chocolate Ice Cream Body Wash. They also have the set in Vanilla and I think Orange. What a treat! And it took my mind off my muscles for a little while. I emailed my parents about how I biked 43 miles last night and was going to have to do something else instead tonight because I was still sore. Their response was enlightening...."Your tush cant take it anymore because it is getting smaller and bonier." Well it isnt the size of Texas anymore, but it is still ever present much to my dismay. I have been cranking on my legs and butt for what seems like forever now. So we will see what happens after the next few months. I am hoping to have a Reese Witherspoon sized butt when I hit 120. But with the way my legs are starting to muscle up, I think I am going to end up with soccer player legs. "My guy" thinks soccer players are hot. Not complaining!

Food Journal:

Breakfast:
1 Trim Advantage French Vanilla Shake 140 cal

Snack:
1 pkg Apple Cinnamon Soy Crisps 100 cal

Lunch:
2 Lean Pockets Chicken Fajita 520 cal

Snack:
1 Bag Smartpop Popcorn 100 cal

Dinner:
2 Lean Pockets Steak Fajita 520

Snack:
1 can XS Energy Drink Cranberry-Grape 8 cal

Total calories: 1,388 Calorie Goal: 1,400 cal

Water: No comment

Positive thought of the day: "The view is always better from the top of the mountain. Start climbing today!" (Me)

~Carrie

[Patty_Ann]

I couldn't imagine 94 minutes oN a bike...I tried to get my mom's but she always says that she is going to start it up - and then she never does...just sits in storage. Urgh! I think you are doing a great job - if I get my mom's bike I'm going to have to try it while watching a movie. It is so cool when loved ones give us a response that we want to hear...how cool of them to say that about your tush.

I know what you mean by your legs being so muscular - mine are the same way. My daughter has made comments on how large they are (the muscles)...I thought she was saying they were fat and she explained to me that she was talking about the muscles. My daughter is a soccer player - she is definitely a girl with an athletic build. I would rather her have an athletic build then be stick skinny like my niece...looks like you can just break her. lol So...I have to ask - are you back with "your" man? You mentioned something about watching tv with him and I wasn't sure if that was something you wanted or if it was something that has been happening.

Continue with what you are doing - you are doing great!

KEEP ON KEEPING ON!

[Trying4Thin]

Hi Patty Ann,

Well honestly, we were never "together", just friends. So far that is how it stands. In the beginning it had the chance to be more, but I messed it up by being naive and whinny. We did have a really good time watching American Idol together last week. I think we have to have more good times together before he will entertain the idea of us being more than friends. I think that deep down he has always wanted that, but was waiting for me to grow up and quit whining about my weight. I honestly dont think he loves the shrew he as much as he claims to. She never wanted him, and she never will. I agree with Lady Jami that certain people are brought into your life for a reason. If I hadnt met him and turned my life around, I probably would be 250 by now, and diabetic. It hasnt been an easy road for me trying to change, but it isnt impossible. I think that if we werent ment to be together then we would have said goodbye a long time ago and stuck with it. The signs are all there. I may be the only one who sees it, but I know I am right. Long ago anyone who said the world was round and not flat, was branded a nut. Turns out the "nuts" were right all along.
I do like to bike, but it does get a little painful at times like any type of exercise. I think you should try it. Movies do make the time go by faster. Start off doing as much as you feel comfortable with and then go from there. I use it as an excuse to fatten my DVD collection. Best of luck!

~Carrie

[Missy]

I just wanted to with you all the best in getting your man.

[Trying4Thin]

Ok so I think I have officially lost my mind....I was all ready to go to the gym after getting into the shower. But then I somehow ended up in my pajamas. Not a good sign. Then I decided that I would have to face my lazy butt in the morning and try to excuse my "day off." So I found a movie I wanted to watch, and forced myself to get back on my bike. I found an old pillow and used that to cover the seat, or I never would have made it. I am not going to lie..it hurt like hell and I had to take quite a few mini breaks. I had better get scale and inches credit for killing myself these past few days. If I havent lost a decent amount of weight by the 31st (end of challenge part 1), the scale is going out the door. So, I ended up going 39.6 miles and burning 464 calories. A fair effort compared with last night. But to be honest I didnt think I would make it to 30 miles without dying. I guess there are other things in life that are more important to me than quitting. It's not that I went slowly tonight, but that I attempted to bike again so soon. I am going to have to remember this for the next time I really dont feel like doing something. Every good choice I make now, is a chance to change my life for the better later on. Good things come to those who wait.

~Carrie

[Trying4Thin]

Oh I wish today were over already. I have been without a phone since Friday and I am going nuts. I have no idea if "my guy" has called me about watching AI together tonight. Looks like I wont have a replacement phone til next week at the earliest. I dont think I can call voice mail on a payphone to check messages. And to top it off, I way overate today. No I am not going to let it trash the rest of my week, especially since I have been working so hard. I would've thought that my latest workouts would have gotten the fat burning to hurry up, but I feel like I am just going in circles. I dont get how my body shape can start to change but the scale wont go down. I havent been lifting, so I doubt I am building muscle mass. Now I have a stomach ache to add to my frustration. Guys, the overeating is definitely not worth it. I dont know why I needed to remind myself of that fact again today. I know I am better than that. Still thinking about that promotion, and the last person to be interviewed this Friday. I have a gutt feeling that they have already made a decision and it isnt me. And that infuriates me. I have already begun looking for another job because this one is going to drive me insane with their lack of "politics." Well at least Idol and Law & Order SVU are on tonight so I can distract myself with other things for a while. Considering how miserable I was at work today with the aching from biking the past three nights, I am going to take the night off. Not smart I know, considering I overate today, but I need to let my body rest before I put myself out of comission. Not much else to say here. My positive thought of the day is that I am going to pick myself up, dust myself off and keep on going.

~Carrie

[Trying4Thin]

Well I just got back from using the phone at work to check my phone messages. My father had called and that was it. (Sniff Sniff) So I decided to call "my guy," and see if he wanted to get together tonight. He answered and said that he had called me around 3pm, but didnt leave a message. He wasnt sure if we were going to do something tonight, and it was up to me. No, I wasnt just going to show up on his doorstep. Not when I am trying to work things out with us. I am so excited that he called! I feel like I need a friend now more than ever. My father doesnt want me telling my mother about the promotion opportunity because she will only worry. I cant talk to my dad unless I get to another phone, or email him, and I dont really hang out with any other friends these days. All of my other friends are thru email because they have moved away. So at times I do feel completely isolated. But then I remember back to a time not so long ago when I had a lot of "fair weather friends" and now I feel like I am better off, because the only one I have to trust, and I know wont let me down, is me. It sounds worse than it is, but I like to be in control of my environment when it comes to friends. I will only let somebody in when I am good and ready to. I'M SO EXCITED!!! (I should be one of the Pointer Sisters!) Now I really wish I hadnt overeaten today! I feel so (blech) on the inside. Honestly, if "my guy" had said no to tonight, I wouldnt have been hurt. I couldve just taken a hot shower, crashed on the couch and watched AI. Well tonight is another chance to melt his heart, so I am going to be on my bestest bestest behavior!! Have a grrrrrrrreat night everyone!! I LOVE CHRIS DAUGHTRY!!! Our Next American Idol!!

~Carrie