It's Time For A New Life

[Trying4Thin]

If I were the mother yes I would probably agree with you and tell her to keep her options open so she wouldnt get hurt. However; I would also know that my daughter loved this guy very much and I would back her in any way that I could. If she felt it was right; who would I be to stand in the way of her happiness?

I cant control the messages that I get. Each person is different and so they connect with God differently.

[Trying4Thin]

I have been silent for the past few days because I am stuck at home with the flu. I have never been so physically miserable in my entire life. Saturday was horrible; something I NEVER wish to live through again. But with every thundercloud comes a silver lining. While I have been grounded to either my bed, the computer, or the livingroom watching tv..I have had time to think. There are many things in my life that I am grateful for; and unfortunately there are many more I am not. All I can say is the following: "A change is gonna come!" and I have a plan!!! I am going to be selfish and work on ME first and foremost. Everything else is secondary and will be boxed up and put away where I can't find it until the time is right. If I dont do this now; I never will. Being sick has gotten the weight loss wagon started again and it ain't gonna stop.

[Trying4Thin]

Just days after losing 25 year old actor Brad Renfro to drugs; Hollywood loses yet another. Today Heath Ledger was found in his apartment early this afternoon. Drugs have not yet been ruled out. He leaves behind a 1 year old daughter (Matilda) with actress Michelle Williams.

Rest in peace Heath.

[muppet]

That's so sad. Sad and scary. Life is precious and fragile.

[Trying4Thin]

I am FINALLY on the road to recovery and the flu bugs are finally leaving!!!!! I can't tell you how happy this makes me. Working 2 shifts this week set me back some; but I am getting back to my old self. I am actually chomping at the bit to get to the gym and kick some ass. There is only so much sitting around a person can do before they go completely insane!

Was convinced by an old high school friend to set up a profile on Facebook.com I had no idea how many of my old classmates were on there. Was really cool to reconnect with some of them. Right now I wish I had more to say; but in time I will. May is coming up pretty quickly and I wanna go home looking hot!

Speaking of; I spoke to Ryan Kelley again. She really is a great person! I almost fell off my chair laughing when she said she wanted to see my before and after pics. ME?? Are you for real?? I was truly flattered. She gave me the name of a really good author to read and I ordered the book off of EBay. Can't wait to read it. Have to weigh in for my Weigh in "Men vs Women" challenge tomorrow. As far as my own personal challenge; that suffered because I was sick and stuck on my butt. I will most likely be weighing in once a month for that one. Once I can work out again; I will see better results. I did lose some while being sick; but not much. I'm going all the way this time!! Because what I want in the long run is more important than what I (THINK I) want to eat.

[Trying4Thin]

Really tired and worn out tonight. Eating has been good; but my weight doesn't seem to be budging. I MUST be in the 130's by my birthday or I will flip out. Going to start working out tomorrow since I am not coughing my brains out anymore. I had some passengers give me a container with a piece of cake in it tonight. So I said thank you and later passed it onto a dispatcher. I have finally found a fool proof cure to tame the Choco-monster for good. I wish we could just fast forward through February because I hate Valentine's Day with a passion. And not because of the candy. But because it is a stupid Hallmark holiday designed to make single people feel like ****. Same with Sweetest Day. If you truly love somebody; each day should be special. Not one or two designated days out of the year. So each time it rolls around I just want to stay in bed and not come out until it's over. There won't be any cupids at my door this year. Not only that; but it is also a certain somebody's birthday too. Just another reason for me to loathe the 14th.

Each time I want to eat; I remind myself of what's more important. A piece of food I can't keep or enjoy longer than it takes me to eat it; or having my dreams come true. I take that back; I don't want to wear my poor food choices for all eternity. So far; it's working.

Will get the recap up tomorrow. Had a funeral to attend before work this morning. I am not happy with the direction the show has taken. It's more about mind games and stupid advertising rather than focusing on teaching anything. And would it kill them to cut the Papa John's pizza commercials during the show?? Find another tv audience to haunt. Not the weight challenged. It's almost like we are being mocked in the name of the almighty dollar.

[muppet]

I don't know if this will make you feel any better, and I know I can't speak for all 'marrieds', but we find Valentine's day somewhat ridiculous too. All those jewelry commercials, making people feel like 'well, if you really love someone you need to buy them diamonds'.
I don't even like to buy a card. I love him and he loves me. Please don't tell us when and how we need to prove that too each other!
And please stop making single people feel like they're really missing out. Missing out on over-priced flowers, over-crowded restaurants, and over-priced sappy cards.
It's mostly fun for kids in school. My preschoolers loved it. But mostly we ignore it. Hope you can too!

[Trying4Thin]

I am speaking for the small part of the population who hurt during those few days when many others are enjoying being in a relationship. I have never had that. I am alone and feel left out because that has never been a part of my life. I am single 365 days out of the year. I dont need to be reminded around every corner.

[Trying4Thin]

Rocco DiSpirito is going to be on this week's episode of BL. I am so excited I can barely contain myself!

The teams will compete in a cooking competition with Rocco as judge. The winning team will receive a meal cooked by Rocco.

[Trying4Thin]

Stupid Giants!!!!