It's Time For A New Life

[muppet]

I missed it and can't really find a good re-cap anywhere. Just a 2 minute clip on the web site. I wish they would re-broadcast it.
But what are you disgusted about? The teams? The people who whined and gave up? The new 'couples' set up?
Just curious.

[Trying4Thin]

The Father on the green team completely sold out his daughter. His attitude was awful; and so were his comments to her.

The two girls on the purple team did nothing but whine. And the mother on the pink team just bitched and moaned. But once she quit; she ended up losing quite a bit of weight. Some of these characters are going to take some getting used to. But I highly doubt they will be worse than Season 4's Amy, Isabeau, and the queen of the bitches...Julie.

[nahum1_7]

I missed it

[Trying4Thin]

OHHHHkay.....
So today was rather weird. Just for the heck of it; I decided to get on the scale. I had already eaten breakfast. I ended up being a little lighter than I thought I would be. I am under 200 pounds and for that I am grateful....
Ate well today and I am happy. Today somebody I know had a birthday. Not only was I handed a piece of cake, a cookie, and a full size Hershey Bar. But they wouldn't take no for answer. Are you kidding me??? So as much as I wanted to say; "I'll start again tomorrow" I stuck to my guns and turned the stuff over to dispatch. It occurred to me that my new diet plan was a little like the show; "Clean House."
Designers ask the clutterbugs if they want to give up a prized posession in return for something better. Ex: Give up an old chair for a new rug and chairs. So; I needed to negotiate with myself. If I give up a piece of cake; I can fit into a smaller pair of jeans more quickly. If I give up fast food; I can see a bikini somewhere in my future. Making the decision that is right for me will undoubtedly make or break my future. This isn't about getting a new livingroom; this is about getting my self esteem and body back. Anything less is non-negotiable. I don't look good fat; I don't feel good fat, I am not going to be fat anymore. Lord knows how many years I have lost already because of unhealthy choices. It just isn't worth it anymore. I want to spend my money on nice clothes; not lousy ones. I don't want to hide anymore. I am a good person and it's time everyone see that instead of just seeing my weight and nothing else. I am strong in body and character under all of this "junk."

[muppet]

Thanks for sharing that. I think thinking about food, especially snacks, in that way will help me make better decisions.
Great job on the treats. Way to be strong!!!

[Trying4Thin]

Today had rotten written all over it. Last night I had a minor panic attack and couldn't sleep. Had to be somewhere at 9 this morning and I overslept because I left my cell phone in the car. Finished the thing I had to do this morning and then went to Burger King (aaaahhhhhh!!!!) I ordered a Grilled Chicken salad and Lite Italian Dressing. Relax. I forgot to charge my iPod too; so I knew it was going to go dead at some point during my shift. My lack of sleep started to kick in around 1pm. When I get sleepy; I usually make stupid mistakes like starting to feel the need to eat to stay awake. Coming off the night shift and moving to my current one took some getting used to. Plus I was double shifting most days. Soooo you can imagine how much eating I did while working from 11:45-8:15pm. It's no wonder I blew up. If you want to be more specific; the weight started to return October 2006 when I returned home from MA after reaching my lowest weight in years. Then this summer I was almost back to where I had left off; and I did a huge nosedive again because of my stupid emotions. I have yet to fully recover from that last free fall. So I kept the munchies at bay by making a pitstop at Giant Eagle. I left with a small bag of baby carrots to munch on, a diet coke zero, some raw green beans, and a box of lean pockets. I was pretty damn good if you ask me. I wanted....well CRAVED; (is a better word) carbs. The ultimate fat maker, bloodsugar spiker, and mood crasher of them all. But I bought the rabbit food instead. Snoopy would be proud. A whole bag of carrots is lightyears away from a bag of chips or kid sized goldfish crackers. Dinner was the 2 Lean Pockets. Not the best choice; but I thought I was good the rest of the day. I need to work on my water consumption and of course; get back to the gym. Another day down; another day closer to goal. And one less to go to bed wondering; did I do the right thing.

[Trying4Thin]

So I am sitting here doing something that I usually love; synching my iPod. But today is proving to be quite difficult. My iPod has locked up twice and the computer sends the error message that there is something wrong with my hardware. I can honestly say that 15 mins ago I was ready to chuck the thing out the window. But I thought about how the old saying goes; "If something isn't working; try something different." So I changed my troubleshooting techniques and (POOF!) it worked. As I sit here typing this; my iPod is happily updating itself with many songs, videos, and movies. I couldn't be happier. And then I started thinking about my weight loss efforts and how this philosophy could be applied there as well...
So often we give up when it gets too difficult. So often we quit troubleshooting before we have exhausted every possible solution. Sometimes it's right under our noses; and others require a more lengthy process before finding something that works.
I once heard an example that I will never forget. Say you are driving along and you have a tire blow out. You have a couple options: 1) Jack up the car and change the tire 2) Call Triple AAA and have them do it; or tow the car to somebody who will. 3) Continue on down the road causing further damage to your car, the road, your wallet, and anyone else who possibly comes near you. I sincerely hope that nobody out there has continued to drive on nothing but rim. BUT how many out there have "damaged bodies" and continue to "drive" on them; knowing they are causing them more harm? Continuing to make destructive choices affects not only a person's body; but the people around who love and care about them as well. Eventually; the damage will be so great that the car will no longer run; and the human body will no longer function. So if given the chance to fix it before it "crashes and burns" is the logical choice. Choosing to ignore a problem will be more costly later on. My point in all of this is; if something isn't working...don't give up! Just brainstorm and try something else. Ignoring a problem won't get it solved at all; and will only create more problems in the long run.
Most problems start out very small; and are sometimes undetected. Soon, they can become more noticeable and be a nuisance. If even further ignored can grow into a life threatening situation.
The solution may not be the one you want to hear;...like changing your diet or adding in exercise; but it is better than landing in the morgue or "junkyard".
NO RIMS!!

[nahum1_7]

You're awesome Carrie!

[Trying4Thin]

My current moods.....



Freezing
Starving

Grouchy & Hurt

I think I am going to go to bed now before I do something stupid; like eat.

[Trying4Thin]

Day 5 "Getting To 120" Isn’t It Ironic?

Ok so I am guessing that I have some explaining to do here...
I can't stand Paris Hilton (except for one song); so why is she on my blog wallpaper? Because it makes me physically ill to think that somebody actually thought this ad was going to increase sales. Chow down a Carl's Jr. burger and look like Paris Hilton!! I'm sure we can all see the obvious irony here. Next time I watch The Biggest Loser; I am going to count how many food commercials there are. Another sign that society sends mixed messages; all to make the mighty buck. Yes you can eat fast food; but make the right choices.
Going back to my car analogy....
Say you put in your usual Unleaded 87 and your car runs great. Then you add higher octane fuel once or twice. Most likely this will not do any permanent damage. But; start doing this instead of what you are supposed to put into it and your car will break down sooner or later. Higher octane fuel chokes it. The same example can be used for your typical fast food binge. 1 or 2 high fat meals won't kill you; but making a habit of it (addiction) is lethal. Your arteries will eventually clog; causing them to choke. Before this happens; there are other negative side effects. Blood sugar spikes, uncontrollable hunger, mood changes, extreme sleepiness, depression, body aches and weight gain....You put junk fuel in; all you get in return is junk performance. Bad carbs compromise the body and are highly addictive. Don't believe me? Who ever stops at one potato chip or one piece of pizza? I sure as hell didn't. Then in a few hours; I am starving again, or need a nap.
One more thing to think about...
Whatever you ingest must be burned off. It's just easier to make the right choice the first time; and requires less work in the long run. I've done this way to many times not to know what I am talking about. This is the last time. Each time it does get harder to lose what I have regained.