It's Time For A New Life

[muppet]

I'm glad you're back with us Carrie. I've checked out your Myspace page a few times, but I don't have one and don't want to get one, so I could never comment.
I've been to other sites and met other really great people, but I still like this one best. Even though sometimes there's not much activity on the forum, it still seems like real people, doing things the right way. I can't stand any place where there's too much talk about goofy diets and gimmicky tricks.
Here and calorie-count.com is where I mainly post now. I like the calorie count site to track calories in and calories out. And here just to post anything else.
Good luck to you and I hope you'll stay with us.
Carol

[nahum1_7]

Carrie, I know I had to be back over the 200 pound mark even though I hadnt officially weighed. I am already getting back into my clothes from the spring, the weight/inches have gone down alot faster than the first time around. I am not weighing yet, but I suspect I am closing in on my previous weight by less than 10 pounds.

Kick the scale to the curb, dont let that number enter your thoughts. I put every pound of me in God's hands each day. I ask him to get rid of the junk whether it be in pounds or in other areas of my life. When I work out I focus on being a testimony, to show that I trust God for where my strength will come from. I am usually ready to quit at around 25 mins, but having His word right in front of me.... telling me that if I ask He will give me strength to go further. I dont want it to be about how far I want to go, but to the minute that God determines is enough. I cover up the time, there are so many days that I lift that towel and am amazed that 45 or more minutes have gone by. These past 5 days, other than house stuff, no working out. That doesnt concern me because I know that part of taking care of myself is making sure I rest when I am sick or am having an asthma flare up.

As for Eric, I am glad you are putting your heart in God's hands, His best is more than we could ever hope for...abundantly above all that we could ask or think. Ephesians 5 and 6 are chapters I read almost everyday. God gives us our armour to wear everyday in chapter 6, vs 10-19.

I am proud of you, you are a success story, a few motnhs ago you were a success, RIGHT NOW you are a success!

[Missy]

Glad to see you're finally back, we missed you around here!!

[Trying4Thin]

For those of you who were here earlier in the year....
My friend and one-time trainer Armand got the chance to meet Jillian Michaels at a Personal Training Conference. He fought to the head of the line to get me an autograph after she had already taken some pics with him. I finally got my digital camera and my proof!

[muppet]

Cool. Thanks for sharing that with us. I just love Jillian! She was (is) awesome this season.

[Trying4Thin]

Thanks for the welcome backs....I have missed it here. I have been going through a lot; most of which I have brought upon myself. I am down a little, but have a long way to 120 pounds. Right now I would do anything for my back to stop hurting. Winter is officially hit Ohio so I dont think I will be getting to the track anytime soon. I am hoping to get back to the 140's by my birthday in May but that is asking for a lot since I am still over 200. Today I am sitting at 204.4 and VERY unhappy. The physical and emotional pain is too much to go through again and I shouldn't be. But I gave up on myself yet again and now must suffer the consequences until my weight is low enough that the pain subsides. I saw Eric not too long ago and I was humiliated by how huge I was. I felt like a tree hugging a beanpole. Not great for self esteem. I want to make him happy one day; but I cant do that if I cant make myself happy first. There is a lot that is hidden under my insecurities and weight. I know he doesnt want me right now; and most likely ever, because I was so focused on wanting to be together instead of just letting it happen. I was too wrapped up in trying to fix something that I had no business fixing. And instead I got the exact opposite. I have to live with that for the rest of my life. I can only hope that his heart will change; but I cant do it for him. I think he is trying really hard not to like me because of our history. He is afraid if we are together; it will be more of the same junk. So instead of harping on him; I am going to work on myself and maybe I will uncover a new me. One that he does love because she isnt pushy and insecure. I know what my faults are and I fully admit to them. I know I am not perfect and never will be. I shouldnt have to be. I want more than anything for that "we'll probably not ever be together and dont have any hope," into "I'd like to try and see where it goes." I am worth something; but right now I just dont look like I even care about myself so why should anyone else? Eric included. I know at 120 I could knock him on his butt. I want him to chase me for once because I am worth something and I do have a huge heart. I just dont want that huge heart to have to beat one more day in a huge body. It just isnt right.

"Love each other as I have loved you." (John)

[Rocky]

Welcome back Carrie!

[Trying4Thin]

Sorry I have been rather quiet. I spend most of my online time either on MySpace or EBay. Still hanging in there.

[Trying4Thin]

Biggest loser transformations

These are the most recent pictures of the Biggest Loser Contestants. They also have their beginning pictures and weights as well. Some of these are pretty shocking! Enjoy!

[Rocky]

Thanks for posting that link Carrie!