It's Time For A New Life

[nahum1_7]

it says that its awaiting your approval for the yahoo contact add...or something like that. It should show up as my mom's name, Janis C**** or nahum1_7

You did great at the gym ((((hugs)))))

[Trying4Thin]

I only have AOL instant messanger; not Yahoo Messenger.

Dont want to go back to work for the last 5 hours. I am too damn tired and depressed. Going to make myself work out when I get home. Will most likely bike and then I can watch my Tuesday night shows. A girl's gotta have something fun to do in her life. I am so friggen close to just picking up the phone and calling Eric because I cant stand it anymore; but I am sure that would be a huge mistake on my part. And so I wait for G-d to work. I think parting the Red Sea was an easier task than this. I am the world's most unloveable girl. And the stupid thing is; I have always known that I would end up single. I just knew it. So why did I even bother with Eric?

[Patty_Ann]

Good job at the gym! What a workout...level 9? is that a tough level or is it an easy one? I'm still learning a lot about the elliptical since mine is new...and not being able to workout for awhile it has just been sitting there all alone. Making a change on that though...starting yesterday. I can't wait to get on it again today...felt so good to workout again.

KEEP UP THE HARD WORK!

[Trying4Thin]

Level 9 is tough. But it is even tougher when you havent gotten off your ass in a month and gained 30 pounds. Before I quit; I was doing level 10 for an hour. I did level 20 once (the machine max) but that was nowhere near an hour. That was pain. I do these backwards because it (in my opinion) helps me burn more calories and it did tighten me up quite a bit downstairs in my quads and thighs. This is an elliptical (so I am told) but it isnt a crosstrainer because there are no arm exercises on it.

[mifsit]

it sounds exactly the same as the one i use, procor efx elliptical machine. i do 20 mins on level 11 , 10 mins forwards and 10 mins back. if you don't hold onto the bars you can move your arms in rythmn with your legs, try holding a couple of mini weights while doing this.

[Trying4Thin]

Just got my new schedule for the next 6 months....

Mon-Fri (1pm-11:30pm) I could have taken a route that went out of service earlier; but I hate that route more than the one I ended up with. Well it's a good thing that I dont have a social life and dont go out at night anymore since Eric. This is going to be a very LONG 6 months.

Still no reply from Eric. What a friggen huge shocker. At times like these; I honestly believe that G-d has given up on me; he is supposed to want you to have the desires of your heart. I HAVE changed and I have done a lot for myself since July. And nothing else ever changes in my favor even though I have.

[Missy]

I'm sorry you're hurting right now about things with Eric. I really wish you could let him go, it would be easier on your stress, health and overall emotions. I know what it feels like to be in love with someone though and I can understand why you don't want to let him go. I'm not telling you what to do, I just don't like seeing you so upset over him all the time. I care about you and don't like when you're hurting.

[mifsit]

Hi Carrie. There no easy way to put this so, Eric has moved on and its time you did. 2007 is a time for a new start. I'm not suggesting you get together with gym reception guy but from what i read he must have had some sort of crush on you, he won't be the only one either.

You've already got your butt back in the gym and started to shift those extra pounds, you've been promoted at work so some stuff does go your way.

I think it may help to get away for a little bit and see some friends. Malta isn't practical but you could gas up that toyota and visit some of the forum members on your side of the pond

[Trying4Thin]

Thank you for trying to cheer me up Phil; but I wouldnt go as far as to say that the "gym guy" ever had a crush on me. The guys I am into are never into me. (Not that I wanted to date that guy.)

[nahum1_7]

I saw your bulletin at weighins. Stop beating yourself up, dont let a weighin get you down. I had one where my weight went up and I just reminded myself that I would be ok no matter what the scale says.

As for Eric, just talk to him one last time and move on. I would LOVE and I mean LOVE to have a guy in my life ( the next guy that puts a ring on my fingie will be SO LUCKY but yanno after spending the last 13 years of my life with someone that did NOT see me as valuable, there is NO WAY I am settling for less than love, honor, cherish, and "yer just gettin so skinny baby" even when I am bloated. If "Mr. I just love Tracey soooo much" never comes around, at least I wont have wasted anymore years on someone that walks all over my heart.

You have come so far, dont get so down on yourself!