It's Time For A New Life

[Trying4Thin]

Thank you Carol!

[mifsit]

Just to say I agree with what Missy and Muppet have said. You are beautiful you just need that bit more confidence.

[Trying4Thin]

You guys are making me blush...

Was up at 3 am today doing laundry. Went to work at 5:30 and now I am killing time before my appointment at the university. So far it has been a decent day. Have had 2 Cocovia bars, 1 Chocolate Rice Cake, and a bowl of fruit. Will most likely have soup later. Not the best; but much better than I have been doing. So much stuff to do and I just dont wanna do it. I have Thursday off and that is Toyota day. So I get to spend it at the DMV etc. I have a feeling my new IPod will be arriving that day too. I didnt ask for one; but I was told it was my present. And a new car isnt?? Well now I can save for a digital camera instead of an IPod.

Nothing else to report for the moment.

[Trying4Thin]

I dont know why; but I just really feel sad today. I wish I could call Eric but that wouldnt make things right for us or in my heart. (It would probably make them worse because I dont think he is ready to talk to me yet.) I should be excited because I am getting a new car this week; but I am just not. It's been about 5 months since I have seen Eric and almost 2 since we have spoken on the phone. But all I can do is wait.

[Trying4Thin]

So I have been drooling over Missy's trainer Dennis for some time now. And THIS is my trainer (well when I go home) he is. He spends his time kicking my mother's butt now. Anyway; so this is Armand. Nicest guy in the world (and cute too) and he has a picture in his hallway that is the same pose singer Seal is in for one of his earlier albums. The one where his back is to you and his arms are outstretched and he is shirtless. You cant tell the difference between the two. Anyhoo...I just got a phone call from my father wanting to know about my Nutrition appointment with the guidance counselor today. Yadda yadda yadda...So he then asks me if I can guess where Armand is going. (How the heck would I know?) He says he is going to California to take an exercise class (maybe for more certifications?) Gotta keep it fresh folks. Gotta keep coming up with new ways to torture the clients. Guess who is teaching this class?
Scroll down for the answer....(Drum roll please!)



JILLIAN MICHAELS!!!!

How incredibly cool is that?! Since my dad is coming out here on Thursday; I am going to send my camera home with him so he can give it to Armand and he can get some shots for me. I also want to enclose a letter for Jillian thanking her and Bob for changing so many lives; mine included. And I also may just mention our little forum too! (I am sure the woman is incredibly busy; but what the hell?) Not sure when the class is but I have left a message for Armand to either call or email me when he gets a second. When I know; so will you!

[mifsit]

no chance you could go to this class?

[Patty_Ann]

OMG...Jillian - that is WAY cool! Exciting! Too bad you couldn't go with him...lol. I think it is great to send a letter of THANKS...I would do the same.

I have to ask...the other day you mentioned that you ate 2 Cocovia Bars, 1 Rice Cake, a bowl of fruit, and POSSIBLY a bowl of soup???? Is this all you had to eat Girl? You know like all of us know that you need to eat more than that...were you sick that day? You did mention that you are feeling sad again...I understand why you aren't able to eat when you are feeling down in love. I have been there. Just do your best in getting enough to eat...ok?

Love Ya Girl! Oh yeah...Armand is a CUTIE! I wish I had a hot trainer...I guess I could just look in the mirror while I work out. LOL Just Kidding!!!

[Trying4Thin]

Yeah I about passed out too. I should get the details today. Armand called while I was dropping off a wheelchair client so I couldnt pick up my cell.

I did end up eating more than what I wrote down. I go from one extreme to the other. Now I am overeating. Classic depression flags. I'm just mentally zonked and maybe physically as well. Couldnt sleep last night; then I overslept and just made it to work on time. Had to finish getting dressed in the bathroom and my hair was still dripping; but I made it. Just have to get through Weds and I am off til Friday. So much to do and I just dont want to do it. Still no phone call or email. Why am I so surprised? Not even a congratulations on getting full time. Maybe he hasnt checked his email. I dont know I am just sick of making excuses for him. Right now he is missing out on somebody great. Too bad I am the one suffering. I am sure he probably cares less; even though he tells me he cares about me. I am beginning to think that is total BS.

[Trying4Thin]

Kinda sad right now. I took all my decorations (Cherry Wild Seat covers and steering wheel cover etc) out of my car in preparation for the switch Thursday. This car has been my best friend for 7 years. I am very sad to see it go. I hope it doesnt end up getting trashed. The last car I lost (to get my VW) was in an accident not too long after it was sold; but then it was fixed up again. Luckily I never saw it. I know it is only a car; but still. Maybe it's because I dont have any other real friends in my life now. (Offline anyway). My one friend is always busy and she has a new job and a boyfriend. I dont want to be a third wheel yet again so I avoid hanging out. And I dont know what to call Eric anymore. I am happy about the new car but I miss my Jetta GL already and it isnt even gone yet.

[Trying4Thin]

Ok so the Exercise thing with Jillian is actually a lecture. Armand is part of some group or whatnot. I guess he will bring his camera. I dont care who's camera goes; as long as I get some shots. The lecture is in Feb but I am not sure when or for how long exactly. I am still going to give him a letter to her and maybe I could sneak one in there for Bob. Who knows if they ever see each other anymore. This is the closest I will ever get to either one of them and I am going to take full advantage. Guess Armand is my new best friend! Seriously though; I can talk to him about anything (weight struggles) and he understands. He knows we all arent perfect and have made mistakes. "To err is human; to forgive is divine."