I think there comes a time when you have to read the signs. Although we may wear blinders at first; soon the situation morphs into something that cant be ignored. I have been trying to rack my brain into what could have possibly triggered my hives. I think it was a combination of them having been dormant "X" amount of years and it was time for a new wave, the stress/depression/pressure I have been under, the crazy exercising I was doing, possibly something I ate, and I am sure the nutty 116 hours I worked in two weeks didnt help matters. But the fact is that they arent going away. I get to the point where I think they are and they come back. It has been intense here for a while. I cant blow up at management for obvious reasons, I cant (and wont) take it out on passengers, I have no right to take anything out on my family, so I take it out on myself as a form of abuse. But once again I am going through the wrong channels. I need to work this out through exercise, good diet and relaxing down time. I have never had a bout last this long. I think I will be at a month and a half next week. I think my body is trying to tell me something. For the most part when I was home I had almost no trouble sleeping; but I still had hives. I come back; still have hives and the getting up during the night starts all over again. I paid my bills on time this month, cut hours since the drivefest, and I am not as upset about Eric because things are slowly looking up again. I dont get it...I am thinking I need to call my doctor on Monday. I cant take this anymore. It hurts to take a shower.
Didnt make it to the gym Mon, Tues, Weds and I really wanted to. But I have been soooo tired this week. Wanted to go last night but I was kinda out of it and I did schedule a chat session and I didnt want to miss it. This weekend I am going to put all the pieces of the puzzle back together again and start going in a more positive direction.
I am almost 99% sure I got the Full Time position. (Just because of certain things that occured yesterday afternoon-will explain later.) I think they are going to notify me today and call the others who didnt get it as well. However; I still have an application in for Road Supe and if I were to somehow end up with that one; then they would go with their number 2 choice for FT driver. It would be very silly for them to have to make a second announcement because whoever took that position would have been a second choice and everyone would know it. I am pretty sure the interviews will be next week. If they do make it public; then I know for sure I wont get Road Supe. Only 3 people (maybe 4 including me) applied.
Today my plan is to go to work; work my 2 hour (or less) long shift, go grocery shopping, come home and relax. Then I am going to start cleaning because having a mess to look at is stressful enough on its own. It didnt help matters tearing through everything trying to find my car paperwork. In a weird way; cleaning is relaxing to me. Tomorrow is payday. I wont get much because of my 9 days off. But my raise will have kicked in.
Have a good day everyone
Cheers and enjoy that new car -very exciting!
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