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Jules · #**1081** (**permalink**) 10-02-2006, 04:15 PM

Carrie, so sorry your numbers went high this week. I'm really proud of you for turning to the gym rather than drowing the sorrow in calories. You've changed a lot, and you're still changing. Hope the workout goes well and glad you got so much accomplished lately. Cheers Carrie!
~Jules

Trying4Thin · #**1082** (**permalink**) 10-02-2006, 05:57 PM

Today is turning into a day from hell. I am tired, cranky and I feel huge. What is the point anymore? I have no clue what I am doing or not doing. I am sick and tired of people asking if I have lost more weight when I have actually gained. Happened twice today. I am not wanting to go home anymore. I feel I have made zero progress since I was home in March or April. How can I possibly be a weight loss counselor or a personal trainer or a weight loss author if I cant even get my own butt in shape? I am still not interesting to guys (and I dont care because I only want one), and I still cant look good in clothes because of my stomach and chest looking so out of whack.

Still nothing from Eric except last week when I told him via email about my running 4.5 miles in an hour and he gave me a 2 word response. I thought we were going to get together next week, but I am sure there will be another excuse for why he cant. Honest to G-d I am sick of nothing ever going my way...ever. No matter how hard I try to change; nothing else changes. I am almost at a normal weight and I am still ignored. I have always been too fat for everything and now 60+ pounds later, I still am. What did I do all this for anyway? Just to get rejected again only this time in a thinner body?

I dont want to get anymore emails from old friends saying they are pregnant. I cant take it. I just cant. I cant even say I have a boyfriend.

muppet · #**1083** (**permalink**) 10-02-2006, 10:41 PM

Carrie, I don't know how you can go from being so 'up' and encouraging to being so down in the dumps. I'm glad you let it all out here -- that's the best thing for you, and you know this place is full of sympathetic ears ( guess I should say eyes!

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I watched the final Celebrity Fit Club today. Carnie Wilson said something that made me think of you. Now, I won't get the quote completely right, but I'll do the best I can.
The panel asked her what she got out of this experience, and she said 'It's not about perfection, it's about progress. And somewhere along the way you have to be happy with yourself the way you are'
I don't think that last part is exactly what she said, but I understood what she was trying to say, because I've come to that realization myself.
You have to open your eyes and see the beauty that is YOU, not what you think you should be. I used to wish so bad that I could be tall and willowy, with mile long legs etc... but ain't no way jack! I kind of over-looked the things I did have going for me, because I was focusing on the things that I didn't , and would never have.
Just as Carnie Wilson will never have the body of Erika Elaniak( sp? -- she was a baywatch babe, and also on Celeb. fit Club), some of us may never have the bodies we think are ideal. But what do you know about what's ideal? Ideal for whom? I dont' know Carrie -- I just want to tell you to stop staring at your stomach -- I'm sure it's not as bad as you think, and take a look at your strong muscular legs. I bet your rear end ain't to shabby either! And gee -- I certainly can't speak for all men, but ther's quite a few out there who think a large chest is beautiful.
I know you can't just change the way you look at yourself overnight. But please think about it, and try to thinkk positively about yourself. I don't see how you can possibly feel like a failure when you have accomplished so much.
Take is easy girl!
Carol

Patty_Ann · #**1084** (**permalink**) 10-02-2006, 11:39 PM

Carrie...I agree with EVERYTHING Carol had said above. I can't say anything more but to stay positive. You have done so much and you will continue to do so. Please remember to not only look at the numbers on the scale...if people are asking if you are still losing then I'm sure that you are looking thinner. You will not see it...have you taken a picture of yourself since losing the weight. If not - be sure to have your mom do this for you when you go home and compare it to a past picture. This is what makes me feel better about myself when I start to feel like I have not accomplished anything with my journey...it is proof that you have!

Joysieangel · #**1085** (**permalink**) 10-03-2006, 12:22 AM

I agree with Carol and Patty Ann, you are the one that always says dont go by the scale that will just drive you crazy, You see yourself in a different way then everyone else does. I think its a compliment that everyone is asking if youve lost more weight, they are seeing a change that you arent. They dont know that your scale is playing games with you. Keep you head up!!!

Trying4Thin · #**1086** (**permalink**) 10-03-2006, 12:31 AM

Had to drag myself kicking and screaming to the gym tonight. Got there too late to do any real bodily damage. I walked for 5 mins to warm up and then I ran at 5 mph for 55 mins. I could have done 5 miles in an hour but I walked the first 5 mins at 3 mph and didnt reset the treadmill like I should have. I guess I didnt think I'd make the full hour at 5 mph. I think the last time I looked; I was at 4.86 miles but that was probably after time had run out and I was in cooldown. I ran the last 2 mins on 5.5 mph. 516 cals burned, 35% fat burn. Total duration 1 hour and 4 mins and I wasnt tired. But I did get a foot muscle cramp about 5 mins into my run. Not fun to run on. I just didnt warm up long enough and my foot went pins and needles on me.

Time to face the music tomorrow at LA Weight Loss. I am not looking forward to this. I had better not see anything higher than 147 pounds or I will probably leave in tears.

mifsit · #**1087** (**permalink**) 10-03-2006, 07:26 AM

I agree with Joy, Carol and Patty Ann. If you had been eating pies and cakes then of course you should be down in the dumps with yourself, but you haven't. You have done so well. You have less than 50% of your previous weight loss to reach your target and you are aware that at the start the weight falls off but towards the end it gets harder to do. And it certainly seems LA Weight loss isn't working now, whatever plan you're on.
And from my own point of view, Its time you gave up on Eric too. Focus your love and attention on yourself for a change.

Trying4Thin · #**1088** (**permalink**) 10-03-2006, 03:47 PM

My scale weighed me in at 146.8
The LA scale had me at 149.0
Major letdown. Have until Thursday to get my butt in gear.

Patty_Ann · #**1089** (**permalink**) 10-03-2006, 05:39 PM

Sweetie...please remember that all scales are going to weigh you different. The time of day...your type of day...your clothes...etc are going to weigh you differently. You can not go by what the numbers are saying. Keep your head up girl.

Trying4Thin · #**1090** (**permalink**) 10-03-2006, 05:40 PM

I emailed Eric to tell him what I did on the treadmill last night. And he responded, "You must be looking good. Got any boyfriends yet?" I have no idea if he is trying to tick me off by saying that, or if it was a backhanded compliment, or if he was just checking to see if I was available still. He has made the boyfriends comment before. He knows it annoys me; because he knows darn well how I feel about him. I called him and left a message saying that I didnt know which he ment; but I would take his statement as a compliment. (Even though I secretly want to scream at him for being stupid.)