It's Time For A New Life

[weaverdelooh]

lol, Carrie I love the air guitar thingy

[Patty_Ann]

I wouldn't have been able to do what you did - I chicken out when it gets 40 degrees - I couldn't do it! Good job! I love working out with Leslie @ home -plenty warm. I enjoyed reading your walking tips...thanks!

[Trying4Thin]

Day 18

Wow is my back burning today. Last night I didnt think I was ever going to get to sleep. Oddly enough, only my left knee is a little sore today. I thought for sure my ankles and calves would be sore, but they are fine. My cheeks are a little windburned, but I learned my lesson. Be prepared for the elements. I think I am going to try and bike today and see what happens. I might not get too far because of my back. I did buy some Icy Hot Back Patches and I will try one later before I get on the bike. The cream works, but I cant reach certain places on my back and I dont want to make a mess, or end up smelling like a medicine cabinet. My weighted hike didnt really do much for my weight (at least right away). I bounced back up to 152.2 Friday and today I am 157 even. I am wondering if I am starting to build muscle down there. I am not sure if what I did is either Cardio, or Cardio combined with Lifting. I am going to treat it like lifting and only work with leg weights every other day. Assuming the weather holds Sunday, I would like to try them on the 6 mile trail. If it is below freezing, I will go to the gym instead. I had my first caffeine in over two weeks last night. I had Chocolate Caramel Chai Tea. I have no idea what I was expecting, but it didnt taste like that. It did warm me up though after that walk through the Arctic Freeze. I figure a caffinated tea drink every so often is much better than my former diet soda habit. So I loaded up on tea last night at the store. I also bought a bag of Hershey Kisses. I am going to put one at the bottom of a cup of tea for a little treat. One kiss has only 23 calories, no huge deal. I used to eat a bag of Kisses in a day, no problem. If I try that now, I know that it will take me weeks to make up for it. No thank you. I will just stick to one at a time. The lowest calorie hot chocolate I could find was 50 cal per serving (sugar free), so I am going to experiment with my own hot drinks. Losing weight can make you very creative in the kitchen. Even somebody like me who cant cook. I guess overall I have to say that I am happy with my progress. My curves are starting to come back, but I still feel like my skeleton is swimming around in a vat of squishy fat. I hope my stomach starts to shrink soon because I am sick of looking at it. I know it wont all go away, because belly fat runs in my family. Even a Buddah Belly would be better than what I have to look at now. Guess I will just keep on truckin. Eventually my body has to give in and get with the program. I really want to wear a bikini this summer (by July/August), but at the rate I am going, that too is another far off dream. I also dont want to look bloated and gross the next time I see "my guy." Assuming he ever trusts me again and calls to do something. So I guess I will take advantage of his silence to work on myself. Everything I do now, will take me that much farther later on in life. I am trying not to be, but I am really getting impatient. I am doing my part, why the heck wont my body take the hint and catch up?

~Carrie

[Trying4Thin]

I have made an interesting discovery....The things that previously would have driven me to eat, now push me to exercise. I spent the day (after work) in my pajamas sulking because my back was killing me and my knee was sore from last night. Then around mid afternoon, my back felt great and my legs began to hurt. I really didnt want to skip a workout, but then again I really pushed myself last night. So I decided I would get on my bike, that way if I lasted 5 mins I wouldnt have wasted a trip to the gym and looked like an idiot. I figured 30 mins before I croaked. After slapping on the Icy Hot I got on my bike and crossed my fingers. I made my usual hour and biked 31 miles. I could have kept on going too. What made me get on the bike? I was in the bathroom and got a look at my 9 months pregnant looking stomach and was repulsed. I am terrified my scale has been lying to me and I really weigh somewhere in the 170's. The old me would have gotten so depressed, that I would have eaten my way through every fast food restaurant in my city. I am not going to feel like a fool when I go home in May or June, or the next time I see "my guy." I have also discovered that I am loving my new tea time. Today's feature tea is Celestial Seasons Gingerbread Spice. Yummy! Just needs two Splenda or Equal packets and it tastes and smells just like cookies! No caffeine!! No calories!!

~Carrie

[TStreich]

Wow that is great. WAY TO GO!!!!

[ehyatt]

You are doing awesome Carrie, way to go!

[Trying4Thin]

Day 19

Well my legs, back and knee feel much better today. So all that is left to do is to decide what sort of Cardio Torture I am going to put myself through today. I can tell without even going outside that is is going to be cold again. So it looks like I am going to have to train on the treadmill. Unless I decide to bundle up and face the elements, this time prepared. Well this morning I am 156.9. I am not very happy with that, but I will take it. At least it was a loss. I hate getting so close to a huge goal (-60 lbs @ 154), only to gain for lord knows what reason. I keep wondering if I am not training hard enough, or if I am being too strict with my food choices. I am still going to be annoyed, but I am not going to give up exercise or eating healthy. The consequences arent worth the temporary side tracking. Afterall, it has taken me a few days to take off a phantom weight gain. It would take a lot more to work off a binge. Guess I am going to dig out the hat, scarf, heavy jacket, sunglasses and gloves for my 6 mile weighted trek. I think I really am going insane. High today of 26 degrees, they say it feels like 6 degrees. Oh this is NOT going to be fun. God help the scale if I gain tomorrow. I still think I am losing inches all over with the exception of my stomach (core area). But I still have 36.9 pounds to chase off, so I guess I will see what to do about it when I get there. I am terrified of surgery, but it is an option. I am not going to work my butt off, just to be left with a belly. Then I might as well be fat all over in my opinion. I think my new goal is to be at 144 by the end of March. That's only 12.9 pounds in a little over a month. Sounds easy, but I foresee more ping-ponging in my future. Just how my body works unfortunatly. I just want to look like a female again, and not a football player. It has been so many years since I have been normal, I have forgotten what it is like. Even though I was a few pounds overweight, I never felt like I was snubbed by society as a "fat girl." I am still kind of surprised that I have lost close to 60 pounds and still no guy will approach me. Not that it matters though, because I already have my heart set on somebody else who doesnt want me (hopefully just for right now). And yet I feel I am still hoping the relationship that will work out with all the innocence of a small child who has not yet learned that there is rejection in the world. But once again, I will continue to change myself and not focus on the things that I have no control over directly. Like the fact that is just started snowing like crazy outside. I will give it a couple of hours before I decide whether or not to brave the cold.


~Carrie

[Trying4Thin]

Well I just finished my 6 mile trek with weights and I am freezing my tail off. However, I took on the weather and won. Nevermind that I was so bundled up that I looked like a snowman trudging along through the forest. The walk itself wasnt bad. There were 2 hills I wasnt sure I would get up without a struggle. So I just put my head down, kept walking and before I knew it, I was at the top. Between the 2nd and 3rd mile, it started snowing pretty quickly, but after a few mins stopped altogether. Yes there were a few slippery spots as well. But I proved to myself once again that I can take on the elements and win. Barely anyone was on the trail today, and I did like that. But it also made me wonder why I had to be the knucklehead who was out setting the good example. Depending on how I feel later on, I may hop on my bike too and crank out a few miles. I am trying to get away from the food type rewards, but today I couldnt resist. There is nothing like a hot bowl of Lentil soup and crackers after dealing with a cranky Mother Nature. It was all I could think about that last mile back. Almost an hour after finishing, I am sitting here with a blanket around me and I am still cold. (Well parts of me are.) I fried my tongue on that soup! I still have so much to do (cleaning, laundry, another grocery store run), but at least the brunt of my exercise is done for the day and I dont have to come up with an excuse for why I didnt do it today, or I cant get it done today. That feels really good. I am pretty proud of the work I have done this week training. I like setting new goals for myself that way. There is nothing like finding out you can do something you never thought you could. I can now fit on a chair sitting Indian Style. I love that! I am curious to see how much damage I can do to my figure before mid May. I may end up spending my 31'st birthday alone (if "my guy" doesnt want to see me yet), but I wont be spending it FAT. Although the more weight I lose, I think the more curious he will become, reguardless of his personal feelings towards me. He wont be able to look at me in the same way ever again. I am looking forward to going home in June and reuniting with my family and relatives Biggest Loser Style. I want to shock them all by going back even smaller than when I left.

~Carrie

[ehyatt]

Good for you, taking on Mother Nature and winning! I love what you said about maybe spending your 31st birthday alone, but not spending it being Fat. Well said!

[susieokla]

Keep up the good work Carrie!! I sure hope the weather gets better for you soon so you can walk that 6 miles without freezing your tush off!

When it's time for your birthday we'll have a big Internet Birthday celebration in the chat room!! Party time!!!

I bet you are going to be so excited to go see your family. That's going to be so awesome.