PattyAnn is BACK!!!

[Patty_Ann]

Hey Everyone! How is everyone doing? Me - kickin' it up a notch and returning to my ole ways...good ways. I have put on a whooping 30 lbs over the summer. So much has happened over the course of the summer and do not want to go into details but be assured that I am changing every day and try to do my best in all I do. I have slacked so bad and the weight is just proof that I have been slacking...working on that now though. I am not happy with myself most of the time (physical wise) but then I look at my before pics and remind myself on just how far I have become and that I can do it again. If I can lose 77 lbs in 1.5 years then I can lose 30 lbs with no doubt...just have to keep my motivation up. I'm not sure why I stopped coming in here...this is the thing that kept me going...all of your support and motivation helped me get where I was. I am hoping to be back in here more often...possibly not each day due to not have internet service where I am staying.

Update on Grant: Lots of you know that Grant has ADHD/Bipolar/OCD and that I am unable to work due to the severity of his disabilities. I was always advised to apply for disability - I was also told that it would take possibly one full year and more than one time to apply to be approved...but good news: he was approved the first time of applying and started receiving his checks within 2 months of applying. I was a blessing...definitely has helped me out a lot. He has had a very rough summer...in and out of the psychiatric hospital and changing his meds often...in and out of trouble with the law. Dan and I have agreed that he is needing more help than what I can provide for him so we have him on a waiting list for a residential facility here in KCMO...I hear it is the best in KC. When President Bush came to KCMO about a month ago when he stepped off the plane he rewarded a lady from Spofford (the residential facility he will be attending) for her great work and dedication. So...he is in regular school right now and just waiting to hear from the facility to know when he goes. He will be there for 6 months unless they say that he can come home sooner. Grant will be the BIG 1-0 Sept 25th!!!

Update on Sam: She is doing great...growing so much and beautiful as ever. I definitely have my hands full with her...she will be 12 years old in November and she acts like she is 16. URGH! lol She is playing soccer this fall...she begins next week. We are very excited to get her back into sports. In school she is doing great...all A's at this time. I'm so proud of her. She is also playing the flute this year (I played when I was in school) and she is doing awesome...her teacher told her yesterday that she is very good and she makes a beautiful sound with her new (used) flute. We bought her flute off ebay for $50...wow!

Update on KenRhea: She is 4 years old but acts like she is 10 years old. She is a music lover...loves to dance...and is still THE PRINCESS of the family. She is such a girly girl but yet loves to get dirty. She didn't qualify for the FREE preschool this year b/c she is too smart...her articulation is @ a 6 year old level and that brought her score up too high to qualify. I'm glad that she isn't delayed but upset b/c she was so excited to start school this year.

Update on Dan and I: We were separated from Jan 1st - May....we got back together and have had an up and down summer. We attended counseling until August and think that we are needing more sessions. I am a different person than I was back when we were together - I am a stronger and more confident woman and won't take much off anybody...not even him. It is tough b/c I left him a couple weeks back and he isn't understanding that we are separated once again. I am having trouble with this b/c I love him with all my heart but think that we have grown apart in some ways...it is EXTREMELY difficult to be the one to leave a relationship. I am struggling on what to do at this time b/c I still love him but don't think it is enough to keep our marriage strong at this time. Mom says to take one day at a time...I tell her that it is just difficult b/c I have so many mixed emotions on the situation. One minute I love him and don't want to be apart and the next I'm thinking that I'm better off without him b/c I hurt too much when we are together. URGH! I am lookin' into getting into counseling again b/c I am so messed up on what to do.

Okay...this was a LONG one. Hope you all have a great week!

KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON! LATE!

[Patty_Ann]

Ahhhhhhhhh...finally went grocery shopping. I spent $233 @ Price Chopper...I'm so happy to have healthy foods in the house again. I didn't buy many snacks for the kids...junk food that is...I bought healthy snacks...like veggies and fruit. Yummy! I was upset b/c they quit selling JennieO burgers and hot dogs...I did buy Bar S Turkey Dogs though. I am going to have to go to WalMart and see if they sell the JennieO turkey burgers b/c I loved eating them and we eat on the grill a lot. Tonight we are having tacos...YUMMY!

I printed out my workout log...I've done pretty good this week. I have walked every day - haven't done it yet today b/c I had to take Grant to school and then to the grocery store. Haven't been @ home long enough to do any walking. Will be working in the yard again today and tonight...have lots to do still.

Can't talk long...have too much to do today. I hope you all have a good day!
KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!

[Missy]

Sounds like you have been going through a lot of things in your life. I try to keep updated on how you're doing by your blogs on myspace. Just know that you'll get through it in time. It takes time to figure things out especially since you've been together for so long. It sometimes seems hard to see yourself without that person. All you can do is follow your heart and do what's best for you and your kids.

Just read you're getting a new place, congrats!! I'm sure you and your daughters will have an awesome time decorating it to your liking.

I'm glad to hear you're back on the weight loss journey. Like you, I have been struggling with the motivation aspect of it for awhile now.

It was good to hear from you. Hope you keep in touch with us here.

[Patty_Ann]

Hello! Can ya believe - 3rd day and I have posted all 3 days now. LOL I'm going to do my best in keeping my journal up and keep up with my "second" journey to weight loss.

I didn't get my walk in yesterday but it's okay...I did a lot of running around yesterday (errands)....got me a new home! Yeah! We will be moving October 1st...I'm so excited! I do not know when I'll be getting internet service on but will try to make it to my parent's to post. It's a 3 bedroom, 1.5 bath...large kitchen...large bedrooms & closets...large bathroom...and dining room ...living room is a good size, too...oh yeah, I also have a laundry room. The bedrooms and full bath are upstairs...I love that I have stairs because I will be running them to lose this butt of mine. LOL The only downfall of the house is the yard and driveway...very steep hill and will be very difficult for winter months. The house is an old home but newly remodeled (1 year ago)...very nice. I hope to get pics soon and will try to post a few. Sam is extremely happy b/c November is her 12th bday and she has been planning a slumber party since the beginning of the year...lol. She is stoked on getting it decorated.

I woke up this morning @ 6:30 and started my workout...walking in home with Leslie ... 3 miles...45 minutes. I always feel so good when I wake up early and walk...not sure why I ever stopped.

I can't talk long...sis and mom just walked in from their appointment at the doctors so I'm out to see how they went.

TTYL
KEEP ON KEEPIN ON!

[nahum1_7]

I have been thinking about you!! Dont give up, God puts things back together much better than we can imagine My kids would give anything to have their dad under the same roof, and to be honest so would I.

Love ya, you are doing great, the weight will come off!

[Patty_Ann]

Hello! I had a pretty decent weekend. Saturday night I went out with a friend..she got the outline to her tat and then we met up with some friends at the Beer Garden @ the Jesse James Festival in Kearney. I had so much fun...had a few beers and delicious food to soak up some of the alcohol. LOL

Sunday I didn't do anything. I didn't walk over the weekend and didn't do too bad on eating. I was going to walk this morning but something is wrong with the top of my left foot. I have a doc appointment - few weeks back I had it xrayed b/c I injured it...wasn't broken but it is hurting in the same spot and it is really unbearable. I can barely walk on it and it hurts when I'm sitting...need pain meds for it it hurts so bad. URGH! Just as I got back to walking...I just have to see what is up with it...hopefully nothing serious.

Well...I can't talk long...Ken is anxious to get home so she can watch her videos. I'll holla at ya later. LATE!

MUCH LOVE TO Y'ALL

[mifsit]

Love the new pics. You've lost about 10 years as well as the lbs

[Patty_Ann]

Thank you for the compliment Philip! That definitely put a smile on my face. I have been told that I look bout 23 - I'm 30 so that is great!

[Patty_Ann]

I have missed out a couple of days. Not much has been going on. I haven't been able to walk due to pain in my foot since Sat night. I injured it playing football back in August - had xrays done but nothing was broken. My doc had me get more xrays yesterday...if it shows no break he is going to have a MRI or another type of xray...can't think of the name. He is very concerned b/c I am not getting circulation to my foot - I had an artial ultrasound done on my lower extremities yesterday - he's afraid that I could have a blood clot. Still waiting to find out the results...should get them tomorrow. I am on Hydrocodone but it's not taking care of the pain and it causes me to ITCH like crazy. I called him today to get something different for the pain...usually I can handle the pain but it's really bad...frustrates me b/c I just got back into walking. Besides all this bad news I did have some good news...I thought that I was up to 198 lbs....I am sitting at 191 lbs...so much better. It is still really too high but I'm going to look @ my weight loss through my clothes...I'm upset b/c their tight on me - just gives me motivation to lose the weight. I want to start lookin' good again. I have been doing better with my eating habits (besides today)...think that is b/c I'm just frustrated and I'm not able to do much...boredom brings out my hunger. URGH

I hope y'all are doing good. I have decided to drop from the challenge in weighins b/c I'm unable to follow the rules due to the internet service here...not able to get in like I want all the time and unable to download pics b/c my camera isn't working.

Well...I'm out like Ken's belly button. KEEP ON KEEPING ON! LATE!

BTW: So glad that Lezlye is out! I didn't like her much at all...I don't like the other chic on that team either...very negative thinker and brings me down...she whines way too much - she should be happy she got the opportunity. Frustrates me when I see someone get where millions would die to be and all she wants to do is bitch about her workouts.

GO JILLIAN GO JILLIAN...her team is amazingly hard workers. They are doing awesome. Bob's team is GREAT, too...I love Kae...she is too damn cute!

[muppet]

We're on the same page as far as TBL goes. I really don't like to dislike any of them, but some of them make it so easy! I didn't like Lezlye at all last week, but I would have preferred the other chick to go this week, for the very reasons you mentioned. I know a lot may be editing, but it didn't seem like she worked too hard to get one of the guys to vote for Phil. Seemed like she campaigned more against Lezlye.