July - making it happen

[Missy]

I'm sure the kids will adjust to the move if that's what has to happen. It probably won't be an easy thing since all their friends are here and it will be out of their comfort zone to start over in a new place. Everything will work out though.

[muppet]

Yes, we are moving. We told the kids and they are fine. A little sad, a little excited.... I was very proud and impressed by the maturity they showed. No freaking out -- not even any tears. My 14 year old's self confidence is something I wish I had more of. He knows he'll make friends anywhere.
I am enjoying my break from the scale, but am getting nervous as August approaches. Hmm.. maybe I should just wait till September. But no, I need to face reality too. I've not been completely terrible, but hardly disciplined with my eating. Workouts are not quite what they used to be either. I don't enjoy these hot humid summer days much, so I've been working out indoors.
I need someone to just sit me down and be straight with me. This is what got me going when I started this.... my doctor just said my cholesterol was way too high and I had 3 months to try diet and exercise and see what I could do, and if I couldn't do it, or it wasn't enough to control it, then I would have to take medication. I did not and still do not want to do that, so I need to get that reality back in my head. I need to be vigilant about every bite I take. I don't want to live this way, but it's how I need to live to be healthy. Too bad for me -- I feel like such a big baby. So many others have much bigger more serious issues. And I'm whining because there is really never any reason or situation where it would be OK for me to eat french fries again. Whah whah....
I need to just grow up. Just because other people can eat treats, and not really have to think about what they're eating, doesn't mean I can too. Not fair? Who ever said life is fair? Just like I can't make myself be 5'9", I can't change my genetics. High cholesterol runs in my family. I can't control that. But I can control my diet, my weight, and the amount physical activity I do. I can I can I can I can I can I can I can......
It's harder than I want it to be. It takes more thought and planning than I want to do. It's a pain -- -- SO WHAT?!? This is my life -- my future -- my health. It's the only body I've got. It deserves to be taken care of.
OK -- enough of my little pep talk. Change is good for me. A change in where I live can lead to a change in how I live. It's refreshing.

[Rocky]

I liked your little pep talk. It was very inspiring! =) I am also going through a move right now. But since I couldn't find a place in time and am moving in with my cousin temporarily, I am going to have to move AGAIN very soon. A month or 2. So I'm even more so not looking forward to THAT move! But at least most of my stuff will stay in the boxes I have been spending every waking hour packing. Good luck in August. I'm also hoping to get back into the old routine of working hard at being healthy.

[FrugalSue]

Originally Posted by muppet

Just because other people can eat treats, and not really have to think about what they're eating, doesn't mean I can too. Not fair? Who ever said life is fair? Just like I can't make myself be 5'9", I can't change my genetics. High cholesterol runs in my family. I can't control that. But I can control my diet, my weight, and the amount physical activity I do. I can I can I can I can I can I can I can......
It's harder than I want it to be. It takes more thought and planning than I want to do. It's a pain -- -- SO WHAT?!? This is my life -- my future -- my health. It's the only body I've got. It deserves to be taken care of.

What you're saying here reminds me a lot of the acceptance I had to come to many years ago with my alcoholism. I was never the kind of drinker who had horrible problems, like losing jobs, houses, cars, whatever. I was more just the kind of person who drank instead of getting out and doing anything better than that. Even though I never had a major crisis like an arrest or anything, the time came when I had to make a decision about what kind of life I wanted to have, and I couldn't have what I wanted if I kept drinking.

I remember feeling some of the same things...other people could drink, and I couldn't. How unfair! But, you know, eventually I got past that. It just takes time. And it's a whole lot easier to get past it if you are doing what's right for you than if you're doing what's wrong for you. Because when you are taking care of your health, you're going to feel better and you won't care what other people can or can't do.

The longer I live, and I'm in my 50s, the more I realize I need to keep the focus on myself and my own needs. When I do that, I can be there for others who need me, too--family, friends, coworkers, etc.

Good luck with getting the health issues under control without having to resort to meds! I know you can do it!

[Missy]

It sounds like you're going about this with the right attitude. It just sounds like you had one of those moments where a light bulb went off in your head and kicked you into high gear again..I get those every now and then too. It's a very good thing. Your body is your temple and you only get one...so you had better take care of it and do everything you need to do to ensure you live a long and healthy life.

[muppet]

July is ending My journal title , "Making it happen', probably didn't happen. But since this is as much attitude and emotion as it is diet and exercise, maybe something did happen. I'm back to focusing on health, not just calories. Exercise has taken a back seat these past few days, because I am cleaning like crazy, getting the house ready to be shown. Cleaning is not so bad, it's the 'cleaning out' that is time consuming. Where and why do we accumulate so much crap? But it feels good to purge my closets, and get back to what we really need. I have discovered that I have way too many white shirts! I organized by color, and it's ridiculous. But they are all a little bit different, and serve different purposes.
So as I clean out my closets, maybe I can clean out my head --- get rid of the junk and keep the good stuff!
I'm not looking forward to starting working this fall. I really don't want to be there. But I can't leave them without a teacher, so I guess I am stuck. Probably till Christmas. I am going to do my best to change this attitude. It's not the kids' fault, and they deserve a teacher who wants to be there. I'm sure they will play a key part in changing my attitude. I really do love them and enjoy hanging out with them.
Well, I'd better get back at it. I want to finish my room tonight, and shampoo the living room carpets this evening. Then tomorrow won't be anything too big. They are coming to take some pictures tomorrow night, so I do want things to look their best.