[Michele]

I do not blame my parents. Neither of them had weight problem and I didn't really either until I was older and on my own. I blame myself first, and society second.

I always considered myself to be heavy. I had a very thin and cute sister growing up and always felt compared to her in looks. I just wasn't built that way. I was bigger boned and had straighter hips. I was led to believe that I wasn't thin enough to be attractive when in fact there was nothing wrong with me.

I was miserable growing up because on my self image. It's funny how we call it that when it is really a reflection of our "self" as perceived by others. My main motivation now is to try and be a role model for others who are now where I was. Self-confidence is everything. I can try to look like a million bucks on the outside, but if there is no substance inside, who cares? My reasons for wanting to be on the BL is to finally find a game plan that works. The old me would never, ever consider getting in front of TV cameras in a tiny little exercise suit. The new self-confident me says "bring it on!"