Journal online? So everyone can see? Well, I guess if I want to be brutally honest with myself. Here goes nothing... Day 7 of my diet:
I have lost 12 1/2 pounds in the past week-- thanks to busting my butt and basically eating as little as possible (not the healthy way, I know) But today I caved and ate a McDonald's hamburger and oh my gosh, do I feel like junk. Who knew venturing off the diet path could prove to be so devastating to your morale? As soon as I took the 1st bite all I could think to myself was that I am a failure and I am going to be fat forever.
I had a cousin who passed away a couple of years ago who went to Hollywood and hit the big screens... he was so perfect, cute and nice and most of all thin. And as the only other grandchild in the family, I know everyone thinks why can't I be thin and beautiful like him. But my question is, why can't they just love me for me until I get thin. I don't want to get thin for them, I'm doing it for me and my kids.
Does any of this make any sense? Sorry to ramble.
