[Jules]

Carrie, I'm so glad you're showing that fighting spirit! Good luck with that job -you obviously deserve it.

If it helps, I think your metabolism slows down when it's really cold out. Part of those leftover reactions when winter meant death for cavemen who didn't store up body fat. Any weight gain is probably some combination of water weight and muscle and all of the above. Try and keep your salt levels low and it should help with the water retention. If you've been good to your diet you know that those mysterious extra pounds are not unhealthy foods -and I'm sure your body will sort itself out. It's had to do a lot of changing to keep up with your exercise and new habits.

Best wishes and I'm so glad you found that resolve in you!
Ps. One more thing to remember -what we think we want is not always what we should have. I hope you get what is truly best for you and makes you happy in the end.