Day 21:
Well it is Day 21 now and I feel like I havent made any progress whatsoever. I am back to 159.1 and I have had it. The only reason I didnt throw my scale in the dumpster this morning is because I wanted to make sure I got to work on time. I know one day soon I will crack and the stupid thing will end up with the rest of the things that nobody else wants anymore. I hope it dies a cold and painful death out there for all the hurt and pain it has caused me. I only got on my scale this morning because I was sure I looked thinner than yesterday. Guess looks can be deceiving. Then again, I havent yet ruled out new muscle development yet. Other than my weight going back up, and my dream guy ingnoring me for the moment, I am also worried about work. There are two Road Supervisor positions open. I have 10 years in the Transportation field and I handle people well, and basic mechanics well. I read the job description and I know I fit the bill, except for one thing. They want somebody with 3-5 years supervisory experience and I dont have it. However, I honestly believe that work in the field is much better than anything that can be taught within the walls of a classroom. The classroom teaches everything inside the box, while direct contact with everyday (as well as the not so everyday) situations teaches you to think outside the box. You cant teach supervisory skills; either you are born to lead, or you arent. So on Thursday I am going to turn in my cover letter, resume, and application in and cross my fingers. This time the claws are coming out, and I will not be turned down again. A few months ago, I applied to the same company for an Assistant Operations Manager position. They were very impressed with me, but they werent able to give me the position because I didnt have the management experience. Well this time is going to be different. If they are crazy enough to pass me up again, I will walk the second I find something else. I am too good for this. They have also turned me down twice for positions I was overqualified for. This is it, it's go time....My last interview, 2 of the 3 people had known me from another company, before I came to work for my current company. Let's just say I showed them a side of me they had never seen before. This time will be no different. I had hoped to have over 60 pounds off before the interview, but oh well. I think the weight loss I have achieved so far has given me wings (hense my screen name cartoon), but I havent yet gotten the chance to fly out on my own yet. This job is going to play a key role in that, and so will mending the friendship with "my guy," as well as getting my body and my life back. I hope the people that apply against me for these positions are ready for a fight, because I am not going to back down. I am going to reach down inside of me with the same amount of strength it took me to dig out those ankle weights, and walk through subzero weather for mile after mile. I am going to give honest replies to their written and verbal questions, not cookie cutter answers like I can see some people doing. I refuse to tell them what they want to hear. I am going to be ME.
What would Bob and Jillian say to management and competition?!
BRING IT ON!!
~Carrie
