Carrie,
Have you tried weighing yourself only once a week? It seems as if the scale is all over the place all of the time, and you can jump on and it won't weigh you the same twice in a row. Maybe once a week would help?
And as far as the b.f. being attracted to "skinny girls". Yes, I agree attraction is an important part in beginning a relationship; however, there are sooooooooo many other factors that go into a relationship. What if he found a "skinny girl" and something happened to her that caused her to get bigger? Many of women pack on the pounds from pregnancies, and many of women get sick and are unable to work out, etc... Meaning she could STILL go from being a skinny minny to being a tub-a-lard. It's not the fat, or the lack there of that he should be basing his relationship on.
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Originally Posted by Trying4Thin
Day 20
I am so disgusted with myself right now I dont know what to do. I have been busting my butt hauling around 10 extra pounds of ankle weights on 3+ and 6 mile hikes, I am eating healthy, and I am not drinking soda. I am now back up to 158.7 and I am very angry about it. There is no way I have put on 3.2 pounds of muscle in only 2 days. I dont know how much more of this I can take. I was 1.5 pounds away from my first goal and now I am 4.7 pounds away. I am so frustrated and sick and tired of doing the right thing. I feel like I am never ment to be thin, or to be with "my guy." Whenever I get close to something, the other shoe always drops. I am so fed up. If I am going to keep gaining, I might was well be eating junk. I am tired of trying to convince myself it is just water weight, because it cant be. If this keeps up, I will be as big as a whale by my birthday. And I doubt "my guy" would want to spend my birthday with a lard butt like me. He will never believe I have changed if this weight wont come off. He is attracted to skinny girls and I am not one.
~Carrie 
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