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Old 02-20-2006, 10:19 PM
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well 2 days in and ive stayed strong. well ok, yesterday i had two lolliepops, and today i had only one, so im already working it down. but besides those two slips, thats it. ive been eating healthier, truthfully i havnt done a lot of exercise except play netball, but im working on it. the gym tomorrow for a couple of hours.

i work in a petrol station so i stand there for hours watching people buy chips, chocolate, ice creams, it drives me crazy. 2 shifts later and i havnt brought anything. so u know how rare that is for me.

i watched the show last night, i watch it everynight.

i still wish i was there. the emotional support that they get is amazing, thats what i need. i have my ups and downs, some days where all i want to do is cry and i have to fight back the tears all the time. those days all i want is to be there, having bob and jillian there to push me, and support me.

ok. starting to cry now.

i didnt take the chance and apply for the show, im only 21, and i was scared, plus with issues such as work and study i didnt know what would happen. but im still doing it, im loosing weight, not as fast as the contestents, but im doing it. 5 more days till my weigh in. lets hope i can continue the work , and hopefully i can have more good days then bad. thats when i get into trouble..

report back soon
lisa
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