I can see LorifromFla's point in taking control of your own life, but with me, I think it started as a form of rebellion. When I was only about 10-15 pounds overweight (when I was 16), my mother would say, "are you going to eat THAT? It will make you fat!" etc. She would hurt my feelings, and my way of getting back at her (because I knew it would make her mad) was to look right at her and shove it into my mouth! Childish, yes...but at the time, I didn't understand that she was trying to help me, and was only venting her frustration; I took it as her ridiculing me, and putting more value on my looks than on my feelings and value as a person. I think subconsciously I have tried to prove ever since then to make people like me for ME, not for what I look like. The fatter I got, the more validation I got that they MUST like me for me, because it was no longer for my looks. Of course, now, it has completely backfired on me and I have trouble getting people to give me a
chance for them to know me because I feel repulsive to them, and myself!
