[muppet]

Confession: I ate 5 donuts today, as well as a healthy dose of chocolate.
Why? Wish I knew. Usually I would just tell myself to move on-- it's just a screw up. I would ignore it, and promise to do better.
But I'm not doing that. I'm just throwing it out there. 5 donuts. For no reason at all-- because they were there? Whatever.
I'm so sick of calling this my 'journey'. It's a trip to nowhere.
I won't get anywhere until I stop this type of behavior. And it isn't always this kind of behavior-- it's usually just 'oh, it won't hurt to eat these fries just this once', or ' oh, I'll just skip supper and eat all this chocolate'.
Big whoop. Even if I don't eat too many calories, I haven't given my body the nutrition it needs.
I'm a food addict. I have this need to eat until I feel stuffed.
Only I can stop it. I want to stop it. I will stop it.
I hope that by not denying it, that I will be able to face it.
I'm not going to log every morsel I eat, but I am going to confess all stunts like the one I pulled today.
I do believe that calories are calories and that as long as you burn more than you eat, you'll lose. BUT -- your body needs nutrition and fuel, not just a bunch of fat and sugar. So even though I think that calories are calories, and don't really go for 'food combining', or whatever you call it, I do believe that it will all work better when you give your body the fuel it needs. Lean protein, whole grain, fruits, veggies, water.
I'm not going to talk about working harder. I do get regular exercise. I'll never stop that. I've always enjoyed it and plan to continue as long as I live. Even if it's just sitting in a chair swinging my arms, when I'm 95 years old! I'm a believer, and I will always keep moving to the best of my abilities.
Stay tuned for tomorrow's confessional. Maybe I'll have nothing to confess? Give me strength!