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Well, I'm doing pretty good. I've been working out. Sometimes I think I'm eating better, but I think if I was really keeping track, it would not be so good. I'm not feeling hungry enough. For me, that is the easiest way to know how I'm doing. I have to feel hungry -- empty stomach. I haven't gone near the scale. I know I've gained. I probably won't weigh myself until I have a couple of weeks of more sensible eating. No sense in getting upset by what the scale says. It's not like I'm in denial or anything, but I know if I can just eat well, the weight I've gained will come right off, and then I'll be stuck where I've been forever it seems, but I'll just have to figure out how to get past it.
It seems like there is no routine to my life anymore. My husband is around at odd times because it seems like he's always covering different shifts at work. We have done some remodelling and so my house has been a construction site for over a month now. I think that might be why I feel so out of sorts. My house doesn't feel like home, and it won't until we get everything done and get all those freakin' tools put away! It's getting close. We are now working on picking out counter tops. We want granite. The guy said it was probably less expensive than other solid surfaces, and I absolutely love it. My only worry is that he will come check out our existing cabinets and say they aren't sturdy enough to support the granite. We really don't want to put out the money for new cabinets right now, but I know they ones we have are nothing too special. They are ok - they look fine, but don't seem to be top of the line. My existing counter tops and sink are awful. I would be happy just replacing them and keeping the cupboards, but like I said, I'm a little worried he might say they aren't strong enough. Oh well - we'll see. I just want to get it all done.
Week ends are always tough for me. I don't think we have anything going on this weekend though. Maybe that will help me stay on track.
I tried a protien shake yesterday. It was gross. Vanilla. I had lots of ice in it too, but I couldnt' finish it. Sickeningly sweet. I wanted to try chocolate, but could only get a sample of the vanilla. And as bad as I thought that was, I would never waste any money on chocolate. It's probably just as well that I drink a glass of low fat choc. milk, rather than mix up a shake anyway.
I'm just jabbering on because I'm at work and there's really nothing to do. I would like to just read a book, but I feel kind of bad if anyone else is here. At least if I'm on the computer it looks like I could be working anyway. I normally would never do this, but it's not like there's anything else I'm supposed to be doing. I am used to hitting the ground running at my old preschool job, and not being able to catch your breath all day. Most days I wished we didn't have so much to do in a day, but that's better than having nothing to do. Time just drags. I don't know how much longer I'll be here. Another week or so, until they get someone else trained. Sometimes I feel like I should have stuck with it, because mose everyone is so nice, and I would get to meet a lot of people, but I know in my heart I've made the right decision to leave. Well, I think I'm going to read for awhile now, and they get busy doing a little cleaning before I close up for the night.
Hope you all have a nice weekend -- all 1 or 2 of you who might actually read this!