[Trying4Thin]

I know how you feel about blowing up quickly. A while back I went on some meds for anxiety and depression. I didnt eat well either. That combo was lethal. Needless to say; I quit the pills. I wasn't on them when I was working out last year and I don't need them now.

I pretty much locked up all my junk about Eric (and anything else I have zero control over) in the "God Jar" and put it up on a shelf where I can't reach it. I am just trying to focus on my weight loss and putting blinders on to all the rest. It's that type of distraction that has derailed me before and I won't let it happen again. If I continue to keep Eric in my life right now and constantly worry about what I usually do; I will never get to where I am happy. Once I get back to my old self (the improved version); then I can start to wonder again.

I do believe God works on a schedule of his own; and not just because we want or need something. He has reasons of his own; most of which are unknown to us. But in the end all will be revealed and we can then say "ah-ha!" that's what he ment by that.