[Trying4Thin]

Had a few pieces of candy last night/this morning and I feel really badly. Especially since I was doing so well. Especially since I am supposed to be at a friends house today for dinner. But they dont have a phone or a computer so I cant let them know I am not coming. I dont want to be around all that food; and I dont want to sit there and not eat. They know I am on a diet again. I am not going to be in the same room with cake, stuffing, and lord knows what else. And yes; one bite will kill me. Did some lifting today (haven't since this summer) and I am going to drag myself kicking and screaming to the gym tomorrow.

About a week ago I had to literally cut myself out of a pair of size 14 work pants. Today I went to do laundry and was wearing a size 14 pair of Lane Bryant pants. I am not going to stop this time. I am going to prove to everyone that I can complete the journey. Enough is enough. Plus it is going to feel soooo good the next time I see Eric and he will be drooling all over me in shock. And I will be deciding if I want to waste my time with him or not. He is full of it if he says he doesn't have feelings for me. He knows that if he keeps on seeing me that eventually he will begin to like me though he claims he doesn't want to. Then he says he wish he did have feelings for me and he told his mother that. Whatever...I live for the day he will swallow those words and just stare at me in shock. I am powerful when I put my mind to it. The counter on my MySpace page is ticking away and I am going to beat it. I can't wait for my replacement ATM card to arrive. I am craving fresh veggies and ground turkey like nobody's business.

I am hoping to get a puppy from the pound in the middle of 2008. That way I will have a permanent running buddy and an everyday excuse to go outside and play. I wanted a Pitbull; but I dont have the $100,000 liability insurance they require. (Damn you Michael Vick!!!) So I will most likely go with a Lab Retriever Mix. Something that I wont have to carry after a few miles on the trail.