[Trying4Thin]

I think I just ate too much oatmeal. Most likely the equivalent of 2 pkgs; but I began with three and couldn't finish them. Who knows when I will eat again. And I had water with it. I think I swallowed a bowlingball made of oatmeal...The good news is that I am still losing. I am now at 196.9. That number makes me cringe; but it isnt as bad as my original number with a "2" in front of it. I can't believe I ever got up there again; especially after knowing how miserable I was. It seemed to happen all too quickly. One day I was wearing size 10 jeans; and the next I was using a scissors to get my behind out of the size 14's I grabbed by accident. I've forced myself to post old pictures of myself on my MySpace page to remind myself of what I used to look like. And to say that I wasnt ugly back then. Poor self esteem is what started all of this. Now I cringe when I think my picture might be taken. I am hoping for the day to come when I won't mind; and I might actually like what comes out on film.


51.7 til I hit my last low point of 145.2 pounds
76.9 til I hit goal