[Trying4Thin]

Still no call or email from Eric. Again I am not surprised; just hurt. Yet I am so "hot" to him that he has to ignore me. Maybe he was just busy as usual. I know work does tie him up and he is really tight on time. Well when I do see him next, I will make sure he doesnt want to let me go so easily. He does sound happier when we do talk though. Little by little I am going to win his heart. Gotta keep living at the gym and busting my ass...

Going to sleep with a heating pad tonight; my legs are a little cranky and nothing is going to keep me from working out hard tomorrow. Or for the rest of the days until I go home. Except Nov. 20th...When Monday hits; I will have more 37 days and counting. Not a lot of time to do serious damage. But I will do it. I have a lot riding on this. The harder I work out; the more conditioned I will become and the smaller I will be. I am shooting for 130 lbs by the 21st; but realistically, anywhere in the mid-low 130's is kosher with me. I WILL be at goal (120 lbs) by December 31st. And hopefully I will be spending New Years with Eric by my side. Tall order I know; but it will keep me going to the gym. Even when I reeeeealllly dont want to.