[Trying4Thin]

Thanks Carol,

I dont care if they look. It is kinda flattering, but unnerving at the same time. I catch them doing it and they usually dont look away. (1 at the gym does.) I wish I could work out with my eyes closed so I wouldnt have to see the stares, smirks, smiles etc, but I'd fall off the treadmill. But in all honesty, there is only one guy I want staring at me like that. But guys in general wont even talk to me so I still feel like a freak. That is what bothers me. I cant blame Eric (right now) because he hasnt even seen me in over 2 months. At least he said I was hot. Makes me wonder what he will say when he finally sees me in person (whenever the heck that is.) But guys also stare at "ugly girls" to make fun of them. I dont know where I fit in anymore really.