[Trying4Thin]

Carrie's Tip Of The Day:

How do I make a potentially huge binge disappear?

I found myself in this exact position tonight because I was feeling worthless and a little lonely because Eric and I didnt get together this week (again!! and it has been over 2 months.) And that he wont tell me that he misses me when I know darn well that he does. I think he is avoiding me because he is scared of what will happen since I have changed inside and out. He did say I was hot last week and he hasnt even seen me recently....Anyway, enough of the junk commentary. This had the makings of a HUGE Burger King fast-food-fest written all over it.

Then I went and put on my favorite outfit as of late. Add in new lipstick, blue eye shadow, and a navy blue Patriots hat (the very same that got me kicked off an airplane), and looked in the mirror. I was shocked at what I saw looking back at me. From that point on, eating to the point of sickness no longer seemed worth it. Why? Because the only person I would be betraying is the woman in the mirror. I worked very hard to earn that new reflection in the mirror and I dont want it replaced by the one that stares back at me on my CDL license (a huge, unhappy, cheekboneless, blob of a girl who makes me want to forget that former life). That girl couldnt run, could barely walk, surrounded herself with food, and didnt have a shot in hell at the happiness she rightfully deserved. I think now on all that I have given myself by taking off that extra baggage; a new body, the ability to run again, the chance to be happy, the chance to be noticed, inner and outter strength, and most importantly...the realization that I have found my smile again.

So before you reach for that extra something; just ask yourself...."Is it really worth betraying the woman/man in the mirror that I have worked so hard to become?"

Much love,
~Carrie