[Trying4Thin]

Ok so I am trying to keep myself busy this afternoon so I can go and bust my butt tonight at the gym, and then come home; have a snack and then try and stay awake to watch BL (taping it), and then passing out. I have got to start sleeping through the night. I think the constant up and down is raising my cortisol levels, creating "fake munchie attacks", and making me groggy. I had to sprint into the building today and I just made it to the time clock. Yeah I did the "run of shame at 6:23am." But I also realized I got two commendations within the past month. 1) for picking up a shift when I was begged to help 2) A passenger called in to say (in essence) that I was helpful. At least there are people out there who do in fact appreciate me. I will not be throwing in an application the next time they call for FT. I refuse to waste my time just so they can pass me over again. There are better things in store for me. I am eagerly awaiting my next evaluation.


I am wondering how tomorrow's weigh in will go. I am starting to get antsy again. The major bulk of my weight is sitting in my stomach, chest, and inner thighs. Thighs I can deal with; but the rest I cant. I want to be able to wear small shirts to the gym instead of these oversized things. Going to try and have another 850+ calorie night. I need all the help I can get.

Excited about tonight's show and wondering how it is going to be different than the previous seasons. Still going to miss Jillian. Well now that she is "Loserless" she can come here and beat the stuffing out of me. Well by default I am pulling for Massachusetts and Ohio.