These past couple of weeks are really starting to take their toll on me. I have been up, down, and all around the emotional rollercoaster. It sucks. And once again I handled it very poorly. Diet derailed, cell phone acting up, trouble connecting to the internet, Eric issues, work ticking me off...
Tomorrow I am going to juice again. I havent gotten on the scale because I am scared. I dont need to be anymore depressed than I already am. In any case; my parents want me to come home for a quick weekend in October (6-8) so I HAVE TO get back on track. I am going to push to be at the low 140's-high 130's by then. If I am 110% committed; I can pull this goal out. I am starting to feel sluggy and that is not a good sign. It means I am putting weight back on. NOT ACCEPTABLE. So tomorrow I comence the ass kicking again. I do feel better when I am sweating. I am not going to work out anymore; I am going to TRAIN. I have always said that I perform the best when my back is to the wall; well it is crunch time again. I am not going to go home looking like I havent changed.
