[Joysieangel]

Ive kind of been wondering about myself with this issue. The last couple of weeks, I dont want to work, I dont want to do anything around the house, I dont want to go anywhere or talk to anyone. I just want to sit home and cry. Then when hubby comes home and sees that there is nothing done he gets angry and I feel worse, I cry, he yells, I cry somemore, and just shrink away and do nothing for the rest of the night. Im afraid to go and see my doctor because about 7 or 8 years ago my doctor put me on Paxil saying that I was depressed. He could see a difference in my attitude, and that I was alway feeling "sick". Paxil made me worse. Like Missy said "numb" there was nothing that bothered me. I dont even remember really talking while I was on it. My doctor told me to take it at night so I would sleep through the side effects. It got so bad, one night I went through the house trying to find the guns. I was going to end everything I just couldnt take it anymore. Thank God my ex fiance was home that night and got to everything before I found it. I went off the medication, broke up with him, and everything seemed to be fine. I dont think Ive ever told anyone about this before. I dont think my husband even knows.