[Trying4Thin]

I just had a post finished and AOL locked up my pc.....

I love "Hell's Kitchen!" Part one last night was a repeat. Part two was great. I wont talk about it because they may rebroadcast next Monday and I dont want to ruin it for anyone. I hate when people do that! When my father blew the AI finale before I could finish watching it; I fumed for hours.
Walked to work this morning at 5:05am. There's nothing like it. I got to hear an entire community of frogs croaking in a marsh. Oddly relaxing. Wanted to walk to get my car; but I had my heavy bag with me and I didnt want it hanging off my shoulder and banging the back of my legs for over a mile; so I was able to hitch a ride (most of the way), with a driver just starting her door to door shift. Had the honor of giving a ride to the rudest passenger I have ever had in almost 11 years of driving. I hope we never cross paths again. Next time I wont be nice and polite. She reemed me out for using the air conditioning. She wanted fresh air not chemical fumes from my bus. SO TRY WALKING!!!!!!!!! If I ever see her again I will say that my climate control is busted and I cant turn the A/C off and she can wait for the next bus. I swear some people get off on making other people's lives hell.
I saw my reflection in the windshield today and my face looked larger than life with fat pockets. Where did the lean face go that I was begining to see so often?? It was a little discouraging. But more discouraging is that I have to get on the damn scale again tomorrow and if I am up again I will rip the scale off the wall. PMS or not, I should not be up again. 1.8 pounds in less than a week is more than enough. I should have been well into the 140's by now. I want this weight off so I can get a job with benefits and respect. If I am a counselor I get a white jacket and I will look like a doctor!! I did happen to notice some really cool new muscle definition in my arms and calf areas. But only if I move a certain way. I have to remove more fat before my arms will look toned. I wish I had noticed what I looked like before so I could see the changes. Now I have to rely on others noticing for me. But my uniform is so huge now, I am amazed anyone can see anything.
Jules I listen to anything and everything. I am open to all suggestions.
Have a great night everyone. I will check in later.

~Carrie