[Jules]

I usually post at work, so I never post at the actual end of the day. Continuing from yesterday then... I tried to enjoy normal things, but in small serving sizes.

Yesterday: 380 cal (listed above) Dinner = 2 1/2 slices pizza (850 cal) snacks = Snowcone (250 cal) 2 blackberries+ bite of a frozen chocolate pop (20 cal)
Daily Total: 1500 cal

Comments: I shouldn't have eaten a snowcone at all, but it was an outing and V really wanted to go (it's really hot out). We packed the puppies up on their leashes in the car and drove out to get snowcones. I at least ordered myself the small size. The puppies had a great time on the outing and got lots of attention from the small children there. Parents even told us how well-behaved they were (beams). It's good that they get used to being around people, Ender's still pretty shy. Overall, a little high on calories but not too bad considering. I just had to estimate the snowcone calories. For some funny reason, diet sites don't list the calories in that... :P I mean, who eats snowcones on a diet right? Not as bad as I feared all added up, but I don't wants such unbalanced days regularly.

Today: Breakfast= light Peach yogurt smoothie (90 cal) Cup of Ambrosia tea (0 cal) Projected: Lunch = Campbells Select Roasted Chicken with Rotini and Penne Pasta Soup (200 cal) Snacks = dried pineapple no sugar added (40 cal) 3 0z Blackberries (30 cal) Dinner: Pizza (X cal)
Daily Total so far: 360 cal

Comments: We used to order the special 3 large Papa John's Specialty pizzas for the price of 2 and they'd be eaten for every meal until they were gone. No more for me! Still got the pizzas, but I managed to avoid eating it for breakfast, didn't pack it for lunch, but since I'm eating so healthy now I may fit in some for dinner, knowing how many I'm allowed. (Also there's nothing else for dinner at my house, gotta go shopping again).

Thanks for your comments everyone. I really appreciate them all. I'm frustrated that food is becoming a problem again, and I don't want to go back to eating like I did. I don't want my weight to roller coaster like my life was doing, I want those things to be separate. Things are going smoother for me now, but yet here again I'm struggling with diet/exercise. But I'm going to win out on this. I'm sick of this being an issue in my life, yet I can't turn my attention away without deeply ingraining good habits first. Recording foods is I guess where I'm at now. Sorry, just needed to vent/explore my feelings a little. Time for lunch now.

And yes, those sugar-free fudge pops have kept me sane through this attempt.